Raised by a Psychopath

By LC Richards

I do not recall much of my childhood. I have blocked it out and repressed a great deal of my experiences in order to just get through the day to day. I remember it in a broad sense and will try to put it into some perspective for you.  Perhaps as I write this, and allow myself to remember, things will be exposed that I have forgotten.  I will be as honest with you as I can be with myself.

 

I have known a few others who I suspect were also raised by Psychopaths. Of course they could never admit there was anything "different" about their parent (usually the mother), but their behaviour and experiences were similar to my own. I have also met a few significant others who did not understand the behaviour of their partner and upon further discussion, I knew exactly what their partner was living through.

 

It is not something easily explained, and I hope this book will help significant others understand why their partner reacts the way they do in certain circumstances. They truly cannot help it!

 

If nothing else, remember, YOU ARE NOT ALONE!

• Language: English
• Publisher: LC Richards
• Release date: Jan 8, 2023
• ISBN: 9798215498835

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L C Richards

While every precaution has been taken in the preparation of this book, the publisher assumes no responsibility for errors or omissions, or for damages resulting from the use of the information contained herein.  The work is based on the Author’s personal experiences and opinions.

RAISED BY A PSYCHOPATH

First edition. January 8, 2023.

Copyright © 2023 LC Richards.

Written by LC Richards.

Author’s Note

I have wanted to write this book for a long time (20 years now), but I have been afraid to relive the memories and descend back into that black hole. 

I knew I needed solitude and the right frame of mind in order to write this down.  I guess life has a way of putting you in the circumstances you need to do the difficult things. 

Life has been difficult these past 8 months, but it has put me in the circumstance I need to write this book.  I am alone and broken hearted, and feel there is nothing left to lose by putting this down on paper. I am already crying, so I might as well cry over something that could potentially help others.  There is no one here to see me cry over my pain, recent and past.

I am not a mental health professional in any way shape or form!  These are my own experiences and opinions and if they resonate with anyone, or help someone through their own difficulties, then I am happy to have provided some insight. Take it at your own risk and use it to your own advantage, if you can.

Know that you are not alone. You can survive and not perpetuate the psychological pain you have suffered.

Acknowledgement

I want to thank my daughter for giving me the strength to resist.  She did not know my history before now, and I tried hard to keep it from her.  I am sure she thought I was a weird parent, as I would give myself a Time Out when things got tense between us.  I tried very hard NOT to repeat the behaviour that was ingrained in me.  It was not easy, and I am sure she did not understand the effort I made to allow her to have a normal childhood. 

Though I could not overcome my reaction to Maggie I was determined not to let Maggie gain the same control over my daughter, and I was determined not to continue the behaviour simply because it was what I knew.  I did not know then what I know now, but my instincts knew that my life was not normal, and I had grown to trust those instincts.

Prelude

I do not recall much of my childhood.  I have blocked it out and repressed a great deal of my experiences in order to just get through the day to day.  I remember it in a broad sense and will try to put it into some perspective for you.  Perhaps as I write this, and allow myself to remember, things will be exposed that I have forgotten.  I will be as honest with you as I can be with myself. 

There may be some parts of this story that feel a little more factual, rather than narrative.  This is because I do not have any deeper memories of that time-period.

As a child, we only know what we are currently experiencing and consider it to be normal.  Doesn’t everyone live like us?  We are only weird to the outside world, though most people are too polite to say so. 

I have known a few others who I suspect were also raised by Psychopaths.  Of course they could never admit there was anything different about their parent (usually the mother), but their behaviour and experiences were similar to my own.  I have also met a few significant others who did not understand the behaviour of their partner and upon further discussion, I knew exactly what their partner was living through.  It is not something easily explained, and I hope this book will help significant others understand why their partner reacts the way they do in certain circumstances.  They truly cannot help it!

The End

I have always lived by the mottos of What doesn’t kill you makes you stronger, and Everything for a reason.  I have mostly had a positive attitude about life and always look for the bright side, the silver lining.  I am not