How Long Will They Take from Us

By Trevor McCullum

Imagine seeing your life from outside of your body. Witnessing all of the people who have used and loved you. A man is looking at his life from his chair and wonders about his story. He sees the things he should have done while also regretting things he had done. He questions his relationships while finding himself.

• Language: English
• Publisher: Lulu.com
• Release date: Apr 17, 2015
• ISBN: 9781329073937

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How Long Will They Take from Us

How Long Will They Take From Us

by

Trevor McCullum

Copyright © 2015, Trevor McCullum

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ISBN: 978-1-329-07393-7

I Won't Miss Anymore

I sit here and wonder when will the goals be made

I sit here and ask God how was the plan laid

Man I am nothing but a servant that I wouldn't trade

As I sit here and listen to all the people talking about getting paid

I'm writing this out of boredom but out of the heart

I missed so many opportunities that I sit in the dark

Am I destined for greatness in my mind off the charts

But how can I if I strike out every time I hear a bark

Swish through the basket was my dream

I was a kid looking at Micheal and highlights of Hakeem

I never grew tall so that wouldn't work as it seems

Football player never grew enough in that but myself I still redeemed

I haven't wrote anything good for a while 

I still hope what I have written often leads to a smile 

I sit alone in my room wondering about the miles

I've been through a lot, but I never had a crush since a child

I dreamed of becoming rich and helping the poor

I dreamed of becoming famous someone people would adore

I missed out on a lot and they wonder will he soar

But this I promise at least I won't miss anymore

How Dare I Dream

They tell me how the world is real

Like Martin Luther King I have a dream

My dream is to be the person who is redeemed

Lost in the moments never thought of as a king

I'm not a thug so I don't wear bling

How dare you tell me to wake up

Often I feel as tho I am benign

In thought I am often laying in time 

I don't have a plan or results or a sign

I never speak of myself or else I'd be lying

Why is the real world so mean

Turning my dream into a reality is my goal

I don't even know myself deep down in my soul

I speak on love knowing it will take a toll

I talk bible verses hoping it take hold

I just have realizations and never hold to accusations

They often ask why do you have so much to say

But when I see you all you say is hey

You don't seem like you talk I say o.k.

