The Honest Mom Project: Acknowledge Your Feelings, Break Free from Expectations, Build Your Beautiful Life as a Mother
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Then The Honest Mom Project is for you.
The Honest Mom Project shares all the unmarketable feelings moms think and feel, but are afraid to say in public, creating a comfort zone for moms like you to do the same. This book will break the mom seal, giving you validation that yes, motherhood can suck at times, and it's okay to finally acknowledge and release what's been inside you for way too long. Breaking the mom seal is the only way to find your unique self, true friendships, a strong marriage, and the ability to enjoy motherhood your way.
I am a health coach who has focused on fertility, pregnancy, and postpartum wellness for the past nine years, and I am also a mother who has experienced each and every one of the feelings I discuss in this book. Through my years of research and personal experience, I've found tools that can help you through this very difficult time of adjustment. With each section, and the discussions within, you will become stronger and more confident in acknowledging and beginning to break free from what is really holding you back. You will start to connect, believe, and work toward building the unique life—as both a mother and a person—that you deserve.
The Honest Mom Project is just that: honest. Here, you will have the opportunity to connect with each feeling, and breathe a sigh of relief after you let it all out. You will learn and understand basic human needs that are at the root of these feelings you have, and you can finally come to know that you're not a terrible mother. You're simply a human going through the most massive change.
There is no place in this book for judgment, I assure you. Just tips and strategies to accept, understand, and work through your experience so you can:
● Start connecting with the feelings you have
● Allow feelings that have been hiding to finally come to the surface
● Acknowledge that these feelings are real, regardless of anyone else
● Find people you can trust (even if it's only me!) and talk about these feelings
● Build confidence that these feelings don't make you a bad mom
● Break free from outside expectations, guilt, and resentment
● Escape the fantasies of motherhood and find your reality
● Create your own story of how motherhood will be for you
● Get off the deserted island, find your community, and start "enjoying" motherhood
Mom, you don't have to sit on your deserted island any longer. You don't have to wait for your best friend, mother, or doctor to tell you that your feelings are important and real. The longer you wait, the longer you will be in the narrative you're creating. The moment you turn this page and start the first chapter is the moment you will begin to heal and create your own story.
You deserve to be happy and enjoy motherhood. Not every moment (#letsbereal), but it can get better. It does get better…(mostly).
Ready for some honesty?
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The Honest Mom Project - Michelle Mansfield
To my daughter, Brooklyn, who has been in this shit storm with me the entire time and has taught me so much about
what it truly means to be her mother.
THE
PROJECT
Copyright © 2022 Michelle Mansfield. All rights reserved.
ISBN 978-1-66787-509-5 (Print)
ISBN 978-1-66787-510-1 (eBook)
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Contents
Introduction
Chapter 1 If I Could Turn Back Time
Chapter 2 Your Identity Doesn’t Have to Be a Crisis
Chapter 3 Having a Baby Didn’t Complete Us
Chapter 4 What Do You Do All Day?
Chapter 5 How to Politely Tell Someone to Shut the F Up
Chapter 6 Maybe I’m Just Wired for Mom Guilt?
Chapter 7 Being a Mom Can Be REALLY Boring!
Chapter 8 Why Wasn’t I Invited to the Party?
Chapter 9 Hey, Where the Hell Did Everyone Go?!
Chapter 10 Social Media is the New Supermodel
Conclusion
Acknowledgements
Introduction
To the Mother Reading This Book,
I see you sitting in the corner with your latte and stroller. Looks like this may be your first adventure out of your house with your new baby. She’s all cuddled in her stroller, dressed in the onesie from grandma, along with a beautiful rose blanket with a satin trim from your baby shower. Her eyes are closed peacefully as she sleeps. It’s easy to look at this scene as an outsider and smile for you. Even with the soft filter and calmness that comes from you, I know this is one of the shortest periods of your day. I hope you’re enjoying it because when you walk in that door of your house, you’re back. It’s not a happy Honey I’m home!
feeling where you are excited and feel welcomed. Most of the time you dread coming home and going right back to where you were thirty minutes ago. The place you were escaping.
You don’t know what else to do with her right now. Sitting in your home seems to be the easiest option. Perhaps it’s winter, or maybe it’s a hundred degrees out, gathering the items for the diaper bag is overwhelming, you wonder if she’ll need to be fed (AGAIN), what if she cries, what if she has a diaper blow out, what if you run into someone, and the excuses build up. Most days you toss in the towel and say F it!
to sit back down on the couch with her. She’s nursing round the clock anyways so perhaps this is just temporary, and you should be staying at home.
You’re probably saying, Well, it’s not like I’m TOTALLY alone right now; we’ve had a lot of visitors since we got home.
I, too, had many people that dropped by after my daughter was born, reached out to see how she was doing, some even brought a meal or even offered to pick up my house. But the visits will stop. The reach outs and need anything?
texts will be fewer. You’re not reaching out either; you don’t want to bother anyone or make anyone notice that you are drowning. With as much help as your mom has been, you even feel you’re asking too much from her. You’re a perfectionist on top of it, and so hard on yourself if you can’t figure it out on your own. This is not something you’re going to fail at, even if you’re on Dr. Google at 3 a.m. overanalyzing the fifteen different pieces of advice on why she won’t latch. To you, asking for help means you are failing. Where is this mommy instinct
they talk about anyways?
But if you’re on a deserted island with no compass, how are you supposed to find this?
Not only are you insecure about this mommy gig, but you haven’t been taking care of yourself either. You feel guilty for even thinking about spending time with friends or leaving your baby for ten minutes to take a shower. You honestly get drained from just thinking about putting on makeup and blow-drying your hair—or even simply washing it.
