All I Want...: Is for You to Hear What I Hear
By J. Wines
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February 2008 I was at a point in my life where I needed answers from God. I quit my job and went to Martin Dies Jr State Park in Jasper, Texas and camped out in the cold. I had my one on one with God.
This book is a culmination of what God taught me through His word and many books authored by spiritual men of God throughout a period of seven years. I am not an author, I am a retired maintenance man, but somehow God turned my quest into a book.
The answers come in a three "D" equation, Desire, Determination, and Discipline.
J. Wines
Jerry Wines is retired and lives with his wife In Gravios Mills, MO. He is a member of Locust Baptist Church and leads a small Bible class.
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All I Want... - J. Wines
ALL I WANT.....
IS FOR YOU TO HEAR WHAT I HEAR
J WINES
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Contents
Preface
Acknowledgements
CHAPTER 1 The Wounded Warrior
CHAPTER 2 The Battle with God
CHAPTER 3 The Need to Be Humble
CHAPTER 4 The Holy Spirit
CHAPTER 5 The Path to Freedom
CHAPTER 6 God and Reconciliation
CHAPTER 7 Three–Dimensional Change
CHAPTER 8 Personal Disciplines: One-on-One with the Lord
CHAPTER 9 Personal Disciplines: One-on-One with the Lord and Directed Outward
CHAPTER 10 Personal Disciplines in Various Group Settings
Notes
Dedicated to those who have ears to hear.
Matthew 13: 9–17
My heart is heavy,
Crushed because my eyes are open.
The visions too much to bear,
My eyes cry tears of blood.
Sitting, weeping in despair,
Gasping, hoping, and wishing.
Too much sorrow, too much pain.
Hands to reach, and hope to share.
What’s the cure?
If I told you,
Would you believe me or even care?
The weight of your answer
Lies heavy on my heart.
Crimson tears flow down my face.
Preface
I see people hurting all around me. I see it in my own family, I see it in my community, and I see it on TV. It is all around the world. It breaks my heart!
I wish I could help everyone who hurts, who is searching for relief and for what life is meant to be. The problem is, I’m just a maintenance man at a small apartment complex in the suburbs of St. Louis. Who am I that I should talk and be heard? You see, for some reason the few I talk to, and even my own family, don’t hear what I’m saying.
I can’t hear what’s being said in the programs on TV without turning it up so loud that everyone else complains that it’s too loud. It makes no sense to me why when two people in a scene are speaking softly and quietly that movie producers feel the need to play background music that drowns out the words being said. Life is like that. It is so full of background noise that the noise drowns out what needs to be heard. I was fortunate to have heard the quiet message of hope, grace, contentment, and happiness through all the noise in the world. You see, my hearing defect causes background noise to dominate over what is being said, and the world has a hearing defect that causes the background noise of life to dominate over the quiet message of what life was created to be.
It is my desire and prayer that you might be able to hear what I heard. It is my hope that your ears might be opened that you might hear what I have to share. These words were never mine but were shared with me, and now I wish to share with you. There is hope because there is grace.
Acknowledgements
A young woman in our Bible study class shared that when she would ask her oldest son a question he would respond, Do you want the Sunday school answer or the truth?
To give recognition and appreciation for this work, which became a book, I must acknowledge that it became so only through the work of God’s Holy Spirit. It was the Holy Spirit that inspired many different men to record God’s word in the Bible. It was the Holy Spirit that taught and inspired many men down through the ages of time to write and share the wisdom given them by God. I am indebted to many of those men that God used to help me understand through their books, the life and relationship He created me to have.
I am a maintenance supervisor at a small apartment community in St. Louis, MO. I do not possess the ability to write a book, nor did I ever dream to do so. Yet here it is. Who do I acknowledge for this work? My answer is both the Sunday school answer and the truth. There is no way I could have done this. I am deeply humbled to have shared in this work with God.
Ad Majorem Dei Gloriam
Chapter 1
The Wounded Warrior
Are you tired of fighting and sore from your wounds? Are you tired of being knocked down every time you try to get up? Does it take all your strength just to draw your next breath? Are you confused as to whether your life has purpose or not? Do you sit in darkness and wonder why you were even born? Do you feel like no one sees you or hears you? Most of all, do you wonder where God is? Why does He not answer your cries for help? Does He not care?
Listen to what happened to Job, a man who loved God and worshipped Him with all his heart. A man whom God was well pleased in. A man whom God had blessed greatly with a large family and great wealth.
Job was a man who lived in Uz. He was honest inside and out, a man of his word, who was totally devoted to God and hated evil with a passion. He had seven sons and three daughters. He was also very wealthy—seven thousand head of sheep, three thousand camels, five hundred teams of oxen, five hundred donkeys, and a huge staff of servants—the most influential man in all the East! (Job 1:1–3 MSG)
Sometime later, while Job’s children were having one of their parties at the home of the oldest son, a messenger came to Job and said, The oxen were plowing and the donkeys grazing in the field next to us when Sabeans attacked. They stole the animals and killed the field hands. I’m the only one to get out alive and tell you what happened.
While he was still talking, another messenger arrived and said, Bolts of lightning struck the sheep and the shepherds and fried them—burned them to a crisp. I’m the only one to get out alive and tell you what happened.
While he was still talking, another messenger arrived and said, Chaldeans coming from three directions raided the camels and massacred the camel drivers. I’m the only one to get out alive and tell you what happened.
While he was still talking, another messenger arrived and said, Your children were having a party at the home of the oldest brother when a tornado swept in off the desert and struck the house. It collapsed on the young people and they died. I’m the only one to get out alive and tell you what happened.
Job got to his feet, ripped his robe, shaved his head, then fell to the ground and worshiped: Naked I came from my mother’s womb, naked I’ll return to the womb of the earth. God gives, God takes. God’s name be ever blessed. Not once through all this did Job sin; not once did he blame God (Job 1:13–22 MSG).
Satan left God and struck Job with terrible sores. Job was ulcers and scabs from head to foot. They itched and oozed so badly that he took a piece of broken pottery to scrape himself, then went and sat on a trash heap, among the ashes. His wife said, Still holding on to your precious integrity, are you? Curse God and be done with it!
He told her, You’re talking like an empty-headed fool. We take the good days from God —why not also the bad days?
Not once through all this did Job sin. He said nothing against God (Job 2:7–10 MSG).
Save me, God! The water is up to my throat and about to consume me! I have sunk in quicksand, and there is no stronghold for my feet. I have fallen into deep waters, and the flood is about to wash over me. I am exhausted and drained. My throat is dry and swollen; my voice fails me from calling to you. My eyes are bloodshot and burn from crying and searching the heavens for you. Where are you, God? I fear I am going down for the last time! (my paraphrase of Psalm 69:1–3)
Do you believe that if you are a good person life will treat you fairly? Do you believe that if you do everything God asks of you, you will not suffer? Do you think that God would allow innocent people to