Journey Through Life's War of the Heart
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That innocence did not last when I had my first real heartbreak
The last, I vowed, as I discovered older boys and flirting, but that didnt help
Time changed, and life was more complicated, but love was always everywhere
It has been a story of sweet childs love, crushes and beating hearts,
Those confusing in betweens, first loves, and that one epic love that was almost it
My hearts been left with cracks and surface nicks but all the love, what really matters, is held safe inside
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Journey Through Life's War of the Heart - Brittaney Stewart
Copyright © 2014 by Brittaney Stewart.
Library of Congress Control Number: 2014913990
ISBN: Hardcover 978-1-4990-5894-9
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Contents
Reflections
God’s Angels
Little Angel
Fate
Love Is
Pride
Romantic
Moon
Trust
Fear
Pain
Run
Sinister
Distance
Light
Strength
I remember
Adventure Home
New York City Playground
My World/ My New York
Dreamer
Dark Dream
Who I Am
Blame
My Last Stand
Grey Walls
Cocoon
Epiphany
Mindwipe
Future
Let you know
Maturity
Journeys
I Love College
Homesick
Before the Silent Storm
What is there to say?
Florence Amore
Lessons in Hope
Is It You
Nightmares
Moonlit Child
Harlequin
Difference
Shine
Explosion
Orange Fog
Ah, Tension
World’s View
Understand
Emotation
Growing Pains
Love Drug
Damaged
Sorrows to Burn
Snowflakes Melt
Aqua Vita
Confused
Leaving, Coming Home
Heart of Gold
A Troublemaking Soul
Photos and Time
Mom
Broken Goodbye
Daddy’s Girl
Comfort Junkie
Nature Song
Summer
Beauty
Nature Queen
Secret Flora
Sun Goddess
Summer Days
Flowers
Feelings
I Miss
Time’s Innocence
Autumn Leaves
Black Bird
The Blue Day of Night
Night Blue Day
Night
Night Butterfly
My Island
Sea Song
Heart Secrets
Love
The Reason I Believe
Red Rose
Valentine
Love’s Innocence
My Love I Don’t Talk About
High School Romance/ Two Worlds
Life’s Secrets
White Wolf
Liar
Faces
Juliet
Lost
Daze
Love Struck
Secret Treasure
Touching Heaven
Turn My World Upside Down
Lover’s Secret
Night Angel
Why Did It End
Night’s Angel
Hateful Truth
Angel Sonnet
Mysterious Angel
I Would Die Without You
Dream Weaver
Muse
I wish/Real
Dream of me
Masquerade/ Perfect love
The Meadow
Midnight Meadow
Flirting with Love
Closing Chapter
Unexpected
Glass House
Broken Song
Happy Ending
Broken Pieces
True Love’s Loss
Darien
Denial
Those Things We Can’t Prove
Letting Go
Tribute to the One I Loved
My Dearest Friend
Fallen
Exceptional
Love Song
Pretty
Crush
Hunger
Tarot Queen
Holding out for a Hero
Not a List
Reflections
God’s Angels
Unfurling wings and beauty’s dazzled stun
Pure beauty and light’s originator
The source of strongest good
These beautiful blessed creatures
To soar with them and have wings
For a moment to just be
To be in touch with heaven and God
Brilliant twinkles of light that make you remember you’re alive
To breathe that lasting breath
Rainbow light and dazing bright shimmers on the coldest days
Angels stark beauty bring you to tears
To hold the burden and the sorrow for our kind
To fight back those skirting shadows
Those that wreak havoc and distractions that make us cry to know
To have something real to fight for
For what is greater than angels and God
Little Angel
Bright blushing beauty
Close your eyes and make a wish
Shy and gentle, loving with all your heart
You sit back and watch blind to how others see you
You are told you are thought of this way and are ever humble
You blush, you stumble, you’re ever clumsy
Could you be any cuter
You are an adorable little blonde to some
You want to heal the world
Your purity of heart touches others
Self-doubt holds you back
You don’t believe you really have a heart of gold
You just try as you may to be as good as humanly possible
Childhood happiness and light do not touch your saddened knowing eyes
The world is so cruel at times
How can you play its game without getting dirty
Yet you do try and succeed with the name you hold dear
At the end of the day all you can be is you
Fate
What does it mean to you
Fate is such a fun and scary concept
Skeptics scoff at the term
While unnoticed, it controls their every move
Think not that I look down on them
I hold both sides of the ideal close to heart
I know all too well, as much as I fight it, that fate does matter
Who you love, the people you meet,
Everyone who touches your heart, changing you by loving you
Nothing is without the help of fate
Love Is
Love, what is love
But an art form
An intertwining of heart, soul, and mind
A focus on another
A deep lesson in happiness and sadness alike
Heartbreak and the greatest high
Love is but an extension of life
Messy and unclear but will never depart
For if it may, all is lost
What would life be without love?
