Love & light are not all there is. While at some foundational metaphysical level, perhaps all is emptiness or bliss or any other altered state of consciousness. But in the day to day operations of being a human in this crazy, fucked up world at this "interesting time" in civilizational history, things are much more painful & messy & hard. How we wake up everyday pretending to be ready for the chaos that is awaiting us once we step out our doors of safety, is astounding to me. We talk about purpose or meaning or manifesting. But reality of the situation is that we are in nature & of nature & nature doesn't give a flying fuck about us. Our personal history & goals don't seem mean a goddamn thing to actual functioning of the universe. & there are hazards to being alive & aware & paying attention. Suffering, pain & risk are right here. Right in front of us. & if we are going reason & hope & try at this game of life, is to risk everything. We must wrestle with the angel of risk, just as Jacob wrestled with his angel in the Biblical story in Genesis (34:27). In this episode we get really real about risk: how most people avoid recognizing risk in their training & racing, how risk can effect our mental health & life purpose & how accepting risk & meeting it head are the cost of doing business when trying to operate in high performance situations. As we frequently do in these conversations, we lay out a blanket & sit down with risk. Along the way we get messy, ball the blanket up, tear at it gnash our teeth, bend over backwards as we approach the monsters hiding underneath it. We get hot & bothered in this one & I go on a few spontaneous rants. You've been warned. So join us in this exploration we call Wrestling with the Angel of Risk. Godspeed, my friends, godspeed.