Her Troubled Heart

By Pixie Rix

Alexa's Life never went to plan, after losing her best friend she never imaged her life to change. Meeting her stepbrother she felt afraid and intrigued when she met him but she kept her distance. She met Taylor and they became friends. After a devastating night with her stepbrother she lost her dad.
She picked up the pieces of her life and found love with her best friend.
An accident made her life fall apart once again and she packed up and left.
After countless heartbreak and tears she finally found her piece of happiness.

• Language: English
• Publisher: Pixie Rix
• Release date: Oct 18, 2018
• ISBN: 9780463306239

Pixie Rix

There is something strange and unique about writing. Something I can never quite understand or interpret. Someone once asked me if I meant any of what I wrote, if it based on life experience, if the stories I tell if my characters are real. To me they are, each story, each person, they are real in my writer’s mind and converse and argue with me daily on what is to happen to their lives. Reality is the bucket of cold water which is where no one knows my characters like I do, no one understands. Writers are forever alone; I have found out. For me the smiles and metaphors are ways of remembering, tormenting us almost with their unique life that needs to be written. What we write, we feel. We live, we experience. It’s a parallel world to ours, always. The other side of the mirror. What I write is real to me as my reflection. But then, crazy people see all sorts of things, don’t they? This book represents some of the tears I couldn’t cry, some of the terror behind my smiling eyes. This book exists because one night I told myself that I had to swallow up all the fear and pain around me, and once it was inside me I had to transform it all into something beautiful.

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Her Troubled Heart

Chapter One

Alexis, I told you countless times to put your music softer when the twins take their afternoon nap. Sometimes I think you just like pissing me of, like you are deliberately trying to pick a fight with me my mother screamed from the door. Please mother stop being such a drama queen. And I don’t get why you should make such a big deal of my music; how can the little brats even sleep with all the construction going on around here.

What the hell happened in your room, it looks like a hurricane went through here

What the hell mom, you are the one who decided that they had to build a room next to mine, and to top it off you had to go and split my room right down the middle making it so much smaller than it used to be. Where do you think, everything went? The builders just moved everything from that side and left it here, and I can promise you Steven had something to do with this.

Alexis, I will not stand here and let you accuse my husband of this, it’s your responsibility to keep your room clean, and you can’t expect me to do everything around here she said. Well how nice of you to talk about responsibilities mother, where the hell were you when I was growing up? Not at home looking after me that’s for sure. And now you want to talk to me about responsibility. You know what mother I feel sorry for the twins, as soon as you are done playing mother of the year you will leave them to fend for themselves like I had to.

Alexis that’s not fair, you know I had to work to support you.

Are you fucking kidding me, you never needed to work a day in your life and I’m positive you never did, you went out to look for the next sorry bastard who would fuck you and then leave, the alimony dad paid you every week was enough to buy a fucking brand-new car.

Alexis that enough.

Just give it a rest mom and leave me alone, I’m quite busy as you can see, this conversation is over.

I’m not done Alexis I have a lot more I need to say to you.

No mom I’m done get the hell out of my room, I have nothing more to say to you.

Alexis, I will not allow you to speak to your mother that way.

I turned to Steven in the doorway.

Well, Steven how nice of you to join in on our personal conversation. I don’t remember giving you permission to enter my room, so why don’t you just turn around and get the fuck out. Whatever is said between me and my mother is none of your business got it?

Do you have plans with Kevin this weekend Alexis? I froze in mid stride at Kevin’s name. I tried hard to fight the tears I missed him so much, why did he have to be taken away from me. Besides my dad Kevin was the only person who knew me, who cared about me. No mother I won’t be seeing Kevin anytime soon.

Did you a have fight again Alexis?

I tried to swallow against the lump in my throat. No mother we didn’t have a fight, far for from it.

So why aren’t you spending your summer together? I haven’t seen him in ages.

Why do you even care, since when do you care about anything or anyone but yourself?

I like Kevin and the two of you would make such a cute couple. I couldn’t keep my emotions under control and I felt the anger and hate taking control of me.

He died mother, he was killed in a motorcycle accident two months ago, and if you would have paid me more attention you would have known. I fucking hate you, why don’t you just leave me alone please.

Alexis I’m sorry I didn’t know; why didn’t you tell me?

Are you fucking kidding me? I did tell you it was on the news and in the newspapers. But like I said you only care about yourself.

Listen here young lady I told you not to talk to your mother like that, if I should tell you one more time you will see the wrong side of me today.

Oh, for fucks sakes just go fuck yourself Steven, you are not my father and I will have you kicked out of this house. This house still belongs to my dad so shut the fuck up and get your fat ass out of my room.

I sat on the edge of my bed, everyone just looked at me, I missed Kevin. He was my best friend, the one I confided in when things got too much at home, he was the one who protected me so that the other boys in school didn’t bother me. The day of his funeral was like a nightmare that didn’t want to end, his girlfriend Maggie didn’t handle his passing so good and neither did I, we were great friends and she never once had a problem with me and Kevin hanging out so much. Why did he have to go? Roar of Katy Perry broke the silence as my phone rang.

