RUN: From The Pain Within

By Myechia Barnett and Barnett Publishing

I not only had the enemy fighting me, but honestly, I have been fighting myself for releasing this story. Emotions surrounding the fear of what others will say? Emotions surrounding how successful this book will be? Emotions surrounding hindering others from their blessing, empowerment, and help with my words and testimony? Emotions surrounding that because I know this is bigger than me and not for me, that I’m owning this and running with it? Fear is the opposite of faith, and here we are. God told me at 19 that I would write a book. In 2019, I wrote 2 children’s books, but I’m sure that wasn’t what He meant, lol.
Yeah, right, my actions showed. As time passed, events happened, losses and gains, building true resilience and learning who I am. I actually started writing this about 5 years ago. I lost everything I had on this story when the laptop went to shit. BAM! I pawned the laptop and didn’t move my work. BAM. I got a new laptop and just gave up. See, when there’s a purpose far more prominent than you in moments you don’t understand, you miss out on paying attention to the surrounding things. It was keeping me from accomplishing what I was supposed to do. I kept myself from what I was supposed to do until 2020-2021. This is when I really sat down and started putting it on paper. One thing that I noticed, I did not remember details. The ability to have details to take someone on a journey with you. Now, this may not be perfect in grammar, etc., but this will reach those it’s SUPPOSED to reach. I’m assigned to those women who experienced what I went through and didn’t see a way out. Those women who thought it was them when, in reality, it’s not. You were a child. You never had the chance to be a child. You grew up too fast and became an adult so young. You were violated, and these events created a spiral effect. An effect that has been hard to get through, learn through and heal through. While none of us is perfect, this story is one part of the younger version of me who needed someone to show them the way, love them with emotions, care for them, and lead them.
Learn about Sabrina’s childhood memories and uneventful moments that led her into early adulthood. This book will express what she did, been through, allowed, or overcame. God is and always has been the One behind the scenes. This is just the beginning of Sabrina’s pitfalls, pain, suffering, and self-sabotage. I’m here to tell you, “there’s beauty on the other side of pain.” May God bless you with

• Language: English
• Publisher: Myechia Barnett
• Release date: Feb 16, 2023
• ISBN: 9781737350286

Book preview

RUN

FROM THE PAIN WITHIN

UNTOLD STORY

MYECHIA BARNETT

Copyright © 2022 Myechia Barnett | Barnett Publishing

All rights reserved.

ISBN-10: 1737350289

ISBN-13: 978-1-7373502-8-6

Table of Contents

Dedication

Resources

Introduction

Chapter 1: Innocence Taken

Chapter 2: School Life

Chapter 3: Snap Out of It

Chapter 4: Cousins??!!!

Chapter 5: Feeling Imprisoned

Chapter 6: A Nightmare

Therapeutic Venture For You

Dedication

I dedicate to my four beautiful children, Samaj, Malaysha, Mahki and Sy’yair. This starts my legacy for them, and I want them to know where mommy came from and what she went through in order to get where she is today.

To my children: No matter how far, how near, or how long, I have always loved you and always will. Life may have thrown some curveballs, but mommy always threw a bigger one back. If you are reading this book and have a sense of resentment, abandonment, rejection, anger, or anything other than love, I ask you openly to forgive me for the decisions I have made in my past concerning you. However, I will not apologize for placing you in the hands of others to be stable and taken care of until I could. This is what a mother’s love looks like. Selflessly ensuring that you are okay while mommy is dealing with the pressures of life. I’ve always believed that we all will be together because God said so; in this, my children, it is about His timing, not mine.

We fall down, but we get up, no matter what you’ve done.  I love you all.

Love, Mommy

Resources

National Suicide Prevention Lifeline

Hours: Available 24 hours. Languages: English, Spanish.

800-273-8255

Mental Help Online - Text, Chat, Video, or Call

www.BetterHelp.com

Find Support | National Parent Helpline

https://www.nationalparenthelpline.org/find-support

National Domestic Violence Hotline

Hours: 24/7. Languages: English, Spanish and 200+ through interpretation service

800-799-7233

Introduction

I not only had the enemy fighting me, but honestly, I have been fighting myself for releasing this story. Emotions surrounding the fear of what others will say? Emotions surrounding how successful this book will be? Emotions surrounding hindering others from their blessing, empowerment, and help with my words and testimony? Emotions surrounding that because I know this is bigger than me and not for me, that I’m owning this and running with it? Fear is the opposite of faith, and here we are. God told me at 19 that I would write a book. In 2019, I wrote 2 children’s books, but I’m sure that wasn’t what He meant, lol.

Yeah, right, my actions showed. As time passed, events happened, losses and gains, building true resilience and learning who I am. I actually started writing this about 5 years ago. I lost everything I had on this story when the laptop went to shit. BAM! I pawned the laptop and didn’t move my work. BAM. I got a new laptop and just gave up. See, when there’s a purpose far more prominent than you in moments you don’t understand, you miss out on paying attention to the surrounding things. It was keeping me from accomplishing what I was supposed to do. I kept myself from what I was supposed to do until 2020-2021. This is when I really sat down and started putting it on paper. One thing that I noticed, I did not remember details. The ability to have details to take someone on a journey with you. Now, this may not be perfect in grammar, etc., but this will reach those it’s SUPPOSED to reach. I’m assigned to those women who experienced what I went through and didn’t see a way out. Those women who thought it was them when, in reality, it’s not. You were a child. You never had the chance to