Broken Dreams how quick life can change

By Rasheeal Dixon

Meet Justice Powell an eighteen year old with dreams of being the first in his family to graduate from college, and one day fulfilling his dream of becoming an attorney. First Justice must try to finish his last three months of high school before he can go to college. He was raised by a single mother named Nile, and he also has one older brother by the name of Loyalty. Justice always had the will to do well but suddenly he falls under financial difficulties, and one of his friends comes up with the idea that they should rob the local deli owner thinking that will solve their financial problems. At first Justice was hesitant to participate, but little by little he is convinced, and that's when everything starts to go downhill for Justice. This triggers a chain of events that starts to put his future in jeopardy, and possibly ruin his future of becoming an attorney......

• Language: English
• Publisher: Rasheeal Dixon
• Release date: Nov 14, 2011
• ISBN: 9781466079939

Rasheeal Dixon

Author, speaker, and innovator. Rasheeal Dixon values his life around helping, and adding value to the lives of everyone that he comes across. He created www.MindWorthyInfo.com to give motivation, and inspiration on a daily basis. He enjoys connecting with people, and fighting the good fight-which is empowering everyone that he comes across. Feel free to contact him, and check out his books!

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BROKEN DREAMS How Quick Life can Change.

Written by Rasheeal Ra Blaze Dixon

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Copyright © 2011 Rasheeal Ra Blaze Dixon

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Table of Contents

Introduction….

Chapter 1 The beginning….

Chapter 2 It all starts now…

Chapter 3 Decisions of life…

Chapter 4 Thinking about the unthinkable…

Chapter 5 Time to live…

Chapter 6 Dying to live…

Chapter 7 Dreaming, of better times…

Chapter 8 All things aren’t what they seem…

Chapter 9 The crazy days ahead…

Chapter 10 Life has to get better…

Chapter 11 Time will tell…

Chapter 12Walking a lonely road…

Chapter 13 Who can I trust…

Chapter 14 I see it coming…

Chapter 15 In this to take it all…

Chapter 16 Getting things done now…

Chapter 17 Now the time has come…

Chapter 18 Everything has now gone bad…

Chapter 19 Some mistakes can’t be erased…

Chapter 20 The end was now around the corner…

Chapter 21 Final outcome…

Author’s final words…

About the Author….

INTRODUCTION

First I would like to introduce you into the world that I witness daily. This is a world of misfortune for many. I’m basically allowing you, as the reader to see how life can be hard and it can also be a little rewarding at times, and whenever the chips are down, and we feel like our backs may be against the wall that is when most of us come out with perseverance. In This book broken dreams you’ll meet a young man by the name of Justice Powell who once had big dreams, but because of many obstacles that he encountered some of his dreams ended up pushed to the side. You’ll also witness how he tries his best to stay positive in a world that’s filled with negativity, and how he was raised in a household with one other sibling by a single mother. This is a tale of a young man with hopes, of rising up and going far beyond where as a child he was told that he can go. This is a story of passion, love, and betrayal, so get ready to embrace a side of the world, and also a side of a human beings mind that many fail to explore.

Chapter 1

The Beginning

Today, is a new day for me, and as I write today’s journal entry I write it with all my passion hoping that I don’t hate today like how I did yesterday. I tried to tell my true feelings to this girl I liked yesterday and all she did was look at me then laughed and just walked away. I didn’t want anyone to see it, but deep down inside I was really crushed. I’m going to be fine though cause one day when I make it to law school and become an attorney that girl is going to wish that she was my wife, but then it’ll be too late.

I’m not going to even stress anything anymore at this moment in my life I’m just going to keep my head up in the clouds and stop worrying about the small things in life. I’m now as focused as I can be. My real priority and goal is to one day show my mother a great life one that she never thought that she would be able to witness in her lifetime. My mother named me Justice and when I asked her why did she name me Justice. The answer she gave me was that all she ever wanted out of life was Justice.

When I asked her to elaborate a little bit more she said that she felt as if I was the justice she received that changed her life. I love my mother and my other sibling. I have one older brother his name is Loyalty he’s only two years older than me, so growing up we were very close. She named him Loyalty because that’s what she felt like she’ll always have, for him since the second that she found out that she was pregnant.

She said once you put together the puzzle she created it goes as simple, as this. The loyalty she had to change her life was what brought her the justice that she needed to change it. Yeah that’s what describes me, my brother, and how we help to shape the wonderful life of our mother. My mother was and still is a very poetic person even her parents had a very real poetic ability. My mother’s name is Nile named after the Nile River in Africa.

