Living, Grieving, and Finding Acceptance: From Trauma to Self-Healing and Life Happiness
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This book has two intertwining subjects. The first is an articulation of how Merrylyn experienced, eleven years apart, the traumatic loss of her boys to death. First her only son, and later, his only son. She briefly describes her earlier life and speaks of her subsequent second marriage.
The primary and most important theme an
Merrylyn Asquith
Merrylyn Asquith PhD completed a doctoral thesis in the health and social sciences and was educated in Adelaide. She has written several peer reviewed published articles as well as self-published articles. Over many years, Merrylyn has been dedicated to writing countless reports which have focussed on children's best interests. Merrylyn has worked since 2004 doing the above work in the Family Law Courts, and then as a private practitioner until 2020. She enjoys writing, reading, and researching, and playing Mah Jong with a group of good friends; together with delightful past times like every-day walking, and dinner with friends and family members.
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Living, Grieving, and Finding Acceptance - Merrylyn Asquith
CHAPTER 1
Letting Go
Iunderstood that I needed to let go of what I had dreamed of; that is, long and loving shared lives with my son Luke and grandson, James. I needed to comprehend and believe that this day, this present moment, was going to be different from those dreams. A world which would never be anywhere near a model of happiness unless I chose to respond differently to events occurring in my existing world. Not the former or the future world, but now in the present moment. I needed to consider each moment of each day when I took a breath for life and love and then to conjure up enough imagination and knowledge to discover the way forward. And that way forward, as I saw it, was to live in the world as it was, rather than lapsing into what might have been, could have been, but never would be. I aimed to live with thoughtful intention. I strived for freedom and independence from the bonds of sadness, despair, or any other harmful emotions and thoughts. I focussed on making every effort to do so and gained more insight as I went forward.
I needed to swing around my early adult life experiences and come to agree and understand the loss of two very important people in my life: my only son and later his only son. Losing them crushed my wellbeing in so many ways. My psychological, physical and mental health took a beating. I have worked hard for many years to be the person I wanted to be as I continued to adopt positivism and resilience as a starting point to live each day.
I still try to practise a new positive behaviour almost every day. In doing so, I also seek and practise new positive strategies to strengthen and continue to build ongoing wellbeing. I do the following things to learn more about how to strengthen and build wellbeing; and, importantly, what not to do!
I have and continue to read books, academic papers, journals, fiction and biographies. I watch television documentaries which speak of people’s struggles to regain themselves following trauma. I have watched related movies, skits, self-improvement strategies for health, weight, beauty and other fleeting ideals. Some, if not most, suggest that a reader, like me, should be healthier, skinnier, more elegant and better looking. The following ‘ways to success’ as above, seem to suggest that a person should be better than others. Those were and are not the ways to success that I have adopted.
So, to explain further, I understood, from the above, that to achieve ‘success,’ I needed to be quicker, cleverer, younger, better looking and always seeking perfection. Perhaps I needed to be wealthier, or maybe I should have created a litany of wonderful attainments. This was not my dream nor my goal; my choice of end result was not the ‘better-than’ described accomplishments above. It brought to mind a truism – when enough is not enough, more is never enough. I did not believe that I actually lacked anything except peace of mind. I did not really need to be any of the above ‘better than (s)’.
Many willingly pursue the above goals and may be trying to meet the seemingly natural desire to do their best in as many aspects of life as possible. I do not believe it is true that most people set out to fail or to create a lesser self. Like me, many might draw from hard-earnt early and growing personal tool kits to do the very best they can at a time of unbelievable loss and grief, a grey clouded reflection of chaos and terror. Although I came to realise that was, maybe, what I called a way forward. And as I crept forward towards my pathway, I absolutely also knew that I could not dissolve in self-pity because, simply said, that would not assist me. Once I had swallowed that cold, hard truth, I also understood that moving forward was the only alternative to being ‘stuck’ forever in sadness and loss.
Nonetheless, moving forward and making my own unique life-enhancing and positive choices was a (hard-fought) task for me. Usually in such battles people succeed, or lose, or call it quits too soon when venturing down tracks of trial and error. Some may meet such pursuits with grace, negotiating internally to make a smooth transition from war to peace, or just give up and go home. Identifying the desired outcome, which is to be making one’s own life-enhancing and positive choices, before embarking on the journey forward, is perhaps the key for many to continue advancing until that described desired outcome has been