The greatest messenger of mercy and happiness
A redeemer on an imperfect soul
Love is eternal; never far
Even when lost to sight it is never truly lost from life
Pride
Everyone has it
For some it helps and for others it hurts as much as it helps
Fiery tempers and a biting tongue
An indignation and cleverness, sharp and hot as it burns
A flaw so large it makes Elizabeth Bennet look right
A hot temper and pride go hand in hand like a mini twister
A colossal catastrophe just waiting to happen
When pride grabs you all logic evaporates
You say things you know you may regret later
In the moment it seems as if anger has a voice of its own
Pride is such a grand thing
It stands the test of time and centuries
It can cut you at the knees as well as aid you in making a point
I know both equally as pride is an asset and weakness alike
Pride fueled by temper creates destruction
Whether it be self or others is up to you
For there is no overzealous pride that doesn’t lead to prejudice
Romantic
A romantic I proclaim not I
I scream for the world turning away my face
It is now that I easily convince others of this falsehood
I do not despise love
It is actually quite the contrary
I love Love so much my heart bursts with it
Acting as a gentle cupid secretly for the ones I love
It is a dear gift I don’t let others in on
I pretend to hate Valentine’s Day
Some things I do go beyond romantic to utterly sappy
This is a hundred percent true
I do not dream of red confetti, sugarplums, or bright pink hearts
I dream in beauty and reality alike
I hide behind teasing ways, secretly loving love
Just not for myself, for there I hide most assuredly
I am an appreciator of love, afraid to love
No one person is promised forever
That fall from cloud nine has come one too many times for me
I am a romantic by heart
I am a lover of love one too many times in love afraid to ever go back
Moon
The Moon
The moon illuminates the sky
A pure opalescent beacon of hope
The night reminds us of what we have
It carries memories we treasure
The cool air whips around you
It whispers secrets unspoken
Life unknown, and fear around us, in courage and hope
Light guides us on our way
It kisses the earth, scaring away evil
The moon leaves guides to save us
Lunar love engulfs us
It’s night time magic until another day
The Moon
Trust
Why is it so hard to trust or another trust us?
Must we all treat everything like a covert mafia?
Maybe now I understand a principle of behavior
Loyalty is so hard to come by
Hard to give it, and impossible not to doubt it
Why do we live in a world like this? Full of evil and betrayal
Why do people move on blindly about their way?
We aren’t primitive or cruel by nature, or at least we aren’t supposed to be
We shouldn’t be cruel to each other
Not everything is cutthroat or catty
Must we cut away everything until we have nothing?
Nothing to believe in, nothing to rely on
Not everything is a fairytale to all that is pure and good
It’s what we make of it and a majority make this near impossible
No one kills fairytales, but people that are cruel and selfish
Stop the cycle and spin anew. Weave truth with gold threads, just and true
Don’t let them win. Find something to believe in
Why is it so hard to trust?
Fear
The house on my street gives people a scare
One night I’m sure I saw a shadow sitting in a chair
My mom won’t listen, she thinks I’ve been taunted
To check it out is all that I wanted
A old man lived in this house who hadn’t been seen in a year
He once shot and killed his wife’s pet deer
One day, long ago, his wife he confronted
His wife, he killed, with a knife, as if he were hunted
People believe he died in this house here
Though there is no evidence, people still cheer
On the day her body was found, the smell daunted
The police arrived to find the house haunted
No other bodies were found, only garbage, clothing, and an old chair
Now, I’m a grown woman who’s conquered her fear
No more nightmares or smells reside surmounted
The mystery of this house still leaves many astounded
If not my own will that stirs feelings of fear
Let those apparitions rise forth, and let me hear
If there is a ghost in my house, I am not daunted
I would rather believe, to play tricks with my mind was what I really wanted
It is not my own thoughts that fill me with fear
Somehow, my mind is not my own, I’m slipping into despair
I’m now an old woman who lives a life no other human wanted
By doing what I desired, I got what I deserved, and am in prison with the haunted
Pain
I fall holding a hole dead center like a shot gun blast to my chest
I blink in stunned panic feeling as if my very soul is slipping through it
I press my hand to a hole that cannot be seen as if I could stop it
I feel flesh warm and intact under trembling fingers
I shake as pain manifests a wound unseen like internal bleeding
There is no pain like emotional pain
I’ve had my share of life’s different pains
I would break a bone a hundred times over to the pain of a broken heart just once
Anyone who says otherwise hasn’t felt it rip through your chest like acid;
Leaving nothing in its wake but a person deadened and recovering inside
My chest throbs, pain gaining its own pulse
As it saws a hole with the shattered remains of my heart
An agony so clear and true it takes my breath away
It leaves me empty but not yet numb
No mercy fills this cold mercenary of torture called pain
It hurts on a level even my brain can barely handle as it screams back at me
It hurts so bad yet is dull as it strips me bare it nearly drives me mad
I am reduced to a crying heap. So cold by the onslaught of memories
Dark memories rise from a part of me so abominable it leaves me frozen
I shiver crying so hard I taste the bitter tears in the back of my throat
Anyone who fears a broken bone more than a broken heart hasn’t yet had one
They