Cutting Apples
By Jomé Rain
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Written amidst the Covid-19 pandemic, Cutting Apples is a memoir which examines life through an intimate stream of consciousness. Jomé Rain wanders mentally across topics such as her relationship with her mother, sex work, the end of a friendship, music, love, mental health, and the inner monologue that dictates how one navigates their
Jomé Rain
jomé rain is a writer and sex worker in her mid twenties, currently living between nyc and paris. she adores love, lust, and her puppy: scarlet. Cutting Apples is her debut publication.
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Cutting Apples - Jomé Rain
Cutting Apples
Jomé Rain
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I am cutting apples. I think of you and my eyes grow wet. Why do my eyes grow wet? Did you do something to me? I am not angry at you; I am sad about you. My eyes sting. I am worried the apples won’t come out well and I’ll have to eat them anyway. I don’t like to waste. Is that why I cling?
I am taking a course on the Ethics of Memory. I’m not sure what the point is yet. I will tell you when I figure it out, if you speak to me that day.
I have a lot of memories about you, but most of them are made up. Fantasized. My brain is tricky because she’s good at making up stories, but after—I forget they are stories, I start to miss them like they were truths. So, did you love me? Or was that a story? And does it really matter, even a little bit? The you in my head loved me, and in a way, to me, that’s the only ‘you’ that’s ever existed.
Okay, then you loved me. I’m sorry. I didn’t mean for you to do that. I love you, but I didn’t want you to love me, too. It’s dangerous to be a lover, because if you do it too well and the other person decides to make a go of it, then BOOM—you’ve lost your title. I am a natural lover, and the prerequisite of that is that I am always harboring affections unrequited. If you love me, don’t requite me. Is that a word? Don’t requite me.
I am trying to Drink Lots of Water. I stopped drinking alcohol, but I forgot to replace it with something, now my lips are always dry. Tell me to take a sip. Thanks. I didn’t. Fuck. It’s hard when there’s no one around to hold me accountable, no one to perform for. At the beginning of this inside period, I didn’t eat for two days. No one could tell me to do so, so I didn’t. That’s not a thing I have against food, I really like to eat. I just didn’t see the point.
I am a person who likes to Cook for Others. I am what my (many) therapists have called A Provider. Usually this is followed up with a speech on Codependence and Trauma Responses. Usually, I stop listening by then. I am a Natural Provider. I don’t feel comfortable with portion sizes. Whether I am cooking for myself or ten people, I always make too much. I am always expecting someone to walk in the door, a lone soldier stranded and needing a hot meal. I am a hot meal, too. But this is about the pasta.
Actually, I am not having pasta. I thought the word sounded better, but that’s not what I am cooking. I am making rice. When the rice is done, it will be the turn of the apples, which will be sautéed until yummy and then cooked with shrimp. I am being experimental because I don’t have anything else to do. Maybe when this is over, I’ll write a cookbook. That would most likely be more interesting than this. People love words that tell them to do something. What am I telling you to do? Absolutely nothing. Be experimental, I guess. Masturbate in the shower. Why not? Big whoop.
I think I am in a mood. Not a bad one, just a one. My mom says that a lot, I’m in a mood.
Usually, when she says that, it’s a bad