Poems to Christ

By Malcolm Hines

Poems to Christ is a book of 181 poems that view the progression of one person from a place of darkness,confusion and hopelessness to a life of eternal Light. In 40,000 words we view an ordinary person who struggles as everyman in a world of pain,loss and betrayal but who has God relentlessly wanting a relationship with this human being and wonderfully succeeds.

We hear choking become easy breath. We visit dark places that relentlessly torture people and Christ. We share dreams that express the horror of fear,true revelation and God's supernatural love. We witness how hope can provide a disembarking to bring any person to a turning point. We experience God physically touching a person with his infinite Love to change a life forever, yielding good works, humor and worship.

• Language: English
• Publisher: Malcolm Hines
• Release date: Jun 3, 2013
• ISBN: 9781301549986

Malcolm Hines

Malcolm Hines ( B.Mus., A.Mus., B.Ed., M.Mus.) is a retired music educator who has published "Music Activities" through Prentice Hall, U.S.A, nine CD's of original music, uplifting musicals for young children and had now completed a book of inspirational poems, entitled "Poems for Christ". He presently teaches music privately to students of all ages in piano, saxophone, flute, guitar, clarinet, percussion and music theory in London, Ontario.

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POEMS TO CHRIST

By Malcolm Hines

copyright, Malcolm Hines, 2013

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Table of Contents

Chapter 1 - Struggling for Air

Chapter 2 - Dark Ones

Chapter 3 - Fulcrum Dreams

Chapter 4 - Hope

Chapter 5 - Disembarking

Chapter 6 - Peripeteia

Chapter 7 - God at Work

Chapter 8 - Humour

Chapter 9 - Just Loving You

Chapter 1 – STRUGGLING FOR AIR

FAMILY HEADSTONE

It's hard to get to your heart

when your family has fallen apart

All those little things that could not be resolved

catch up to make an indestructible

Sorry is out, vulnerable too

A debate is always an argument

Judging is subversively winning this war of

stone cast soldiers born from parent- honed egos

Smash blood. Forget about that.

Gather all your forces against one

Counter each move, isolate to weaken

The devil’s gossip is such fun

Demonize the one who challenges status quo

Remember nothing good that he did

Never look at yourselves, kill the unknown

Burn it, forget it and win

~.~

AWAKE NOW!

I have again escaped this bed of merciless demons

relentlessly replaying old tapes real and imagined

I pray hard but

not stone hard

turtle picking

unveiling

exorcizing

rising again

This tiny dog dreams safe at my feet

Ten pounds of dependence to remind me

my gifts are many

A good woman

A never ending ecstatic canine existentialist licky love

Precious gifts from God

Who infinitely loved me

before my first gasp of this Earth

And health!

I am not hungry

I am not cold

I have no fear of the future

in this world and the Next

Glory be to God, Jesus and the Holy Spirit

Who want me to get out of bed

and do something for them

Amen

~.~

SILENT CRYING HEART

Dear Lord

My heart silently tortures

I carry so much I cannot do

I am too much tired

My head yearns to fall forward

My eyes beg to close

and sleep

just sleep

But my heart races

for things I do not want

and those I do want

Please help me raise my spirit

Please set me free of this veil

Let me find joy in You!

Help me remember I am good because You love me

I do not need to do anything to be good

You made me

You love me

I love me

because I love You

Thank You for my gift of writing

Amen

~.~

DEMON DANCE

Men of black suits walk towards and away, turning left or right.

Unspeaking. Alone.

Demons do dance:

Yeah Yeah Yeah Yeah Yeah Yeah Yeah

Yeah Yeah Yeah Yeah Yeah Yeah Yeah

Yeah Yeah Yeah Yeah Yeah Yeah Yeah

Yeah Yeah Yeah Yeah Yeah Yeah Yeah

and whisper:

he'll never get it done

he thinks that it's no good

he doesn't value dreams

he don't know how to market

he thinks that he can't draw

so he can't make his story board

he thinks that nobody wants to know about

or cares about God

he thinks that nobody wants to know about

or cares about God

he thinks that nobody wants to know about

or cares about God

Yeah Yeah Yeah Yeah Yeah Yeah Yeah

Yeah Yeah Yeah Yeah Yeah Yeah Yeah

Yeah Yeah Yeah Yeah Yeah Yeah Yeah

Yeah Yeah Yeah Yeah Yeah Yeah Yeah

he listens to everything we say

Lazi laza lazu lazi

it's easier this way

he's got to have God energy

to make anything good occur

he'll make excuses all his days

he'll lock himself unsure

he'll say he isn't feeling well

he'll dwell on those hurt screechers

suicide: he'll be all dead end inside

we win

he won't practice what he preaches

Yeah Yeah Yeah Yeah Yeah Yeah Yeah

Yeah Yeah Yeah Yeah Yeah Yeah Yeah

Yeah Yeah Yeah Yeah Yeah Yeah Yeah

Yeah Yeah Yeah Yeah Yeah Yeah Yeah

he isn't any good

he never tried hard enough to learn his trade

he'll tell other people what he's working on

to lessen what he thinks

he'll search to remember his parents' words

that made him feel real small

he'll listen to those who diminish his faith

he'll try to remember them all

he'll try to get depressed and cannot

that will make him tired

he'll see himself on his lonely death bed

he will not really live at all

Satan and him!

He'll dwell on death I love the Lord

he'll sex Christ says to love

he'll doubt Our father who art in Heaven

well well well ain't he just a...

God came to see me

He loved me in my car

He'll never...

His love is like a mountain!

It Is always!

~.~

BURIED

How low to the ground do I have to be to pray the best?

Kneeling?

Lying prostrate on the ground?

Do I have to be under the ground?

