When a Child Dies: A Hopeful Healing Guide for Surviving the Loss of a Child (Compassionate Grief Book After Losing a Child)
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A caring and compassionate grief book for bereaved parents who have lost a child.
"This book is a lovely blend of the author's personal journey with the death of her son and supportive information that can help parents see light amidst the dark."—Alan Wolfelt, Ph.D, CT, author, educator, and grief counselor
Discover a beacon of hope and strength in the face of unimaginable loss. This compassionate and transformative guide offers solace to grieving parents and caregivers as they navigate the harrowing journey of healing after losing a child.
Inside these pages, readers will find:
- Compassionate Guidance: Find solace in advice from a professional grief counselor, offering genuine empathy and understanding to help you navigate the complexities of grief.
- Transformative Healing: Discover proven strategies and coping techniques to support your emotional resilience and begin your journey toward healing.
- Empowerment and Support: Gain strength from empowering insights and heartfelt support to help you face each day with renewed hope and courage.
- Inspiring Stories: Draw hope from the powerful real-life stories of parents, offering inspiration for your own healing process.
- Parental Self-Care: Learn the importance of self-care in the grieving process and how to practice it effectively during these challenging times.
- Compassionate Community: Find a sense of belonging in this guide's empathetic approach, realizing you're not alone in your grief.
When a Child Dies is more than just a book; it is a compassionate community, a refuge for grieving hearts, and a testament to the power of hope and healing. Embrace this hopeful guide and embark on a transformative journey toward a new chapter of life, honoring the precious memory of your beloved son or daughter while nurturing your own well-being.
"It will not always hurt as much as it does right now. Go slowly, be gentle and forgiving, and choose your path forward with loving intention."—Claire Aagaard
Claire Aagaard
CLAIRE AAGAARD is a certified grief counselor and critical incident responder who worked as a grief counselor and educator, primarily in the hospice field, for over 20 years. She served as the Director of the Center for Loss, Education and Healing in San Luis Obispo, California.
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Originally published in 2020 in the United States by Claire Aagaard.
Library of Congress Cataloging-in-Publication Data
Names: Aagaard, Claire, author.
Title: When a child dies : a hopeful healing guide for surviving the loss
of a child / Claire Aagaard.
Description: Naperville, Illinois : Sourcebooks, [2022] | Includes index.
Identifiers: LCCN 2021052657 |
Subjects: LCSH: Parental grief. | Children--Death--Psychological aspects. |
Bereavement.
Classification: LCC BF575.G7 A219 2022 | DDC 155.9/37085--dc23/eng/20211105
LC record available at https://lccn.loc.gov/2021052657
Contents
Front Cover
Title Page
Copyright
Foreword
Introduction
My Story
Chapter 1: The Loss
Chapter 2: The Unthinkable
Chapter 3: Absence of Joy
Chapter 4: Guilt and Shame
Chapter 5: Marriage
Chapter 6: Family
Chapter 7: Spirituality
Chapter 8: Firsts
Chapter 9: Circumstances
Chapter 10: Helpers
Chapter 11: Looking Ahead
Conclusion: Unexpected Gifts
Resources
Acknowledgments
About the Author
Back Cover
Dedicated to our son
Eric William Aagaard and all the children gone from our lives too soon.
Eric, age 19 months
Eric and Christian, 1983, three weeks prior to the accident
Family photo, November 2020
Photo credit: Amy Hinrichs Photography
Foreword
The loss of a child completely unmoors you. Your stunned family is suddenly thrust into an unimaginable landscape with no signposts and no paths—just dark, jagged territory in all directions—that you are supposed to navigate, somehow. At the time, the chance of survival, let alone reaching a place where normal life is an option, seems minimal.
In our case, when we lost our son Justin over a decade ago, we found a Sherpa to guide us through. Her name is Claire Aagaard, and the book you are about to read is the distillation of her professional and personal life in this landscape of loss. It was extremely important to us that Claire had already done (and is still doing) this journey herself. Her knowledge is earned, her experience is felt, not abstract.
It is not an exaggeration to say that Claire saved our lives. We will never stop grieving, but we are living a fuller and more joyful life than we ever thought possible, thanks to her.