I love to write that’s one of the reasons that I’m always writing in my journal. Since I was eight I started writing and since then I was never able to put down my pen and do anything else. It’s almost as if writing puts me in a world that I consider to be my real life, and when I stop writing that’s when I get back into a world that, for me becomes a nightmare. I grew up poor, and there were times I went to bed hungry, but my mom would work three different jobs just to put food on the table.

I remember times growing up when I didn’t even see my mom because she was always working, my brother, and I would go to our grandparent’s house to stay because our mom had to work. Sometimes I would be sad that I never would see my mom as often as I would like, but now that I’m older I’m able to understand that everything that she was doing was only to provide for my brother, and I. Now I look back at my childhood and say it wasn’t the best, but at least I did have a loving family, a few friends, and associates. For me it’s kind of hard calling just anyone a friend. I’ve been betrayed, so many times that I just stopped putting my trust into people and to me trust is like a paycheck you have to work hard to earn it from me.

I’m never going to just open my self up to others again, and one of the main reasons was because to me it seems like every time that I do this all I do is just set my self up, for serious disappointment. Either it’s me helping out a friend just to be betrayed later, or me opening my heart up to a woman only to let her break it. I reached a point where I built up a brick wall around me, and it’s hard for anyone to break it. My mother probably is the only woman that could penetrate the brick wall that I built, and maybe she’s the only one that could break it down. I’m becoming a young adult now, and with age come responsibilities and I’m just trying to become the great man that my mother wants me to be. Even, if sometimes that may seem a little difficult.

I’m currently finishing my last three months of high school, and then I’m free, as a bird. Truthfully I’m proud, of myself that I made it to finish. Most of the people that I remember entering high school with didn’t finish because they dropped out, ended up murdered, or is doing a long prison sentence. This is probably one of the major reasons why I think my mom is real proud, of me. She’s able to see how my drive to succeed is what pushes me and motivates me to go far, so one day we can move away from this neighborhood where we currently live.

My mom is proud that I aspire to be an attorney, and it brings a smile to her face every time that I tell her that in a few years I’ll probably be the next big attorney in the United States. Hey who knows maybe I’ll be the next biggest attorney in the world. I’ve always been a kid with big hopes real dreams, and aspirations to one day prosper and make my mother real proud of me. My brother Loyalty is sometimes a real headache for my mother, but she still loves him no matter what. The unconditional love that she displays for us one hundred percent of the time is unbelievable. Times when I seen other parents abandon their kids she never did that to us she’ll always be in our corner.

Whenever I look at myself you know what I see everyday, well I see someone motivated on a path, and I see someone who will make it. This is what I tell myself all the time like right now, as I write this into my journal I’m thinking about my future. Yeah I see a future that sometimes no one else can see. Occasionally I come across those who want to project negative energy towards me, and say I’ll never make it just because of where I’m from, but I pay them absolutely no mind at all.

I’m almost like an angel notice I said almost because no one is perfect, but I’m surely trying to get there I guess. I really do need to chase after my goals, and I know I place plenty of emphasis on this, but that’s the only way I feel I’ll get there, and that’s if I write about it, and talk about it every minute of the day. I’m no saint even though at times I do pretend to be one. Things will go my way, and then I’ll prove many people wrong especially the dream killers who tried to tell me I’ll just be another statistic, and nothing but someone who is stuck here in the ghetto.

Poetry is also another method that I use to calm me, and I use it to bring me that inner peace that I deeply crave. So there will be times when I do put some poetry in this journal just to get some, of my close thoughts written down. I see myself, as a normal kid, but too bad the world doesn’t look at me like that. I just can’t deal with this torment that sometimes I feel that I’m going through, but somehow I’m able to maintain. I probably would be lost, if I wasn’t able to write as much.

I feel as if constantly I have so much that I need to get off my chest. I’m unable to physically cry and if you asked me why I would give you a true and pure honest answer. I would say that it’s probably because I’ve been so hurt and sad all my life that it’s almost as if my feelings, and emotions are gone. They must be completely wiped away, and erased the total destruction that I went through in life, is what damaged me, and left me in a state, of confusion. So it’s not hard to realize I’m not like most kids my age, I did have my fair share of foolishness that I participated in, but over all now I’m just trying to stay focused.

I’m sick, of seeing so much devastation. The agony, and grief that I come across daily really is heart breaking and sometimes hard to handle. I guess that’s probably exactly what deep down ruined me a little. Maybe what I witnessed is what killed my emotions. It’s real sad to say, but I don’t know what it feels like to be happy I really don’t. The only feeling that I have now is the one that I always had, and that’s one that became accustomed to this type of life.