Often I'm honestly dreaming of better days

I want peace and everyone in Heaven

And hate can never be complete like seven

I saw someone a little on the verge of malevolent

Change the world before Jesus comes Heaven sent

I want my life and yours in heaven check it in

I decided to let you know the truth about me

God I apologize my own knowledge I often lean

To you I'm sorry If I'm annoying as I seem

I know many do the want to do the get to know you thing

Here it is now I ask them How dare I dream

Introducing Me

I was born in the world with God and me

I'm leaving the world with God and me

Success is a door and I am a key

Life has a price and I payed the fee

I live in a world that's so cold

Your sky is blue and mine is gold

Life's a gamble and I never fold

This is a life that was given not chose

Never sad because I got too much to live for

Always smiling because I'm happy from the core

I sometimes play bad but in the clutch I score

Lifting the world on my shoulders so now I'm sore

Sometimes it gets so hard that I want to cry

I want to carry my friend through problems no lie

I see the pain coming so I close my eyes

I will change the world before I die

I'm so focused like Tiger on the tee

No longer amazing because it's not me

Wants to be perfect but it ain't for me

Hello It's about time I'm introducing me

This Ain't Me

I close my eyes to pray

Darkness consumes my heart

Undertaker's yard where the dogs bark

I never fear because I hang with the sharks

I'm never scared because I live in the dark

The want for fame is just an initiation

I hardly ever star in confrontation

I guess I got a need to be a role model or imitation

The world must change but they won't listen

I don't know that which I'm missing

I never had this in my vision

I see the heartbreak and the pain

It sometimes drives me insane

But I see some driving through the lane

I say a change is coming Here I stand

I want the want and the demand

It's time to step out of the sand

Please father forgive them for forgiveness sake

God forgive me for I have made mistakes

I pray the world to keep until I make its fate

Often caught myself losing faith

I'm too young to worry about what is safe

This ain't me not to worry about others fate

I keep the hope for those who sees heavens gate

Out of the darkness I will lead before it's too late

That One Girl

I wonder who she is because she can never be found

Each day I search but I might as well have just sat in the lounge

I will never use game, I just say how I feel never out of bounds

Know that I like to observe to know if you're right, so I take my rounds

That One Girl I feel will always be there to support me

Even if all my dreams fail she'll pick me up and there she will be

If I did something stupid I ask will she still love me

Will you be there when I'm weak and on my knees

That One Girl when I'm on top of the mountain she will be at the peak

Each time she pick up the phone will she think think about me

Thank You 50 that was a good line and that is one thing I seek

If I die I got another question when I'm gone will she think about me

That One Girl who is always there I will cherish and obey

Live for her improvement and watch what I say

Even if we old I get nervous every time I say hey

Look at her and say that can't be me but I thank God for what he say

You know that one girl that you ask that God will send

Man I promise that one girl that you asked when you repent

You know that one girl that is yours and you ain't gotta pretend

That One Girl I can call my love, my Angel, and my best friend

Topic Of My Song

I think of you each time I listen to those lyrics

I'm a gunner so don't kick me out of bounds I'm serious

I'll catch you before you fall our love is mythic

Be the one I never forget baby be unforgettable I insist it

I discuss you through my mind all the time

You think about me too I think this is our sign

You the topic of my song no thinking you are mine

This song is written on my heart I remember every line

The rhythm of the  beat makes me think of your touch

Me running into you while writing was simply luck

But maybe I'm tricking myself listening to music and such

Thinking this song describes me and you maybe I think too much

Sacred Thoughts

Wake up in the morning and I see my own blood

Asking why do I cry and sweat so hard it's a flood

This represents my struggle, my pain no drugs

I see that I'm sick but my suffering is what I truly love

Kind of crazy to say but why do I make dumb decisions

I pick that person who will hurt me more aim with precision

I listen to fools but ignore good advice like it's my mission

You suppose to be my brother but why obstruct my vision

I kissed a girl and it didn't mean a thing so did I like it

Did I fall for lust again promised I wouldn't do it again but I admit

Yeah I'm a little weak trying to make these squares fit

I got complete faith in God but none in myself now do I exist

I hope I'm not going too deep giving you a rose for your attention

I give them compliments and they be like get out of my mentions

Didn't get picked again but will soon be the best no wonder there's tension

God got his hand on me but so does Satan A student stuck in detention

I wrote all those love poems for you but you can't even be mine

Definition of insanity is doing the same thing expecting difference Assassin

But I told myself I love her but I don't feel anything so am I lying

Welcome to the mind of real kind of messed up war is blind

A Fool's Love

I can't even remember a time when love mattered

Now I live in the stories of the few left dreams shattered

Now it’s perceived what we want and friend’s opinion and chatter

You remember you picked him over me and he broke your heart

But you made me cold turning these girls into hoes lived in the dark

But is that an excuse you gave me light at one time into the jaws of sharks

My heart finally buried into ice but why come I feel when you cry

I remember the moments we had and wonder why did I even try

You gave me hope until you proved you were like the rest goodbye

But I can’t get you out of my head God am I tripping

I use to promise that I don’t need anybody am I slipping

I thought I found a diamond but I just found a rock something’s missing

How can I forgive you for leaving me but I always wanted this

For pride yeah but because I never stopped thinking about you finally bliss

Call me selfish but I wanted what was best now you mine no more opportunities missed

On the Right Track

I remember when all I could do was pray

But now I find it's just every other day

God can you forgive this fool going through this phase

On the wrong side of the road in life thinking it's about to fade

Why am I talking to myself about loving ending so soon

Lust became prevalent skin crawls as I gaze unto the red moon

I told you I love you but don't believe me even if I'm the groom

Now we in a web of lies bugging me waiting on a flower to bloom

I run to different friends getting advice hoping to hear something new

I read my bible asking myself why do I only read when I got the blues

God working