When someone mentions the weekly date-nights they have, your head spins at what you and your partner would even do, who would watch the baby, how much milk would you have to pump, how much formula to make, the pain-in-the-ass pumping when you get home, your boobs leaking at the dinner table, your mind is distracted by wondering if the baby is crying, is she sleeping, why haven’t I heard from my mother-in-law, my mother-in-law won’t stop texting me, I’m not even enjoying this glass of champagne, is my partner even attracted to me right now, is he bored, we have nothing to talk to, we are both exhausted; OH MY GOD make it stop!
I know, I always wondered if it would even be worth it as well. So, we didn’t have a date night for a long time. We survived and are still married.
I see you sitting in the corner. My friend, although no one is here to save you, I am here with my hand reaching out. To be by your side, make you feel normal, included, ease the guilt a tad, help you simply admit your feelings, and most importantly for you to know you’re an incredible mother. You see, as I look at you, I’m also looking in a mirror and remembering things that I’ve gone through. I haven’t forgotten how hard it can be and what my life was like that first year. Or second. Or even third. I, too, hid it from the ones that love and care about me. The ones that wanted to help and extend their hand to me from across the room. I will tell you this, no one will put you in the corner other than yourself. There are times when we can get our ass up and step out on the dance floor, but let’s be honest, there are times when we need supportive and empathetic moms to drag us out there too. There’s nothing wrong with how you get there as long as you get there and start dancing.
It’s time to start your own Honest Mom Project.
With Love,
Michelle
Chapter 1
If I Could Turn
Back Time
I lay on my bed in my college apartment just a few days after I had graduated. I couldn’t stop crying. More like sobbing. I called my college boyfriend to come over as I sat in my apartment alone and scared to death. When he arrived, I couldn’t explain what was going on. All I could do was cry. When he left a few hours later, I was still in the exact same spot where I was when he arrived. After that, I naturally I called my mom. I don’t know what’s wrong with me, Mom. I just can’t stop crying. I feel so overwhelmed, and I don’t know what to do.
Life was changing after I received that diploma. A big reality was staring at me in the face: MY NEW LIFE. It was time to let go of those four years of fun, freedom, friendships, and little responsibility. Not only did I make some of the best memories I’ve ever had, but I also had an amazing group of friends to say goodbye to as I packed my boxes for the last time. I didn’t have a job yet. What made matters worse is I had this degree, $75,000 in school loans, and didn’t know what I even wanted to do in life. There weren’t any courses in Adulting.
I felt unprepared, insecure, and terrified. Even though I knew I had my mother’s support and a place to go back to, what was I going to do once I was there? What if I didn’t want to go back?
Flash-forward and my panic eventually subsided, I found a job, and saved enough money to make the big move to Chicago. I gallivanted around in the bright lights, big city life, proudly wearing the I’m NEVER Moving Back to the Suburbs!
badge. Living in the city was a time that I cherish to this day, and for some reason, I didn’t have a difficult time adjusting to. Perhaps it was because I was escaping the stigma of living with my parents, again, and I was already one foot in the door to having a life of excitement back. I had my Mary Tyler Moore feels of making it, doing it on my own, and having a lot of fun and freedom at the same time. I had a consistent career, lived with my best friends, worked hard, played hard, and had no heavy responsibilities other than paying my rent, going to work, and making sure the electricity was paid for. Life was easy, but it was about to change and get complicated again.
Adjusting to a completely
new way of life is HARD
I hesitated even being set up with my husband for just ONE specific reason. My best friend and her husband were the culprits (I mean cupids) and the only two people on the planet that didn’t try to set me up with someone. So, I was curious. I trusted them and hoped it was better than all the other setups and online crap I was finding. What’s crazy is when they listed off his first two credentials,
they winced, and to their surprise and mine, the first two didn’t scare me. He was divorced. Eh, who isn’t nowadays? They then told me he had two kids. Actually, that was pretty darn attractive to me coming from dating men that acted like children themselves. I was ready for a grown ass man with some sort of plan in life. What sent me over the edge was the third credential: He lived in the SUBURBS. Not just any suburb, but in a galaxy far, far away from the city. After some convincing, I took a chance. Not taking any date too seriously, I figured it was simply a date, and it didn’t mean I had to marry the guy. Well wouldn’t you know, I started to believe in miracles. The first one is, love at first site does exist. The second miracle you ask? Six months later, I moved my ass to the suburbs.
Moving to the ’burbs, adjusting, and getting to know his children led us to wait about five years before even thinking of getting pregnant. So even though I was in the suburban family-zone, and the adjustment was difficult; it was still an autonomous life. My husband had 50/50 custody with his ex and my busy career and friends kept me connected to my past life in the city. During this time, we traveled a lot, bought a timeshare in Cabo San Lucas, went out to dinner often, sat in movie theaters watching grown-up movies, lounged on the couch binge watching Netflix, slept past 6 a.m., took Starbucks walks without a stroller, went to concerts past 10 p.m., and simply spent time together as husband and wife.
Was I ready for the biggest change yet?
I found out I was pregnant on Father’s Day. Could it get any cheesier than that? Ironically, I was by myself as my husband was on the road with his son driving to a baseball tournament. It felt a bit off to tell him on the phone, but I knew I didn’t want to wait until he got back. Obviously telling him on Father’s Day was too perfect to pass up. Yes, I was excited, but there was also the strangest feeling inside of me. Even though I connected to the fact that I was going to have a baby, there was still this it’s just me
feeling that continued up