Menoirs: A Blink And A Peek Into My Life

By Christy Miles

This is a tale of a girl who endured life and turned to adult hood way before it was her time. A tale of things known and things unknown. Join her as she walks you through her journey through her eyes and hear from her voice what she experienced how it made her feel and how she learned to overcome and her flaws and speak her truth in order to get where she felt she needed to be mentally, health wise. How she felt trapped inside of a world that she never chose to indulge in and had to learn how to leave it behind and navigate through it.

• Language: English
• Publisher: BookBaby
• Release date: Mar 23, 2023
• ISBN: 9781667897172

Book preview

When life deals you a hand

I’m going to give you bits and pieces of my life. It’s a world many can relate to but only I could walk through.

Born August 1984 I came into this world unprepared, bright eyed, and ready to learn. Pushed into a world of endings and beginnings that rocked my soul. Living the trauma filled life that I've lived, going through what I’ve been through became toxic and a gateway to a bunch of bullshit. I went on quite a journey to get where I am today.

I’ve always heard You're intelligent for your age. Knowingly I would just say thank you cause what is common to me

is not to the average person. With that being said I’m going to share a part of my life where I made terrible decisions

and had no choice on some of the decisions that were being made.  I’m going to share some encounters, be it unwanted or welcomed. Let me also say, Speak your truth, Let that energy go. Live, Love, Learn. My way of trying to reach the people. I know I’m one of millions but that’s the real problem. It should be zero or none. Growing I’ve learned that you can never really understand to the full extent how childhood trauma affects you if you're not taught or if we don’t come together to get a better understanding about life

and how it affects us and our children if we don’t understand how to live through it correctly or how to teach our kids healthy ways to get through trauma after

it happens. I know we’ve all heard the stories, and everyone knows someone. Honestly though, Do you guys understand, do we really understand the effect of childhood trauma, sexual abuse and how who ever experiences it really needs help or that it could cause them to spiral out of control? Honestly, do you know the signs? Have you ever stopped to consider that that person would never be the same again? "This is a Psa.

STOP leaving your children.

Pay Attention if they are crying to not be left somewhere or with someone. Know the people you bring into their lives, their your responsibility

Sit your ASS at Home

They Didn’t choose life you choose to create it, therefore you're responsible

Sad to say, but Talk to your kids

Ask Questions in front of people

These Children Are Our Future, We want them to be healthy in every way so they can Lead us Correctly.

Be a greater future for those to come and those after them.

The beginning

As a six year old child there are certain things that I shouldn’t have had to endure and that’s what I did, endure. Endure depression and stress before I ever even knew what it meant or what I was challenged with. One day or evening my cousin and I were sitting up in the room and our uncle walk’s through the door and we started playing. Then the lights go off and he asks us to touch his penis. It felt cold and wet. My cousin doesn’t remember this I’ve asked but, I can’t fucking forget it and probably because that was only the beginning for me. The next encounter went further than that, and the one after that, and the one after that. At some point I started thinking, How could you be in a house full of people and still not have any help? I remember one incident where I cried, begged and pleaded to not be left alone with him and didn’t know how to put into words why not, just saying I don’t want to, so my mom was like, you want to go to your cousin Tippy house? I was like, yeah. At the time I thought it was a safe place so I happily walked my ass to the back and I got there only to realize that she wasn’t home. If I tell you that was the saddest, longest, walk I ever took, with tears in my eyes and when I got there what I walked in on looked oddly familiar but since Christy came back, may as well be her you ruin a little more. Understand this is a hard tale to tell so I’m going to keep it short and simple. That man stuck his man