Inspiring Thoughts

By Phoolmatee Dubay

Inspiring Thoughts is about the adversities the author experienced from using and abusing drugs and alcohol which led to a diagnosis of a mental illness. The author explored her darkness from using drugs to experiencing her nervous breakdowns. If overcoming meant not using, she didnt know or realize this until years later. She would go on to discover the support of friends and family members through their love, care, concern, and compassion for her. As the author accepted help, she learnt to give help to others as well. The author would experience changes, and which she shared learning experiences. She would later find out that the effects of using would cause addictions, nervous breakdowns, and lead to a diagnosis of a mental illness called schizoaffective disorder. After her diagnosis, it took years for her to realize that using wasnt right for her because it destroyed her mental health, but she did change by quitting the abuse of drugs and alcohol so as to improve her mental health and well-being. The author didnt do it by herself because she had the support of friends and family members that held her up even when she was down and picked her up when she needed their help. In Inspiring Thoughts Phoolmatee Dubay has shown us that change is possible and can be accomplished with help.iv>

• Language: English
• Publisher: AuthorHouse
• Release date: Jul 15, 2014
• ISBN: 9781496925176

Phoolmatee Dubay

Ms. Dubay is 47 years old and lives in Queens, New York with her roommates at this time. She is currently working on a second book on recovery but she is also working on promoting Inspiring Thoughts in her spare time. As a contemporary writer of poetry she explored her abilities based on her life's experiences.  These experiences are not simply based on credetials only but how she was able to overcome her issues using knowledge and information.  Her education began in nursing then changed to human services and then to undergraduate degree in social work.

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Published by AuthorHouse 07/11/2014

ISBN: 978-1-4969-2518-3 (sc)

ISBN: 978-1-4969-2517-6 (e)

Library of Congress Control Number: 2014912570

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Contents

Giving In

Uniqueness

I Learnt To Be Human

Learning About Oneself

Survivors

Changing

The Earth’s Shadow Darkened Itself

You Inspired Me To Succeed

Turning Pessimism Into Optimism

Two Souls Meant To Be

Where Do I Belong?

Continuing Without Misery

A Special Friend

The Friends I Came To Know

Hell Wasn’t For Me

Anticipation

No Guilt No Shame

Not Using

Friendship Blues

What You Gave?

Momma

The Depth Of Friendship

Weathering The Storms

Altruistic

Uncertainty

Someone That Was Hurt

Whom Do I Believe?

Ozone Depletion

Being Given

Uncovered

The Casino Life

The Curse Of Love

The Loss Of Time

Wake Up Call

Envisioned

Despair Is Gone

My Quest

Missing You

When Others Cared?

8:26 a.m.

Let Me Leave

Mirror

Wanting Something

But Needing Something Else

Flower Petals

What Inspires Me?

Enrichment

Who Are These Men?

He’s Unknown To You But I Know Him

What We Have?

Sometimes It’s Not For Always

Reflections Of Time

Needing Friends And Friends Needing Me

Emotions Stirred

Embedded Within

Where is Home?

Friends For A Moment

Will I Thrive?

On My Way To Connecticut

Obligations

Remember or Forget?

Anchored

The Unknown of Depth

I Found My Way Home

Time Is Ageless

Why We Hurt?

The Woman

Bouncing Back

When Momma Cried

My Worth As A Woman

Ten Things I Never Knew

Self Examination

Six Miracles

A Dark Place In My Head

Troubled

I Couldn’t See

The Rising Sun

Until This Hour

Seasonal Changes

Limitations

Can I Set Free Of My Past?

Now You’re Gone

Caged Or Confined?

When Eyes Smile?

Solitude

Many Best Friends

I Deal With Life

Authors Of Influence

Proving Oneself

Prisoner Of Pain

Motivation

The Flame

Giving Is A Way Of Life

Welcome Home!

The Reality That I Face Today Or The Next Day

What I’ve Been Through As Opposed To Overcoming It

I Learnt Through Sharing

Our Time

A Friend To Admire

A Changed Man!

Prey And Predator

Running Away

Mentoring Me

The Journey

Finding Answers Within Myself

Comforting Words

Monday Wasn’t Friday

Locked In My