Do I Even Matter?

By Sofia Grace

CHALLENGES BUILD CHARACTER “The Lord upholds all those who are FALLING and RAISES UP all those who are bowed down.” (Psalm 145:14 NIV)
FALLINGHave you ever felt like you were falling?Have you ever felt like no one was listening and no one cared?Have you ever felt that living was so unbearable that the only way to stop the pain was to end your life?Maybe you are feeling this right now.
Years before I accepted Jesus as my Savior, I experienced the most painful, difficult, and darkest time of my life. Things were so unbearable that it took every ounce of energy I had just to survive. I became severely depressed, fell, and hit rock bottom, attempted to commit suicide, and ended up strapped in the Psychiatric Unit.
RAISES UP God can raise us up without us even realizing it is happening. God started to raise me up while I was still a patient at the hospital ironically leading a “life changing session”. Shortly after returning home, the Holy Spirit led me to a Christian church which ignited a passion in me to have a relationship with God, study His word and share it with others. God had a plan for me, and He has a plan for you too. Not only did God raise me up but he put it in my heart to write this book and share what I learned.
This book is about my testimony as well as others who have fallen through affairs, addiction, divorce, financial difficulties, loss of loved ones, orphanage, and suicide. And beautiful stories of being raised up through family reunions, marriage resolutions, recovered addictions and discovered newfound strengths by having a relationship with God. We want to share with you our stories of God’s goodness and faithfulness.
God touched your heart today. There is a story written here that He wants you to read and I pray that you give it a try. God is lovingly waiting to hear back from you.

• Language: English
• Publisher: WestBow Press
• Release date: Feb 1, 2021
• ISBN: 9781664216853

Sofia Grace

Sofia Grace wants to share how she fell to the lowest and most depressing point of her life only to be spiritually raised up by the Almighty God. “I tried to commit suicide three times and God spoke to me and said, “Your life is not ending, it is just about to begin.” At the age of 50, Sofia’s new life began just as God had promised. As a first-time author, Sofia admittedly shared her weakness in writing, but God placed it in her heart to write a book and she obeyed. Just as her name means “strength and wisdom come from God”, Sofia devoted her study time to write and prayed daily for strength and wisdom to complete her first book. Please visit the Sofia Grace Ministry at https://liveinfaitheveryday.org/

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To God, thank you for giving me the strength and wisdom

to write a book—something I never thought I could do.

To my dad, thank you for your unconditional love. May

you rest in peace, Daddy. You’ll always be in my heart.

Contents

Introduction

Chapter 1 Why Me God?

God Is Our Author

Chapter 2 Staying in the Dark

God Is Our Comforter

Chapter 3 Let There Be Light

God Is Our Deliverer

Chapter 4 Hearing God’s voice

God Is Our Counselor

Chapter 5 I Am God’s Messenger

God Is Our Rewarder

Chapter 6 Live in Faith Everyday

God Is Our Protector

Chapter 7 Leaving a Legacy

God Is Our Finisher

Appendices

Appendix A: The L.I.F.E. Graph

Appendix B: Be Not Afraid – 30/31 Day Challenge

Appendix C : Book of Proverbs (Sofia’s Notes)

Appendix D: Topical Index

Psalm 38

LORD, do not rebuke me in your anger or discipline me in your wrath.

Your arrows have pierced me, and your hand has come down on me.

Because of your wrath there is no health in my body; there is no soundness in my bones because of my sin.

My guilt has overwhelmed me like a burden too heavy to bear.

My wounds fester and are loathsome because of my sinful folly.

I am bowed down and brought very low; all day long I go about mourning.

My back is filled with searing pain; there is no health in my body.

I am feeble and utterly crushed; I groan in anguish of heart.

All my longings lie open before you, Lord; my sighing is not hidden from you.

My heart pounds, my strength fails me; even the light has gone from my eyes.

My friends and companions avoid me because of my wounds; my neighbors stay far away.

Those who want to kill me set their traps, those who would harm me talk of my ruin; all day long they scheme and lie.

I am like the deaf, who cannot hear, like the mute, who cannot speak.

I have become like one who does not hear, whose mouth can offer no reply.

LORD, I wait for you; you will answer, Lord my God.

For I said, Do not let them gloat or exalt themselves over me when my feet slip.

For I am about to fall, and my pain is ever with me.

I confess my iniquity; I am troubled by my sin.

Many have become my enemies without cause; those who hate me without reason are numerous.

Those who repay my good with evil lodge accusations against me, though I seek only to do what is good.

LORD, do not forsake me; do not be far from me, my God.

Come quickly to help me, my Lord and my Savior.

Introduction

Challenges Build Character

The Lord upholds all those who are falling and

raises up all those who are bowed down.

