Why the Love of My Life Put Me in Jail

By Latrina Cross

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• Language: English
• Publisher: Xlibris US
• Release date: Apr 4, 2023
• ISBN: 9781669872160

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Over the past few years, I’ve been unlucky in love, only attracting the same guy with a different name and face from the past yet all having the same characteristics and very much so emotionally unavailable, mentally immature, and selfish. I knew right away that I had to make a dramatic change in my life; therefore, I stepped away from the dating scene and began to focus more on myself. During my self-reflection, I came to terms with my own flaws of being codependent and too freehearted with the opposite sex; and because of it, I was attracting different types of toxic companions into my life. I promised and made a pledge before the heavenly Father to fall in love with him and myself with no interferences from the opposite sex. I must admit after exercising self-love, I became very content with my lifestyle, and I enjoyed my own company; it was very rewarding and peaceful. I often took myself on dates and found the greatest joy in exercising, traveling, hanging out with my son, or just simply walking my dog. The small things that I had overlooked were such a blessing and felt so rewarding. I began to glow, and often, others would compliment me on my new life change. It felt like divine confirmation that dating myself was best.

Oftentimes, guys would flirt and compliment me on my looks, but I’d stay to myself. The more time I spent with the heavenly Father, the more attractive I became. God was granting my heart’s desires, and his spirit was shining on me.

I began setting high personal goals for growth, and it was exciting and fun; nothing was too hard or impossible with God on my side. Whether it was a short-term goal or a long-term goal, I was able to accomplish all things; with the spirit, it wasn’t impossible. Falling in love with Christ and taking care of myself was love and grace no other soul could give me.

Yes! I was walking on a narrow path full of prayer, faith, and repentance and meditating on the Word. It truly was a time in my life where I felt loved, safe, and confident.

I was at a point in life where I didn’t have to cry myself to sleep or worry if the person in my life really loved or wanted me. I had all I needed in life to be successful with Christ, being at the center of my world. Life became beautiful again after walking away from the past hurt, disappointments, and pain. Years of walking with Christ and practicing self-love had matured me into a greater woman than what I was before. I had no ill feelings or grudges against no one from my past life. I grew to know who I was and whom I belonged too, and that kept me disciplined.

It had been three years of purity or sullivant, and I began to have the desire to mingle and interact with the opposite sex again although I had no clue on how to go about it. I wanted to open my heart and not be closed off to men because of my past experiences. The desire to converse with a suitable male and enjoy each other’s company had crossed my mind often. After years of being alone, I already knew the type of husband I desired and what to look for in a mate to have an excellent lover. Others often suggested that I start dating again and let my hair down. I agreed with a close friend and allowed her to place me on a date or two. Shortly after attending those dates, I learned that the dating world had changed greatly, and I was rusty and not interested in the new order of things; it seemed as though the roles had changed in that the women took the lead, and sex was extremely easy to come across. It was as if no one was desiring a godly, loving union leading to courtship and then marriage. The world had changed a great deal within three years, and it was bluntly in my face. But I refused to give up and became discouraged with my surroundings. I then decided to wait a few months longer before meeting another person in the dating world.

I still had hope and faith that the Creator had designed someone especially for me. It was just a matter of bad timing and continuing to stay on the course, and that’s exactly what I did. I used my free time to enjoy with my family, travel, make extra money by working longer hours, and make beautiful memories with close friends. One day, one of my close friends suggested that I download an app for singles looking to date; she then explained how she meets so many interesting people and how she’s never bored or alone. I found it rather funny because she was telling the truth; she often went out on dates and always had a male companion to accompany her. There was even a time or two where she tried to set me up on a blind date with one of his friends. I was curious to learn about the dating app; therefore, I asked all kinds of questions, and she answered every one of them. She continued to sell me the idea of fun, handsome, and local single men in our area looking for love as well. After hearing her speak, I was sold and was ready to download the app. Her words of encouragement felt good to hear, and it was time for me to come out of my shell. But deep down, I felt as though I was too valuable for a dating site filled with thousands of strange people looking for a companion. Then the other side of me was very curious to give it a try. It seemed as though my friend was always happy and almost never home although her dating affairs were short-lived. I thought to myself, Is it even worth a try? After she told me the details of it, I then downloaded the dating app on my cell phone; it asked me several personal questions and for a current photo of myself, so I scrolled through my phone and added my favorite picture and answered the questions. Boom, my account was active, and others could chat with me or request to be my friend. I began playing with the account for about an hour, and already, I had ten or more guys interested in meeting me. That’s when the site suggested that I add more personal information about myself and to write a post for others to see. I then added a spiritual yet encouraging post to encourage whomever came across it and needed to read it. I noticed after briefly being on the site, while I was attracting many guys from foreign places, the dating site began to annoy me because of the lack of success I was having. When I posted encouraging spiritual content, I’d attract foreigners and other women supporting it. I became frustrated with the whole thing and considered deleting it. That’s when I decided I wasn’t going to use the site anymore and that it was a complete waste of time. After not being on the site for a few weeks, I made the decision to return and add a current photo of myself and a new positive and funny post. And that’s when it all began; there was an overwhelming response from all kinds of single men in my area looking to date. My messages were so full there was no way I could respond to them all. I was able to scan through the messages without opening them, and they were coming like an overflow. I felt desired and sexy from all the attention I was receiving. Every week, I’d post a new photo of myself, and more and more messages would come. But still, I didn’t reply to any of them. I was having fun, and it was shocking to see how many guys found me attractive and wanted to get to know me. Then I thought, Hey, let me just open a few of these messages, and