As a professional grief counselor, Claire helped many people like us by patiently, lovingly, honestly, and generously sharing her own journey as a way of easing ours. Now, she has put her guidance on paper to be used more widely. Our family and friends did not know how to help us, or even talk to us, when we lost our son. And we did not know what to tell them. This book will help, greatly.
I am deeply sorry if you need this book, but I’m glad you have it. Nothing really makes this journey easier, but not walking it alone makes it possible.
Tony Peckham
Introduction
There is no footprint too small to leave an imprint on the world.
UNKNOWN
In April of 1992, nearly seven years after the death of my son Eric, I answered an ad from a local hospice looking for volunteers to form a children’s bereavement team. The goal of this task force would be to provide education, primarily within the school system, on the effects of death and grief for children. Because my older son, Christian, had been five years old when his brother died, I knew I had a story to share and some insights that could be helpful. Although hampered by pervasive feelings of low self-esteem—and frankly terrified—at entering this arena, I felt strongly motivated to make every effort possible to give Eric’s life continued meaning and purpose.
Not long after joining as a volunteer, the executive director of the hospice offered me a job as the assistant volunteer coordinator. Working in the field of death and dying amongst compassionate and skilled mental health professionals was life altering for me. I was lovingly encouraged to tell my story, and with that came the recognition of how much unresolved grief I was carrying. The need to enter counseling in order to do this work was an obvious next step, and one I took. I could not have been given a greater gift at this achingly vulnerable time in my life.
My work in hospice evolved, and a few years later—after more education, training, and incredible mentoring—I found myself at a comprehensive hospice program as their bereavement coordinator. The program quickly grew and with it also came requests from the community to assist individuals dealing with the aftermath of a sudden death who were not part of the hospice program.
With my colleague Dianne Thompson, I took extensive critical incident training to address this need. These new skills gave us the opportunity to respond to local tragedies, including the 2003 earthquake in our community where two residents died and many more were traumatized by the tragic event. We were then prepared to travel to Louisiana and Mississippi to offer emotional support to those suffering in the wake of Hurricane Katrina in 2005.
In 2007, I became the director of the Center for Grief, Education, and Healing. It was at this time that I traveled several times to Fort Collins, Colorado, to study with Alan Wolfelt, PhD, to complete his Death and Life Studies Program in order to move forward in obtaining my certification as a grief counselor.
Together with Dianne Thompson, my cofounder of the Center, we offered professional grief counseling to hospice families and specialized in working with families who were coping with the trauma of an unexpected death.
During those twenty-plus years in the field, I was privileged to work with every type of loss imaginable, but I was frequently called upon to assist parents whose child had died. I dedicated every one of those cases to my sweet Eric and always felt it was a tangible way to honor his life.
After retiring from bereavement work in 2016, I knew in my heart I needed to eventually write a book about child loss.
My hope was that it could be handed to a newly grieving parent and provide them with information, advice, and comfort from the perspective of another bereaved parent and a professional counselor with valuable years of experience. I learned so much from every grieving family who courageously walked through the doors and generously shared the heartache of losing their child. Their wisdom was something I wanted to share with others walking that same path.
Families come in all sizes and shapes—from traditional family backgrounds to divorced or blended families, single-parent households, and those from the LGBTQ+ community. My own experiences come from a traditional family situation, and I write from that place. However, my belief is that the thread that connects us is stronger than our differences, and the feelings of loss, sadness, and despair we face after the loss of a child are universal. While doing this work with bereaved parents, it was always my deepest wish that no other parent would ever have to suffer the loss of their child, all the while knowing that wish could never come true.
Having said that, if you are a newly grieving parent starting this book, please accept my sincerest condolences for your devastating loss. It is my heartfelt hope that this book will be of help to you. I hope it will help you feel less alone and isolated and will serve as a guide as you navigate the difficult journey through your grief.
My Story
i carry your heart with me /(i carry it in my heart)
E. E. CUMMINGS
Every parent who has lost a child has a story to tell that is painful, raw, and deeply personal. I believe it’s vitally important that every parent tell and retell their story as many times as they need to. In my work as a grief counselor, it was my profound honor to listen to each story, and I always felt so privileged to be trusted to hear and hold them with the reverence they deserved.
In sitting down to write this book, I quickly realized how important it would be to share my own story; to be honest and authentic in order to connect