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Winning An Emotional Struggle with Partnership, Love and Self-Love

Winning An Emotional Struggle with Partnership, Love and Self-Love, by Jennie Peterson. Photograph of roses by Annie Spratt
Photograph by Annie Spratt

From a childhood of body shame and self-judgement, one woman peels back the layers of her past to find the strength to live a life of her own design

Since a was a little girl I have been fed the vision of partnership. Unfortunately, it was a distorted vision. It was a vision that did not teach me what authentic love looks like or feels like.

I don’t remember seeing my parents hug, kiss or even hold hands. Affection and touch were not much part of my upbringing.

I wasn’t taught how to show love or how to love myself. I wasn’t taught what healthy love looks like or feels like. I wasn’t taught how to value

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