Trapped in My Mind: Rescue Me

By L.P. MD.

The author decided to write Trapped in My Mind for herself and for others who have experienced disturbing moments in their lives. She underwent the most unpredictable and painful episode that a human being can go through. She hopes that sharing this experience with you will teach you and herself how to make a difference in the way people interact with one anotherthat together we will learn how to love and be compassionate and caring. However, she fears that all is gone now. What you are going to read is not a work of fiction, nor is it a love story. Its as real as the sky.

In Trapped in My Mind, the author shares a very dramatic episode that recently happened to her. It is a treatise to societythat we must open our eyes and listen to the illness that might be lurking within and might hit us badly. If, through sharing, she can change how people perceive or judge just one person experiencing what she went through, she will have achieved her goal. This is why she is sharing her own story, sharing her mind. The events that transpire in Trapped in My Mind are real and have affected many lives, mostly the authors.

When you see someone, anyone, wandering while talking to himself or herself, what do you think? What comes to your mind? Probably nothing. Or perhaps you just stare at the person. Maybe you even make fun of the person or just ignore the situation entirely. In truth, its a question that probably most of us dont know how to answer. When you have finished reading Trapped in My mind, you will probablythe author hopes, we will all probablybe able to better comprehend and learn how to react in any specific situation you might be involved in or witness along your path in life.

We know so little about our minds and brains. But the author of Trapped in My Mind does know that the mind has a limitthat it cant take too much and continue to handle the situations we deal with on a daily basis. There are multiple ways to cope in life. Some people drink to forget. Others use drugs and so on to defend themselves, to protect themselves. But sometimes, the author would say that, more than we know, the mind shuts down perhaps because its the only way our minds know to manage a unique situation that could otherwise hurt us whatever that situation may be.

The author was inspired to write Trapped in My Mind for those whove come out of just such a state of mindbecause they fought and they won. They were lost, and they found themselves. To all of you, she extends her sincerest congratulations and adds that you are strong and deserve the best of the best.

• Language: English
• Publisher: AuthorHouse
• Release date: Jan 30, 2018
• ISBN: 9781546224938

L.P. MD.

The author is a fifty-eight-year-old, divorced, female medical doctor. She is slim and very outgoing. Much of her life was raising here kids; she was mom, dad, and provider for about thirteen years. During those days, she felt strong and, many times, weak at the same time. She was struggling a lot to make a living for her family. She was literally working 24-7, living more in hospitals than in her house. She needed to be strong to survive. She never complained, believing that, in life, you need to do whatever it takes to make living worth it. She was just living day by day on her precious island full of amazing memories with hidden secrets; then everything changed. In those years, she was waiting for a phone call, waiting for few words: I want you back. It didnt happen. She knew that her children were at that age when they needed her most. Days and weeks passed quickly; time flew by. She did her best to give most of herself to her family and her career. She didnt realize that her insides were getting emptier and emptieruntil a time would come when she felt there was nothing left. She remarried a man whose career as a project manager required him to travel frequently. They both had careers with multiple responsibilities and made each other a promise that the author remembers dearlythat they would never live apart, no matter what. It was a promise that was never respected. At time of writing Trapped in My Mind, the author was actively working as a physician, or she was. She has been very grateful for my job and has always been very conscious about the responsibility of her career. She loves what she does for a living; its one of here passions. She has too much to give, too much to love. She used to enjoy the outdoors, dancing, and everything in a way that filled her days with energy. Since she was a kid, she would write here and there just for herself. This time, she will share a deep experience that recently crossed my path and probably changed her life forever. This situation occurred about a month prior to this writing, in May 2015.

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Published by AuthorHouse 01/25/2018

ISBN: 978-1-5462-2491-4 (sc)

ISBN: 978-1-5462-2492-1 (hc)

ISBN: 978-1-5462-2493-8 (e)

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Contents

Introduction

About Me

Chapter 1 The Beginning

Chapter 2 The Masks

Chapter 3 The Trap

Chapter 4 The Hotel Room

Chapter 5 The Hospital

Chapter 6 Survival

Chapter 7 Old Memories

Chapter 8 Watched

Chapter 9 Let Me Go

Chapter 10 The Unknown

Chapter 11 Before And After

Chapter 12 Rebirth

Decisions: Poems Written By The Author

Reality VS Unreality

To all who have found their way out of a mind that has shut down to protect them, who have found themselves, from the bottom of my heart.

Love, death, memories, holding thoughts

Without knowing,

Holding life with passion and tears

Without knowing.

Remembering the good and bad, love and hate

Without knowing.

No names, no past, just the present with fate

Without knowing.

Passing through life, with the unknowns,

No names, just with an uncertain tomorrow.

Feelings for everything and nothing.

Passion for everything and nothing.

Numbness and pain,

Passion and rain, doesn’t matter.

Just breathe, laugh, cry, and look for a mountain and climb.

Closing eyes, now you don’t see.

No names, no need. For what?

Nothing matters in the end.

Past, present, future—it’s just about faith.

And everything is without knowing.

Reality? Not sure. Just live, love,

And in the end, you will see the top of the mountain.

Having thoughts without having them.

What you see at the end of your climb doesn’t matter.

The only thing that counts is probably nothing or everything.

Don’t want to know,

Don’t want to talk, see, or hear;

Everything and nothing,

Destiny or not, doesn’t matter.

The end is without knowing, because the unknown is better or just because you don’t want to know.

INTRODUCTION

I decided to write this book for myself and for others who have experienced disturbing moments in their lives. I had the most unpredictable and painful episode that a human being can go through. I hope that by sharing this with you can teach us, can teach me how to make a difference in the way people interact with each other. I hope that it can help us learn how to love and be compassionate and caring. However, I think all that is gone now. What you are going to read is not a work of fiction or a love story. The story in Trapped in My Mind is as real as the sky.

It chronicles a very dramatic episode that recently happened to me. We need to open our eyes and listen to the illness that might by present and, if so, might hit us badly. If I can change how people see and judge and react to just one person who is experiencing what I went through, that will be good enough. I will have reached my goal. That is why I am sharing my own story, sharing my mind. The events I will share in Trapped in My Mind are true events that impacted many lives, mostly mine.

When you see someone, anyone, wandering while talking to him or herself, what do you think? What comes to your mind? Probably nothing. Perhaps you just stared at the person. Or maybe you made fun of or simply ignored the situation. When it comes down to it, it’s a question that most of us likely don’t know how to answer. I promise you that, when you’ve finished reading (and I’ve finished writing) Trapped in My Mind, you and I both will probably be better able to comprehend what is going on in any such situations we may be involved in or witness along the paths of our lives and will learn how to react.

We know so little about our minds and brains. I do know,