40+ Love Iii: African Dream from the Separation to the Rising

By Mi Sook Park

40+ Love III is about bigger love that includes more than my individual world. My life is in a turning point in my age of 40s. I see things in a more mature way and I feel that I can and want to make differences. As a small citizen, I can make a difference with my little heart, sweat and care for others on this planet. If a human is a copy of God and if God is about love, I will deliver love to humans on the planet. The pain has been a motivation to write about my inner journey to find strength and way to lead myself to bigger me. I evolved during this journey.

I want to give inspirations to those who are in chaos and confusion about their identities and their purposes in life. We all were born with some purposes and reasons. There is no waste to be made. With small means we can create great things together. There are people who are in need on the other side of the world. When we focus on more important things, we make a great impact on human essences. I start to believe what I can do and achieve from a small individual and citizen, evolving to someone great by strong determination, discipline, dedication and commitment.

• Language: English
• Publisher: AuthorHouse UK
• Release date: Nov 20, 2014
• ISBN: 9781496996572

Mi Sook Park

Mi Sook Park is an author of 40+ Love I and 40+ Love II as well as How to Succeed in Divorcing and Does Culture Matter in Competence Management. She debuted as an author first in 2012 and she published four books since then. She designed and created her own life and dream from her life’s crisis. Her life situation has been transformed from being a wife and a mother to a single mother and an entrepreneur. She managed to transform obstacles to enablers and chaos to possibility and creativity. She has a B. A. degree in linguistics and literature as well as educational science. She also has an MBA in international marketing and global business. Currently, she is entitled to a Licentiate degree in economics and now she is pursuing her Ph.D. degree in informatics. She was born in Seoul in Korea and grew up in Gang Nam city. She moved to Sweden in 1996 and since then she lived and worked different parts of the world, working with international businesses and projects managing complexity in a global company. She is engaged in volunteer works helping children’s education in undeveloped countries, especially women’s equality in society and economics.

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Published by AuthorHouse 11/18/2014

ISBN: 978-1-4969-9656-5 (sc)

ISBN: 978-1-4969-9657-2 (e)

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Contents

Foreword

Part 1: Being in love and dreaming for the future

You are the most important person

I have a dream

You and I

Love letter

Thank you

Our days

The naked bodies

The taste of kiss

A Tear

Bucket list

When you are inside of me

Two souls

Raindrop

A man in love

The spirit of snow

We are free

Morning in Florence

Fiesole

Tell the truth

Starry night

You dried my tears

Years of tears

You safe

The breath

Early in the morning 1

Early in the morning 2

Early in the morning 3

The Mountain 1

The Mountain 2

The Mountain 3

My hands in yours

Part 2: Walking through the darkness and devils in the ears

Love will find the way home

Devils and evils

What is this

Closed windows

Words 1

Words 2

Our dialogue

The bridge

It rains

Crazy love

It hurts

Dying in your arms

You were the gift

My home

In a battle

The birds

Don’t think too much

You are in my mind

I don’t need your money

Nightmare

Grow up

Hello dear

The wall

Wish you will find your way

The broken face

You search for a million reasons

Homeless

He wants to leave

Perhaps

My love 1

My love 2

Wake up

You

My child

Dear my daughter

How many miles

In a flash

24 hours in hospital

One week ago

Is this the end or start?

Desirable hardship

Rocks of tears

A secret

Forgetfulness

Birds scream

You gave me love

You are gone

Four weeks

The very first time I drank alcohol

Part 3: Separations

In distance

Smile 1

Smile 2

You are beautiful

Silence and storms

Beautiful day

He is a rock

Unanswered love

Alright

I will let you go

The darkness

Guide me

That’s life

I feel my energy drained

I’m so in love

You are so far away

All I want

The gentle voice

I go wherever you go

Still in love

Do you still want me?

You my heart 1

You my heart 2

It is not a punishment you need

Snuggle to fall asleep

He has someone in his heart

Let it go 1

Let it go 2

Where am I going

To be strong

A broken heart

The rain

Do you miss me?

Be myself

Born to be with you

Believe

Big love

Sing for me

If you were with me

I want to be honest with you

Safe in your arms

Wth all of me

You my angel

Dear God

Black sea black birds and black clouds

Part 4: African Dream

African dream

The wild dream

Waste land

Tomorrow is the day

The night before

On the way to Africa

Strangers becoming acquaintance

Waiting

Have I ever been here before?