—Psalm 145:14

Falling

Have you ever felt like you were falling? Have you ever felt like no one was listening and no one cared? Have you ever felt that living was so unbearable that the only way to stop the pain was to end your life? Maybe you are feeling this right now.

Years before I accepted Jesus as my Savior, I experienced the most painful, difficult, and darkest time of my life. Things were so unbearable that it took every ounce of energy I had just to survive. I became severely depressed, fell, and hit rock bottom. I attempted to commit suicide, and I ended up strapped down in the psychiatric unit.

Raises Up

God can raise us up without us even realizing it is happening. God started to raise me up while I was still a patient at the hospital. Ironically, I was leading a life-changing session. Shortly after returning home, the Holy Spirit led me to a Christian church, which ignited a passion in me to have a relationship with God, study His Word, and share it with others. God had a plan for me, and He has a plan for you too. God raised me up, and He put it in my heart to write this book and share what I have learned.

This book is about my testimony as well as the testimony of others who have fallen through affairs, addiction, divorces, financial difficulties, loss of loved ones, being orphaned, and suicide. It also includes beautiful stories of being raised up through family reunions, marriage resolutions, recovery from addictions, and discovering newfound strengths by having a relationship with God. We want to share with you our stories of God’s goodness and faithfulness.

God touched your heart today. There is a story written here that He wants you to read, and I pray that you will give it a try. God is lovingly waiting to hear back from you.

CHAPTER 1

Why Me God?

"For I know the thoughts and plans that

I have for you," says the Lord.

—Jeremiah 29:11 (AMP)

Thoughts and Plans

Have your plans in the past worked? What are your plans and dreams for the future?

New Year’s Day is my favorite holiday. It is an official day of new everything. Many people come up with New Year’s resolutions, and for many years, my resolution was to diet and exercise, but it never really worked. I especially enjoy this holiday because it provides me an opportunity to get even more organized, clean everything in my house, plan for the year, and reset. It is an opportunity for a new beginning.

My 2020 New Year’s resolution was different. It was not about me; it was all about God. By putting God first in my life—and with His help—my resolution is first and foremost to become a better person than I was last year with the goal of glorifying God by finishing this book. That was it. No other thoughts or plans. Why not?

For many years, my thoughts and plans were all about me. I wanted to make sure I moved up in my career, provided financially for my family, was a good mom and wife, and was healthy. While these are good thoughts and plans, it never included what I could do for God. I was not good about putting God first in my life until He sent me His first message, and it changed my life forever.

God’s First Message to Me

It was a cold, quiet, and beautiful Saturday morning in November 2013. The sun was shining, the leaves from the trees had fallen, and I was looking out the upstairs window. With a smile on my face, I successfully finished reading my very first book of the Bible. It was the book of Matthew, the first of sixty-six books in the Bible. I did not just read it; I studied it and highlighted the lines that seemed important or worth memorizing—just like an old college textbook. It was a practice that I was very familiar with. My husband calls me a terminal student, and he is right because I love studying.

Suddenly, the most amazing thought came—and I found myself responding to someone. I was unsure about what or who I was communicating with. It felt different, extraordinary, and confusing. The force felt a little stronger, and when another thought came, I realized it was God. He communicated to me through His Spirit. It was not an audible voice; He spoke in my heart. It was an incredible, life-changing moment. I thought, How is this possible? Am I going crazy?

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For some—or most—of you, this may have happened already. If so, you may know what I mean. However, for those who have not experienced it, you will. I promise that He will speak to your heart if you open it for Him. I strongly believe God will speak to your heart through this book.

What did God say? God’s first message to me was that He wanted me to teach a Bible study. I thought, Why me, God? I know nothing about the Bible. As a matter of fact, I literally just finished reading my first book.

God did not respond to my questions.

I got up from my chair and walked around the room, not understanding what was happening. It all felt unreal.

Another strong emotional feeling instructed me to obey God, and I felt the Holy Spirit’s power to just trust in Him: In you, Lord my God, in You I put my trust (Psalm 25:1).

Within moments, I realized a miracle had happened. Feeling somewhat numb and in awe, I responded, Okay, God, I’ll do it, but You’re going to have to help me because I have no idea what to do!

I wanted to obey what God had just asked me to do. I grabbed a notebook and started planning. Teaching a Bible study was God’s plan, and He was going to help me execute that plan. It was not my thought or plan; it was God’s plan. I felt no fears, worries, or concerns. I allowed myself to put my whole trust in Him. Looking back, it was the most powerful and peaceful feeling I’d ever had. Why haven’t I fully trusted Him before—or ever?

It was exactly God’s plan. His plan was to lead me in how to do it. For the past seven years, God’s thoughts and messages have become stronger and more frequent. As a matter of fact, to date, I have received 529 messages from God. I am sure He has sent messages to me for many years, but I never heard Him because I