Many Views of Life: The Life Stories Series, #3

By John Inserra Jr

This is a book of inspirational short stories. They are intended to inspire people to laugh, cry, think, love, and forgive.

 

• Language: English
• Publisher: John Inserra Jr
• Release date: Oct 28, 2018
• ISBN: 9781386256311

Book preview

Struggle to Be Born

Unborn Baby

Hi, you do not know me but soon you will. See I am growing every day in this special place. It is comfortable in here; but I am looking forward to the day that I will be born. It was so exciting the day I heard a small little beat; how amazed I was when I realized it was my heart beating. If I thought that was cool, you cannot imagine my joy the day I discovered I could move my hands. Especially my thumb, it is wonderful for sucking. Boy I am looking so forward to meeting Mommy; it will be soon, very soon; NOW!

Mother

I still can’t believe this is happening. How could I have been so stupid? I thought we were careful. What am I going to do? I can’t be a mother. I have such a bright future, and this will ruin all my plans.

But still I have to admit when the baby kicked me the other day, it did not hurt; but it made me think— is that life living inside me? A life that deserves, desirers, destined to be born and experience life. Should I not allow that tiny foot to grow that could kick a football narrowly through a goal post; winning the championship for his high school football team?  Or what if he is destined to be a fire fighter that rescues a child from a burning building? 

I am thinking foolish. How am I going to take care of a newborn baby? I’m just a child myself.

But still can I do it...and live with the guilt afterwards? I am so confused? I am scared? What am I to do?

Unborn baby

I am growing and it is getting cramped in here. My special day is coming soon. I know something good is about to happen; it won’t be long now.  My mother’s voice is so sweet.

I kick my little feet when I don’t hear it; because I want her to speak to me; I get lonely in here. I can’t wait to see her; she sounds so sweet, gentle and kind. Although, I have never laid eyes on her, I know I will love her, and she will love me more than life itself. Soon I will be born!

Mother

Today, I went to talk to the school counselor. The guidance counselor advised me, Sarah, you are so young; are you sure you are ready to take care of a newborn baby? You are too young to have a child. You have your whole life in front of you. Don’t you want to go to college? A baby will be such a burden. How does the father feel? But, remember Sarah it is your choice. It is the right of a woman to choose.

I left her office feeling more confused than before. I thought about Gary, the father.  When I met him, I thought he was so cool? He was about five inches taller than me. He had bulging muscles. He had dirty blond hair. I loved to rub my hands through his hair. It felt so soft and clean. When he smiled at me, I melted. I could not resist him. I wanted him to love me. But for a long time, I did not give in; until finally I was scared if I didn’t, he would break up with me.

Now, he has nothing to do with me especially after I told him I was pregnant. He shook his head. Then he said, I got to go...I’m late for football practice...We’ll talk later.

I tried to talk to him at school, but he avoided me. One day, I was walking around the school building and I saw him kissing another girl. He did not see me. I turned and ran to the girl’s bathroom.  Inside a stall, I just cried continuously. My heart was broke. He had told me, I love you. It was all a dirty lie!  Now, I have a baby growing in me; I wish I could just go back to be a kid when life was so simple. What am I going to do?

Unborn baby

I am scared about being born. I am safe in here. That is a big world out there. But I know God created me to be born. I wonder if He has something special planned for me to do.

I wonder if I will be tall. I wonder if I will have black, brown or blond hair. Right now, I don’t have any hair. A thought just went through my mind. A frightful thought, what if I never am born? Is that possible? I’m sure that won’t happen. I bet Mommy can’t wait to see me.

Mother

More months have passed. I finally decided. Even though, I thought it was too late; a lady at the abortion clinic said, Oh no honey, you can still have one. I like that she did not say the word. I still don’t feel comfortable with the actual word. I asked if it would hurt the baby.

She said, Honey don’t worry it won’t feel a thing. I asked if I would be okay.

She said, Yes honey these procedures are perfectly safe, we have done thousands in this facility. You will be fine, and you can get on with the rest of your life beginning tomorrow.  She seemed so confident that I was making the right choice. But still I wondered. I bit my nails. I guess I am still nervous. I was worried I would have to have my mother’s consent. But the lady, whose name is Delores at the clinic assured me I did not need my parent’s consent. She said, This would be completely confidential.

I was glad, because I have hid my pregnancy from my mother these past few months.  It has not been easy; but I have worn baggy clothes and I had stayed at Amanda’s, my