My father was a great man he was the one who would support my mother, but he died when I was eight in a car accident. After my father’s death that’s when my family fell into real hard times man it’s still hard for me to even write this because I miss my father, so much even though I didn’t know him for that long. The memories that I do have, of him are great ones I just remember how he had a personality that could light up a room and he was always able to put a smile on the face, of anyone. Wow it’s even hard for me to write this down guess I need to take a second, and just relax. Maybe I should just think for a second, and just get my thoughts together because right now they’re just all over the place in my head.

Ok alright I’m back writing I had to just go think and pull myself together. I’m good now, and I’m feeling better It’s just that there are still little things that affect me. Hey I’m still only human and even though I don’t know what it feels like to be happy maybe one day I’ll learn what true happiness is. I once read somewhere that happiness is an emotion that makes a person feel joy and it also uplifts your spirit, and makes you feel better about yourself. I guess I need to come in close contact with happiness then, if it will make me feel uplifted and better about myself with pride.

I do have pride, but the kind of pride that I want is the same kind that a Wall Street executive have. That’s the kind of pride that I bet will make a person feel like they’re on top of the world. That exact feeling right there is what I’m chasing it’s my main goal to one day look in the mirror, and say that’s Justice Powell a true success story. A story book ending that’s exactly what I’m after, and I won’t stop until I achieve the goal that I’ve made for myself. Yeah I do encounter people who look at my dreams and may tell me that I’m dreaming too big, but they’re completely wrong. I see no dream as too big because for example just picture if President Obama, Nelson Mandela, or even Martin Luther king listened to people who said they’re dreaming too big. Exactly my point made then the world would still be a place of little progress, and when history is told I want my name to be written in the history books also.

I know in order to reach this set goal plenty of work is going to have to take place just, so that I can get near my goal. That’s just the beginning because the real work starts once I get towards it, and I probably would say that’s when all the fun starts. I was never any stranger to any challenge, and I never plan on being a stranger to any challenge not now, or never. I look at any challenge ahead and I’m ready to take it on in a way that I know how to because I feel like what do I really have to lose. I come from a place where everyone‘s life is hard, so what do I really have to lose currently I’m just going against the grain and putting everything on the line.

I have absolutely nothing to lose this moment in my life is the moment where I’m going for it all with no hesitation, or no procrastination. I know that I really have what it takes to succeed this is what’s in my veins implanted into my system. It’s something that I like to look at, as ambition sad to say, but ambition to me isn’t something that a person can develop either you have it, or you don’t. Ambition is a driving force that can bring someone to levels in life that is unimaginable. So I would say that those people in our society that are extremely successful must’ve had plenty ambition, and drive.

Even though there are a few exceptions to this I believe and when I say a few I mean that. What I’m trying to say, is sometimes some of us have the ambition but we may encounter many road blocks, and that may force some individuals to take a path that wasn’t their original set path. My path is one etched in stone I think, and no one will derail me from chasing what I’m after. Just watch me is what I tell everyone who may try to doubt me, and place a negative cloud over my head.

Everything, and anything is possible with a little ambition, and no matter how much I try we always end up back at that key thing and that’s whether an individual possess ambition. Well I don’t want to stay talking about the same thing even though I can because who is going to read this journal entry besides myself. Well maybe someone will read it I guess, but whoever looks at it I hope they see it as something that was well written by an extremely articulate, and brilliant guy. Yeah I had to throw the brilliant part in because I do think that I’m very smart I see no reason not to think that I am.

I never ask for too much just to enjoy myself, and to keep my eyes open to what’s going on in today’s always changing and fast pace world. Wow now this is exactly what happens whenever I start writing into my journal I always end up writing a lot, and just venting on everything. At times I tell myself that all I’m going to do is just write just one paragraph, and then one paragraph turns into two and then two somehow become three to five, or more. I should probably become an author instead of an attorney because I do have a real passion, and love for writing.

I love writing so much because it enables me to do what I love best, and that’s to create. Writing takes me into a world that I never thought I would ever know and for me that is a thrill it’s kind of hard to explain. Maybe one day when I find a real way to explain this I would. I think this probably led to me being a little antisocial, and it’s why I don’t really like hanging around large crowds that much.

Not trying to make any excuses, but just maybe it played a part in why I just rather being by myself most of the time. I just like being in a world that I created, and one that I have control over instead, of this world that’s completely out of my control. I always been like this, and if someone was to ask me why my honest answer would be I don’t know why. That’s my honest answer, if I could explain it better then that’s exactly what I would do, but unfortunately at this moment in my life I’m unable to give a better answer.

My ways are good well my mother did teach me well, and I learned plenty of valuable things from my grandparents, and everyone else that I grew up around. Hey I was always the type that would absorb any