Happiness Is an Inside Job

By Mandy Coulbeck

Autobiography in poetry

• Language: English
• Publisher: Trafford Publishing
• Release date: Feb 16, 2012
• ISBN: 9781466914643

Mandy Coulbeck

Mandy, the youngest of six children brought up on the breadline, was brought up experiencing domestic violence, physical abuse, mental abuse, operations, infertility. She hasn't let life's trials and tribulations grind her down, She now works has a a successful autonomous nurse practitioner/prescriber and spends her free time looking after her mam who sadly now has Alzheimers. Mandy has achieved six diplomas and one bachelor of science degree. Mandy,s Motto in life is whatever life throws at her, just get right back up and throw it back.

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Library of Congress Control Number: 2012902708

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Contents

Introduction

No Voice

Naughty kids

My father

Escaping

The Eighties

Let it go

Speak Up

Mrs Roper

End of the Dream

The Trusted Neighbour

Time to Go and Let Go

Beauty lies within

Repeated patterns

My Julie

The big soft hard man

The pissed up sister

Deeanna Piano

Insecure

Walking Away

Family

Opinionated

Don’t FORGET Your Routes

Give a Little

Arson

Heroin

Two lost souls

Richness

Beautiful Carers

University

My Favourite sister

Butlin’s

To Grow

Mother

Facebook

Politics

Alzheimer’s

Kiss my Arse You should be licking His

Cancer

Joordane

Snorrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrring

He’s a good man really

Friendship

The Local

Hold Your Head High

Hospital Ward

Perfection

To Be the Best

Angel Child

Accept Me for Me

Wisdom

The Power that May Be

He Who Dares Wins Rodney

Just a Dropped Stitch in the

Tapestry of Life

Strength

Robbed of Your Innocence

You Will Catch the Wave if you Prevail

Don’t Miss there Childhood

Glass House Stones

Don’t Judge a Book by its Cover

Happiness is an Inside Job

The Fact of the Matter is

Nanna Peggy

Throw it Back

Who Do You Think U Are

Kidding Mr Cameron

Love at a Cost

Time To Pull Out I Say

Stop Shouting

Rascism

Nursing

Agism

Best Things in Life are Free

I wish I was a Fly on the Wall,

just for a Day

Depression

Loss

Trust

End of My Rhymes

Introduction

There comes a point in life, when you don’t have to please people anymore when you finally are at peace and smiling within. You accept yourself for who you are and what you are. Your not afraid of being judged for what you believe in. You have a voice and you also make a difference. Not everyone will like your opinions, not everyone will agree with your opinions, some people will slag you of for your opinions, at times you may change your opinions and you recognise also your opinions are just that, they don’t make you right or wrong in a situation they are just your individual belief values and rights. I have reached the point where I recognise and know that I’m actually a nice person and I’m no longer afraid to voice my opinion, I am at peace with me, I feel comfortable being me, I make no excuses for being me, the inner peace and happiness I feel in myself, is wonderful and when I smile its because I’m comfortable with me and it’s a wonderful feeling. HAPPINESS IS FOR ME NOW AN INSIDE JOB.

I have realised life for me is about being with people that matter not with people because they can do something for me or want something from me. We will all come across people in life who will slag you off, bring you down and think there better, I have recognised don’t reason with these people just choose to leave them in the past. There insecurities and jealousy and conflicts bear no resemblance to you, let them go. The saying is so true we cannot choose our family however I would still choose them all, every last one of them have taught me valuable lessons in life some with there issues, there drug problems, there drink problems, there jealousy issues, there insecurities and there hang ups, they have all helped me in being the person I am today whether they have loved me or loathed me I would like to say Thank you for teaching me the right way and also learning from what a twat you have made yourself look and made me learn not to do it that way too.

I had what some would describe as a tough upbringing, the youngest of 6 kids brought up on the breadline on a council estate. We never had much, coats was our blankets, floor boards was our carpets, It was acceptable when I was younger for a man to beat there wife, for kids to be beat and for kids to be seen and not heard. We had some good times we had some bad but I wouldn’t change one single thing. I was in and out of hospital in my 20’s with Kidney and gynae problems which left me infertile. I watched