Do I have to be buried before I do it well?

Amen

~.~

MEMORIES OF LEVITATION

God,

You must have a reason to have black stick:

In waking, I must fly straight up beyond my roof and announce

Watch this

...To no one

God,

You must know I need those black memories

for action

You do get me up

God,

Let me serve you so that I may help just one person hope

Everything you do is perfectly good in ways we can't know

Let me share helplessness and betrayal and confusion and grace

That everything You do is to strengthen faith

You are only good. It is us that are frail

for terrible bad on Your Earth

We are to blame

But

You are perfect in Spirit, heart and mind

You are only kind

Even in rough love

You will teach forgiveness

Amen

~.~

HOW IS HOME?

Broken sleeps.

Scotch on the rocks.

The same bad dreams.

The world's gone to pot.

Gotta go to the gym.

Need a massage.

Dad might lose a foot.

Mom doubts there's God.

Brother's scary.

Intimidate-guarding ways.

Cat got him

When she died yesterday.

There’s a screamer.

Everything to say.

One conjoined sister.

Shares the same brain.

Men feign doubting nothing.

Their women gossip imprison.

Another Groundhog Day.

Refusing that God can save them.

Home?

Four husbands, lies and a Vette?

How is your home?

Are you at rest in it?

~.~

BLACK STIRRING

Morning hurts

Whistling brain

Testing memories

Breaking back

Weeping eye

Heavy lung and heart

Morning hurts

Bent hand

Sour taste

Bitter me

Better you

No weeping

This is not a dying heart

Morning hurts

Stabbing pain

Coming back

Again

Dark eye

Silent lung

Heavy heart

Stone Cold

Hard throat

Morning hurts!

~.~

FIRE JESUS

Jesus.

Why does your name ignite?

Jesus...?

What if you had been Bob?

Would your name seem more right?

Jesus?

Bob Break doesn't sound so bad

Bob Christ is pushing it, pushing it

Bob Chrisianson sells insurance to farmers

His name would make nobody mad

Jesus.

Why does your name ignite?

Jesus?

Where's the Cup?

who is living a better life than me?

i see those smiles on facebook

is everybody happy?

is everybody happy?

who feels complete and needs nothing more?

i see the hundred thousand club in the newspaper

are CEO's happy

are you really happy…

then how often

do you feel a joy that takes you right away

do you wake up and your rarin' to start your day

do you know if you died you would be ok

how often do you feel that way

how often

how often?

television distorts vision

radio joins right in

newspaper kills the spirit

booze numbs it to shit

pot hides it in la la land

books can't outlast death man

nothing can help like Jesus can

keep smilin' you idiot

are you makin’ enough money

are you famous enough

are you good enough lookin'

do you have enough power over others

are you getting ahead

faster than the rest

you're a strange mother fucker

soon you'll be dead

then how often

do you feel a joy that takes you right away

do you wake up and your rarin' to start your day

do you know if you died you would be ok

how often do you feel that way

how often

how often?

~.~

HELP HELP HELP HELP

God please help to be forgiving

Teach me to be compassionate

Teach me not to become angry

Help me understand the world

All are fearful but will not tell you

because they are fearful

They think they need to protect themselves at all times

They are afraid of everything-and you

You do not to acknowledge this

because you wish no ill will

and you think yourself less that most

but this is simply not true

I love you more than anyone is able

You have fear but you know you do

You need to learn you can really help people

Know this is true

You're doing fine. Focus on helping

Don't let ego get in the way

Do right

and love every day

Be patient,

kind,

have faith,

acknowledge fear

Always know

I AM

near

~.~

ACHING BODY

My heart beats

I remember an indiscretion

My body will always remind me

I am grateful for that

Thank you

I have worked too hard for my body

I did not respect it

My neck, my arms ache, my heart...

My heart aches for Christ

Teach me to know You

Help me to want You more

Let me forgive myself for all I've been

Angry

Resentful

Lazy

Self-righteousness

Mistrusting

Irresponsible

Drunk

Closed off

Lusting

Denying

Swearing

Lying

And You love me anyway

Please help me to know how much You love me...

This man of so many poor choices

Give me the strength and a good memory

to be someone You would be proud of

Jesus, help me

I need You

Amen

~.~

SLEEP CRUMPLED WASTE BASKET

sleep is a waste

going there

being in it

getting out

thrashing about

snoring

it's outright boring

and annoying to others

listening to me do it

I promise to

sleep next year

when my mp3

gets me somewhere

.... other than here

Amen

~.~

PARALYZED!

I am so fortunate

to bow to you

Kill my pride

Smash it now

Convince me I know nothing

I paralyze giving up me for you

What can I do?

What is Holy Spirit?

Will She help me to not resist?

You know

I know nothing

Paralyzed!

I'm paralyzed and shredded

I've not been wise in this life

It is hard to say Christ

Paralyzed!

I beg You to move me

I will let You move me

towards Your glorious Light

I have not seen Your countenance

Unless it was my own

Is this pride?

Smash it now

Convince me I know nothing

Reshape me as Christly Something

Help me along the way

to trust myself in choosing You

I know You are the Way and the Life

I begged to see Your face in the sky

but You showed me Your child

I visioned my own self in glory

A perfect surprise

No delusions of grandeur

I was smote in flesh for this sight

I only need You to convince me

That what I saw was right

I don't want to be alone in this

Where are the angels?

Please fill me up

Do I need a wafer and a cup?

Wine just gets in the way

Please be my Saviour

Sincerely,

Your kid,

Me

~.~

DOG VALUE

I feel so useless today

I cannot raise my spirit

I ache, I near cry, I wait, I lie

In bed longer than I should

I don't want to think about how weak I am

I am lower than the