Finally in the land of wilderness

Getting closer to you

In Africa

History of a banana village

A drop in the ocean

Peace on the earth

Stories of children

What is wrong

Longing for the mountains

Hope for tomorrow

Fleece bee

Together

One big love

Shadows

Animals in action

Baubau trees

Sand twister

A boy and a goat

We are stars

Empty room

Today

The road not taken

Only love

Unconditional love

Live your dream

What my life really is versus what my life wants to be

Free spirits

Love joy and peace

Giving

4500 heart beats an hour

Love is the answer to fear

Fearless

Two choices

Home 1

Home 2

Love what you do

I want to run 100 miles

Desire

Friends for life

A new life

All by myself

African rhythm

Sand storms

Deep valley

Lake Chala

Day trip to Kenya with canoe

Saturday night in backpacker’s hotel

Pub night on the roof

The sunset in Africa

People in the valley

Big I

When you are little

The spirit of Kilimanjaro

No stars in the sky

We are stars

Once

Distance between the dream and reality

A moment

The sunrise

Who said

A new day

Under the tree

Another great day

Mountain river desert

Decided

Monday morning

Day one

Day two

Day three

Day four

Day five

Day six

Day seven

Day eight

Day nine

Day ten

Day eleven

Day twelve

Day thirteen

Day fourteen

After Africa

Parts of memories

The Silence

Last night’s rains

A little girl

Afterword

To the children and women who fight

for their rights and existences

Foreword

Life has been colorful since the divorce in 2011. I have met a new love and we have lived together for one and a half years, then I got heartbreak again. During the relationship, I discovered who I was and I evolved. My partner has been a great support and inspiration. He has been during our relationship and even after.

From the time when my life with family and with my partner was the center of my life, I started to see a perspective that life is more than just an individual, I. The life is more and bigger than I am. From the journey to Africa, I got to see a whole different world. People there were in a totally different assumption and condition. They don’t have that much but they seem to be happy. They don’t know anything else than what they have.

40+ Love III is about a bigger love that includes more than my individual world. My life is at a turning point in my age of 40’s. I see things in a more mature way and I feel that I can and want to make differences. As a small citizen, I can make a difference with my little heart, sweat and care for others on this planet. If a human is a copy of God and if God is about love, I will deliver love to humans on the planet. The pain has been a motivation to write about my inner journey to find strength and way to lead myself to bigger me. I evolved during this journey.

I want to give inspirations to those who are in chaos and confusion about their identities and their purposes in life. We all were born with some purposes and reasons. There is no waste to be made. With small means we can create great things together. There are people who are in need on the other side of the world. When we focus on more important things, we make a great impact on human essences. I start to believe what I can do and achieve from a small individual and citizen, evolving to someone great by strong determination, discipline, dedication and commitment.

I give all my thanks to my family and friends who have been a great support and who believed in me. I thank Ulla Meyer who edited this poetry book from the start to the end and Seamus Quinn for his beautiful paintings for my book covers. Most of all, I thank God and me who have been with me all the time in pleasure, sorrows, joy and despair. I’m in peace and balance at heart, perfectly being alone and independent.

Part 1

Being in love and dreaming for the future

You are the most important person

You are the most important person in my life

You came into my life

When I was lost and confused

I felt abandoned and unwanted

You reminded me of how beautiful I am and

How precious I am and wished me to be safe every single day

I’m happy with you

You make me laugh since you are funny

You make me think since you are curious

You make me challenge since you are daring

You make me evolve since you are searching

You are the most important person in my life

I wanted to share my life with you

Under the same roof

In our own cave

A place we call home

I don’t know what will happen tomorrow

By now I’m focusing on me and my future

Since I’m responsible for my life

I make my own decisions

I take consequence and responsibility

It’s my life and I live my own life

I have a dream

I have a dream like a dreamer.

Me and my love fly to the place we want to see and feel

I feel free with my love

As my love inspires admires supports me for what I love to do

We dream together for a new time for both of us

A new era when our dream is put into reality

Our love flies with freedom

Our life glorifies with passion

You and I

You calm me down in a storm

You never laugh at my dreams

You inspire me in despair

You never give me up at my failures

Since you refuse to feel fear

Since you believe in me and my potential

Since you see possibilities rather than obstacles

Since it never is a failure unless I admit it

I believe in me

I love me