Watching My Mind Date Online
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Watching My Mind Date Online offers valuable lessons about becoming honest with ourselves and others. Tamika bravely exposes her vulnerability as she guides us through her two-year journey of conscious online dating. By learning to release fear-based beliefs, we allow our true desires to emerge.
The insights in this book expand our ability to love and be loved, and are applicable to all aspects of life. Through self-investigation we create a deep, clear pool of awareness. By learning to trust our process, we dive in.
Tamika Harmon
Tamika Harmon has been intrigued with “the best kind of love” since she was a young girl. A lifetime of careful observation and self-exploration has shed a beautiful light on the art of finding love. This must-read is fascinating, funny and revealing.
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Watching My Mind Date Online - Tamika Harmon
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ISBN: 978-1-5043-3186-9 (sc)
ISBN: 978-1-5043-3187-6 (e)
Balboa Press rev. date: 12/22/2015
TABLE OF CONTENTS
MY FIRST INSPIRATION
MY MAIDEN VOYAGE
THE SECOND TRY
MY CONFESSION
Who Is Us
WORDS ARE SACRED
HE IS SURE I AM THE ONE
WHO SAYS SO
HE WILL SWEEP ME OFF MY FEET
LOVE AND COMFORT
THE BIG QUESTION
AN OPPORTUNITY
THE HUB
Enter Here
PREDICTABILITY VS RESPONSIBILITY
MY LIFE-PARTNER
DON'T TOUCH MY NO-THING
Closer Now
DEFINE BEING
Known by a Moment
PRECIOUS WORDS
ROXIE SINGS COUNTRY
AN OPEN INVITATION
AND ... I WANT TO BE ADORED
AFTER A GOOD NIGHT'S SLEEP
JUST THE FACTS ... PLEASE
INTERNET DATING FOR 11 YEARS ?
I LOVE CREATING BEAUTY
GITTY-UP
WILLING TO GIVE ME EVERYTHING
Cradled
THE SPARK
DREAM OR NIGHTMARE
A DATE OR ANOTHER DREAM ?
THE THIRD DATE'S A CHARM
I am Castle
WHY HIM ... NOW ?
PASSAGEWAYS & THRESHOLDS
I WILL BE HAPPY WHEN ...
THE UNFAMILIAR DARK
DR. KINKY
Inhabit Me
WHAT IS LOVE ?
THE DATE
MORE ON THAT NOW
DOWNSTREAM
Ollie Ollie Oxen
BACK ON THE HORSE
EXCLUSIVE RELATIONS
I Do ?
BLACK MAGIC
FOUR QUESTIONS
MY PAST COMMITMENTS
THE ANSWERS
THREE DAYS
MY HEART KNOWS
INSPIRED AND IN LOVE
A YEAR HAS PASSED
MOMENTUM
ALL THIS JAZZ
ABOUT THE AUTHOR
As the awarenesses within this book ripple outward, this project continues to feel like a celebration of appreciation.
Thank you, thank you, thank you ... Alona, Mindy, Jack, Shannon, Taylor, Bonnie, Bob, Steve and all of my dates.
I am grateful for all of you
and for your contribution to ...
Watching My Mind
Date Online
IMG097Version2.jpgI'm watching a fluffy, flouncy wedding party parade by and trying to see into my future.
MY FIRST INSPIRATION
My curiosity about love relationships began as a very young child. I was intrigued by how happy couples seemed to create a reservoir of love. It appeared to come, not only from the individuals, but from their union. I could see the overflowing created in the magic place where the happy couple overlapped.
It didn't seem to matter what the couples had or did not have, or what was going on around them. As to be expected, life's ups and downs made the individuals smile or frown. But the place of overlap where love was renewed, within a happy partnership, felt constant and comforting.
Conversely, I felt acutely uncomfortable in the proximity of unhappy couples. The emptiness between them seemed as if it was sucking up the life-giving lushness of love. As a little girl, that sad feeling of drought would leave me holding my breath, and sometimes still does.
From an early age I was inspired to live and learn what I believed to be the best kind of love.
I was not sure what the day-to-day workings of that kind of love looked like, but I had witnessed bits and pieces. Although I could not articulate it, I believed this idea of love to be a messy unfolding contained in an ordered rhythm. Like nature, wild, yet peaceful.
I was fascinated by the continual changes I had seen in nature. I contemplated the notion of impermanence. Over and over again, I was strangely excited to know the tide would come in and wash away my sand castles.
I didn't have the typical fantasies of the perfect wedding and the fairytale happily-ever-after life. Divorce was a common theme and the rhythm of change flowing through relationships has never surprised me. Long before I knew the words to express it, I knew I was destined to practice love. I vowed to experiment and even wrestle with love. The prospect of engaging in such an endeavor perplexed and intrigued me then, as it does now. I was particularly fascinated with the love between husband and wife, and girlfriend and boyfriend.
About age nine, I started to see how big the idea of love was. I made a deal with Whomever is really in charge.
I promised I would learn about love. I did that by very intently watching the interactions between all the couples I could get my eyes on. I was determined to keep on learning, until I understood. Then, I would keep on practicing until I did it so much that I didn't even know I was doing it. I knew how that worked by learning to ride my bike.
My curiosity and observation deepened as other childhood aspirations bloomed. I was inspired to be a massage therapist. This came about when I would sit in the center of the circle of my mom's group therapy friends and rub their feet. I believed that relaxing touch was the most straightforward way to help this difficult world. I sat quietly and loved watching my patients
become more calm and comfortable. These sessions also provided an amazing opportunity to listen and learn about the intricacies of relationship.
At that time, I knew I was destined to create beauty. I observed that beauty, like love, radiated outward in all directions and created happiness. I practiced creating beauty every chance I got. I decorated my room, created gifts and cards, made my own clothes and planted flowers. Also, like love, there were infinite opportunities to practice, experiment and even wrestle with beauty. I have been dedicated to the process all the while.
Early on, I was inspired to be a mom ... someday. I knew it was hard work. I believed then, and still believe, that being a parent is divine work.
I was married young. I am grateful for the many years I spent co-creating a family bond. I have raised an amazing son and daughter who continually open me to lessons of love and beauty.
I am blessed by a fulfilling profession as a therapist. I am selling my works of art, and I am enjoying the life of an artist. My career, homemaking, motherhood and artistry have all come naturally.
Opening my heart to life, also, flows naturally. Much of the time, I experience an all-encompassing compassion toward humanity. I sense the exchange of a deep heartfelt love and gratitude within nature. I feel a strong love-bond with friends and family.
And, yet, love, as it pertains to a marriage-type relationship, has eluded me.
Now, I am coming back to the first, truly inspired desire that I can remember. My desire is to be fully engaged in a long-term, well-rounded love relationship. I feel it is time for my life-partner and me to meet.
But, how?
Online dating?
No, not that!
No ... not that?
Is there any chance it may be that?
Online dating?
After the passage of much time ...
Yes, online dating.
MY MAIDEN VOYAGE
On my first try, I was surprised by the feeling of desperation permeating the mid-life dating scene. Some were searching for a fling. Many were wanting to rush into a life-long commitment. Some seemed to be reaching for fulfillment through another. I am not looking for a relationship based on need. I am interested in creating a life-long love with a man who already feels complete. My challenge has been finding a man with whom to continually practice well-rounded love.
Initially this book was about my quest for that partner. My dating and writing adventure has since expanded. It continues to expand as I feel a growing desire to open myself and become a loving, well-rounded partner for my future man.
During this process of online dating, I have had many opportunities to watch my mind. The italics in this book indicate my mind talking to itself. When I hear myself ask, What is really going on here?, I realize I