Tear Open My Soul & See Through Me

By Michele Renatta

There are challenges in life we all face and moments where we feel alone and isolated. So many battle with depression and the search to find ourselves in a world of chaos and pain; this book is a soul on display may it help guide you on your way and know you are not alone. Self esteem and self worth can change our whole perspective on life and acceptance is only part of the battle. As the journey of one is the journey of many allow these words to help you find your own path. This book is intended to be read as you pass through stages in life which means they do not have to be read in order but, as your need dictates. Know that hope can be found no matter how far away it may seem and let this help you find hope within yourself. This is the poetic diary of healing and personal battles, it is the things we dont say that are within many of us so, Tear Open My Soul & See Within Me.

• Language: English
• Publisher: Xlibris US
• Release date: Nov 18, 2014
• ISBN: 9781499083217

Michele Renatta

Michele Renatta is a freelance writer who has always had a passion for helping others. She started writing as a child and has continued to pursue her passions as an adult. Tear Open My Soul & See Through Me is her first book which shares her battles with self image, depression and the challenges of life. She is a native Oregonian and has worked as a model for the past 5 years. Michele enjoys working with other models to build self esteem and acceptance. She is also collaboratively working on a second book called Muse.

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Copyright © 2014 by Michele Renatta.

Library of Congress Control Number:   2014918548

ISBN:      Hardcover            978-1-4990-8320-0

                Softcover              978-1-4990-8322-4

                eBook                   978-1-4990-8321-7

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Rev. date: 10/20/2014

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CONTENTS

Forward Is A Direction We Go

Part 1: The Reason

Part 2: Alone

Part 3: River Of Tears

Part 4: The Fall

Part 5: The Means To An End

Part 6: Set Me Free

Part 7: The Reflection

Part 8: Moving On

Part 9: Gifts & Acceptance

Part 10: Hidden Wisdom

Part 11: Beauty In This World

Part 12: Breaking The Walls

Part 13: My Heart Still Beats

Index

This book is

dedicated in memory of my oma you have always an inspired me to do my best and to all those who struggle to find their path.

A Special thank you to:

Mr. Wyndham & Mrs. Stassens for helping me survive high school.

Josh H. your love and support has helped me so much over these past years.

Brock for all your support and assistance with getting this book published you are a true friend.

JR for your support in pursuing my dreams.

Thank you to all of my friends and extended family who have supported my dreams.

FORWARD IS

A DIRECTION WE GO

Let me start at the beginning and make something clear I am not always good about expressing emotions; it has been something that I have always tried to work on. It is a journey I will always be on and that I feel we are all on. I lost my grandmother at a very young age and she left the huge impression on me in the time that I had with her. She instilled the importance of strength from within, to appreciate the beauty in this world and she also made sure that I understood how important kindness is. Her life had been one of chronic pain, something I have also had to endure. It is pain that can tear us down and that we must choose to embrace as part of life to survive and thrive.

I started writing when I was very young I always tended to keep it to myself as I felt it was too private to share. I never kept the typical diary mine was always filled with poetry I just felt it had a more natural flow of thought to it. Most of the writing from when I was really young was so full of hate, self loathing and sorrow that I burnt it in an attempt to free myself from it. This book starts from after the burning of literally hundreds of pages so in a way this book is a phoenix rising from the ashes. It is also my voice and my soul bared for all to see.

This book originally was only be published on my death because, to me it is so very personal. However, after coping with my own struggles I feel that is more important to share. My hope is that perhaps you’ll know you’re not alone. Pain of all kinds forces us to be the most honest with ourselves; it is during this time that we can find strength even when we are weak. Sometimes that strength can be asking for help, and sometimes we can find it within but, know that you are stronger then you realize and you can rise from the ashes too.