Hi daddy I was just about to give you a call.

Its fine pumpkin I knew you would forget.

I’m sorry daddy.

Listen Lexi I just wanted to know if you are done packing, yet the movers will be there in about twenty minutes?

Well my boxes are done, I just need to get my clothes and then I’m ready to leave.

Great, I can’t wait to have you with me for a little while, I have so much planed you won’t have time to relax.

I can’t wait daddy see you later tonight. I closed the phone and looked at the mess that was my room.

Where are, you going Alexis? My mother asked as I threw my shoes in the box. I’m off to Harvard University mother.

You got into a school, well I didn’t see that one coming.

Mother what did you think, that I had nothing between my ears and that I would end up just like you. Guess what, I’m nothing like you.

School only starts in the fall why are you leaving so soon?

Well, I decided that I will be staying with daddy until school starts. We still have to find me, a place to live and I have so much shopping to do.

You can’t leave this house, the judge said you may leave once you finished school, and I forbid you to leave this house to go to your farther.

Well, I would advise you might want to read the agreement again. It states that I may leave this house as soon as I turned eighteen and finish school. So, mother I may leave this fucking hell hole. And no judge will keep me here.

You are not done with school Alexis; you should finish college as well before you leave.

Well, mother I must say you are dumb. Where do you think, Harvard is situated? Dad lives in Boston and Cambridge is closer to dad and thank God far away from you. I don’t even know why you wanted to live in Miami, why you wanted to move so far away. But I’m glad that I don’t have to see you again for as long as I live. And Steven you might want to find a place to stay, and real soon too. As soon as I step out of that door today, none of you will have a place to stay.

You think you’re so very smart Alexis, why do you think I keep you around. As long as you stay in this house I will have a place to stay, and so will Steven and his kids. A sharp pain ripped through my heart at my mother’s words, but I Turned around and kept myself busy with packing, not wanting her to see the hurt in my eyes. I just wished she could have shown me the love she bestowed on the twins, out arguments just got worse the older I got and when she married Steven I just lost it.

Mother then I have some news for you, I’m eighteen and done with school, and by school the judge meant high school so if I were you I would start packing as well. And believe me dad won’t be happy about the restorations without him not knowing about it.

Would you allow your dad to kick your own mother out on the street Alexis?

If you put it that way yeah I would, like I said I’m not planning on ever coming back to this house.

You are one evil little bitch, aren’t you Alexis. You strive to make everyone around you miserable Steven piped in.

No Steven only you and my mother, you have lived here for five months on my dad’s expense and I think it’s time that you all just start taking care of yourselves. The only reason you stayed this long was because I lived here as well, so what are you going to do as soon as I step out of that door today?

My mother just looked at me with utter hate and I cringed inside. You know what, I don’t even care what you do so if you would excuse me I have some last things to sort out before I leave.

So, dad, this is the little cold hearted bitch you told me about?

I turned around at the unfamiliar voice. In front of me stood the most attractive man I ever saw.

Daniel, we didn’t expect you so soon, you were supposed to arrive tomorrow.

Sorry dad at least I got to meet the little vixen that gave you so much trouble before she left.

Daniel, tall broad-shouldered, with a mop of light hair, firm strong jaw that curved to his lips, he had a boyish grin as if there were something terribly funny only he knew the answer to. A pair of eyes that could look right down to your soul, an intense brown almost black. I had to take a step back something in his body language screamed danger. And I had to admit I was scared. He came walking towards me, I took another step back.

Would all of you just leave my room so that I can finish packing?

This isn’t over Alexis as soon as I can get hold of the judge you won’t be going anywhere anytime soon.

Sure, mother try and convince the judge that it is in my best interest to not go to college. Good luck with that one.

She left slamming the door behind her and I looked back at Daniel still in my room. I looked at the floor and released my breath and looked back up at him. Would you please leave my room, the sound of defeat strong in my voice. His eyes surveying my body, you are a real little fire ball aren’t you. I never would have thought that a little girl like you would make the people around you so miserable.

Miserable I didn’t make their lives miserable, he didn’t know of all I had to endure because of my mother, he didn’t know that I could cook a complete meal by the time I was six, he didn’t know that some nights I didn’t even eat because my mother didn’t by the groceries for the week, he didn’t know what misery was. As he walked to the door he stopped and looked back at me. It was nice to finally meet you Alexis; you had my dad on his toes. He stared at me and I felt a chill run down my spine. You look very familiar, haven’t we met before? I couldn’t talk and just shook my head. He smiled, and I felt my knees go weak with need. Well, good luck with college it was nice meeting you. After he left I ran to the door and locked it, I wish that these people would just leave me alone. Truth be told I wasn’t even the person they thought I was. I didn’t even like to swear, I never liked to scream and shout, I hated when people judged me for the things I did and said, no one knew who I was except for dad and Kevin.

As I placed the last of my clothing into my suitcases, I heard the doorbell ring. Today was the beginning of my new life and I could hardly wait for it to start. I ran to the door just as Steven opened the door. I saw my dad in the door and ran into his arms. He held me tight afraid I might leave. Why did mom have to punish