Living Within the Confinements of Lupus
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This book is written to stir you into the right pathway for your life. Living with Lupus overwhelms your life. Living in the world of uncertainty never knows what your day will bring. Desperately reaching out hoping someone understands your silence, your pain, your isolation, and angry. Unfortunately, Lupus makes it hard for them to understand. This book shows you my struggles and victory. God wants to know will you be made whole?
Debbie Hollins
Debbie Hollins is an author of Living Within the Confinements of Lupus, who captivates the mind and heart of Lupus individuals. Since 1993, Debbie has been a minister of the gospel of Christ. Known as a Prayer Warrior. Founder of Praying Parents Support Group and Prophetic Warrior of Nations. Debbie is a member of The Presidential Prayer Team, AP Books Global, and Pen To Profit Community. Debbie strongly believes in passage Jeremiah 29:11, For I know the plans I have for you, declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future. (New International Version) Married twenty-two years to Evangelist Robert Hollins and Substance Abuse Counselor, Longview, Texas, raised three children.
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Living Within the Confinements of Lupus - Debbie Hollins
Living Within
the
Confinements
of Lupus
DEBBIE HOLLINS
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Jehovah Rapha (The Lord that Heals) Exodus 15:26
Contents
Dedication
Acknowledgments
Introduction
SECTION I: STORIES
My Emotional Overdrive
My Morning Doesn’t Belong to Me Anymore
Desperately Waiting
The Doctor Appointment
Doubting Debbie
Something In the Fire
The Unfolding of the Unknown
The Hidden Secret
Sharing With Loved One
How Do I Say Goodbye
Enemy Launch His Attack
SECTION II: LUPUS EXPOSURES AND TRIGGERS
Environment Exposures: Sun
Environment Exposure: Cold Weather
Exhaustion: Too Exhausted to Walk Through the Door
Muscle Trigger: Finger Movements
Mind: The Episode of Memory Loss
Refuse To Dope Up: Ringing in the Ears
Dreadful Nights: Hallucinations
SECTION III: DOCTORS VISITS
Doctor Providing What I Don’t Want
Doctor Is Clever and Watching
SECTION IV: KEEPING AN OPEN LINE BETWEEN GOD AND YOURSELF
The Importance of Prayer
Calling Those Things Into Existence
Casting My Cares Upon the Lord
Holding God Accountable In Remembrance of His Word
Laying Up Treasures
SECTION V: WATCH YOUR WORDS
Words Can Captive Your Soul
God Provides Encouragement
Speaking Encouraging Words Over Myself
SECTION VI: THE THREE ESSENCE QUALITIES
The Praise Carrier
The Worshiper Experiences
The Encourager
SECTION VII: IN ALL THY GETTING GET UNDERSTANDING
Knowledge is Power
The Truth
Reaching Out
Sweet Victory
SECTION VIII: WALKING YOUR WAY THROUGH YOUR HEALING WITH THE WORD OF GOD
The Process to Your Healing
Let’s Get Started
Daily Biblical Meditation
And Jesus Healed Them All
Glossary
Updated Resources
Epilogue
Dedication
This book is dedicated to everyone who is Living
Within the Confinements of Lupus.
Acknowledgments
I honor the Holy Spirit for teaching me and showing me the way out of Lupus and providing me wisdom on writing this book.
Special thanks to my husband Robert for supporting and believing in me. For his love and patience, my prayer partner.
My mother, Eva Morrow, for her love and understanding, always believed in me. She always told me that my hands are blessed by God.
To my family, thanks for all the love and support and prayers.
To my church family, thank you for your love, support, prayers, strength, and wisdom through the most challenging time of Lupus.
Introduction
The purpose of Living Within the Confinements of Lupus provides an understanding that there’s a way to escape. You don’t have to be held hostage to your problem. Lupus comes to rob you from living your life in fullness. Living within definitely overwhelms one life. You are desperately trying to figure everything out. But how can you, when the ability to think and focus is not apparent? Some days are good, and some days are bad, and you find yourself trapped in the midst of them looking for someone to understand you. Lupus, at times, makes you feel like a stranger in your body and to your loved ones and friends. Finding yourself pulled in different places, not knowing how you readily enter in that place. In that place, you become emotionally and lonely. You are living in the unknown, the uncertainty, and the place of isolation. You are trying to make good choices and good sound decisions, but you are in a fog, the inward cries from within. The day you feel like the doctor gave you a death sentence. Hope is just hope; despair is there. Lock into your own little world of unknown, invisible friends.
In 1989 when a doctor diagnosed me with SLE, known as Systemic Lupus Erythematosus. My life changed; it was terrible and, yes frightening, it was hard to explain at times. It’s now 2021, isn’t God good and faithful to His Word. God wants me to tell you; you can make it through. He loves you and wants you healed, whole, and delivered from your bondage that comes to hold you hostage against your will.
I traveled this journey for a reason and recognize there was a bigger and better reason than I could have imagined. Let me inspire you to switch partners to get on the right side, where there is love, joy, peace, hope, faith, and endurance. In this book, I shared my Lupus story, my emotional overdrive, how my morning didn’t belong to me anymore, and how I became desperately waiting. I also shared doctor’s visits, even the enemy in disguise trying to inflict my body. Also shared the unfolding of the unknown, the hidden secret I kept and shared later on. I was trying to say goodbye. I prepared truths, knowledge, meditation, and other things to help you. All you have to do is reach out, and this book will draw you. One important thing to walk your way through your healing is to have a relationship with God. Stay before him, learn of him. What I like most of all, the Holy Spirit will teach you many things God wants you to know. Let this book guide you through your journey. Most of all, God loves you and wants you healed, whole, and delivered.
Stories
My Emotional Overdrive
T hroughout my emotional overdrive, I was overwhelmed with days filled with mixed emotions. These emotions gave me the right to say whatever was on my mind. It was never my intention to harm anyone, especially God. Those emotions were driving me, pulling me in the wrong direction. There was no way of seeing things correctly. How could I? Wounded deep within my soul? This rage had a grip on me. Hear me. I was so enraged that I was furious at God. There was no reasoning, I believed God did this horrible, terrible, outrageous, unbelievable thing. My heart was saying, how could God do this to me? Every time I thought about God doing this, the more my anger grew. It shifts to an unpleasant attitude. Yes, it got the best of me. My words turned against God, and I found myself not caring anymore. How could God let me down like this? What made God think this would be OK? I kept thinking, God has some kind of nerve here. Didn’t he know this was going to destroy me? What was He thinking? I couldn’t figure this out. What was the purpose, the reason God would treat me like this? I was already hurting, but to add more on me wasn’t fair, at all. My mind was racing, I needed to figure this out. Maybe he would step in, just waiting for me, or maybe I had done something but I don’t know what it was. My heart knew better, but my mind refused to let me see it differently. I thought God would try to put an end to it, then all of a sudden, I realized it wasn’t going to stop. I believe God had made his final decision in this matter.
The rage grew, and no matter how hard I tried, the feeling refused to turn me loose. Lord, You know I tried not to take it to that level of being mean. My emotions were out of control. There was no turning back; words released out of my mouth were hurtful. At this point, I could no longer hold anything in, so I let it all out. My tone with God