Nothing and Everything All at Once

By Sabrina Marie

After experiencing the horrific events of a sexual assault, the speaker of this book embarks on the journey of recovery. The story on these pages is a reflection of what she went through and the choices she made in order to help her move on. Told with the perspective of a racing mind, the story is told in the present, with flashbacks to the recent past. Take this journey with her and get an inside look at the speaker’s story, opening the mind to the hidden and secretive world of these nightmarish events.

• Language: English
• Publisher: Austin Macauley Publishers
• Release date: May 31, 2019
• ISBN: 9789948374237

Sabrina Marie

Sabrina Marie is a college graduate from Fitchburg State University with a Bachelor’s in English Studies, Literature concentration. In her spare time, she enjoys writing, being physically active and spending time with her pitbull named Draco. Her main genre of writing is poetry and free verse.

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About the Author

Sabrina Marie is a college graduate from Fitchburg State University with a Bachelor’s in English Studies, Literature concentration. In her spare time, she enjoys writing, being physically active and spending time with her pitbull named Draco. Her main genre of writing is poetry and free verse.

About the Book

After experiencing the horrific events of a sexual assault, the speaker of this book embarks on the journey of recovery. The story on these pages is a reflection of what she went through and the choices she made in order to help her move on. Told with the perspective of a racing mind, the story is told in the present, with flashbacks to the recent past. Take this journey with her and get an inside look at the speaker’s story, opening the mind to the hidden and secretive world of these nightmarish events.

Dedication

Dedicated to Gregory and Sean for all of their help. To past teachers for their support and encouragement with writing, and friends and family.

Copyright Information

Copyright © Sabrina Marie (2019)

The right of Sabrina Marie to be identified as author of this work has been asserted by her in accordance with Federal Law No. (7) of UAE, Year 2002, Concerning Copyrights and Neighboring Rights.

All rights reserved. No part of this publication may be reproduced, stored in a retrieval system, or transmitted in any form or by any means, electronic, mechanical, photocopying, recording, or otherwise, without the prior permission of the publishers.

Any person who commits any unauthorized act in relation to this publication may be liable to legal prosecution and civil claims for damages.

ISBN 978-9948-37-425-1 (Paperback)

ISBN 978-9948-37-423-7 (E-Book)

Application Number: MC-02-01-5687324

Age Classification: 17+

The age group that matches the content of the books has been classified according to the age classification system issued by the National Media Council.

Printer Name:

Masar Printing & Publishing LLC

Printer Address:

Dubai, UAE

First Published (2019)

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[phone]

Have you ever found yourself lost? No, I’m not talking like lost in a conversation because you’re the new person or you don’t get the inside joke. Nor am I talking lost as lost in the sense of location, and needing to find your grid location and shoot your azimuth in order to find your way out of the woods. I’m talking mentally and emotionally lost. A state of being where you just don’t know what to feel or how to feel or even how to explain it. But not because you don’t know how to assess situations and your own feelings, but rather because there is just nothing there to feel. Simply, just nothing. And even though you feel nothing at all, it is the heaviest feeling you know. Why? Because you instinctively get caught up in attempting to figure out why you feel nothing. Do you want to know something fascinating? Sometimes you can tell when you start to board this plane and it becomes a slow flight that you cannot eject yourself off of. But at other times, it just hits you. Almost like someone snuck up behind you, blindfolded and handcuffed you so you could not fight, knocked you out, put you on a jet and you woke up in a different part of the world. And you know what’s crazy about that? You only drive yourself deeper into the pits of craziness and nothingness. You literally are swimming in nothingness. How can that even be possible?