Not Just A Luna; I Am Alpha!

By Lovella Novela

I, Alpha Xander Finch of the Red Moon Pack,” he said. Wait, is he going to accept my rejection now? “Reject your rejection, Alpha Chastity Reid of the Silver Moon Pack,” he added, and my eyes widened when I felt something extraordinary. Maybe he felt it too because he was surprised as well. Then he carried me before he pinned me at the back of the now already closed door and kissed me and, oh goddess, I felt like I missed him for a thousand years already, so I kissed him back.

Chassy, an omega who carries the weight of her heritage, is mistreated by her mother and the Red Moon Pack for her entire existence. Her real potential, which was acquired from a father who came from a mysterious lycan clan, is hidden from her and her tormentors. She found out that Xander, her Alpha, was her mate. For some reason, he hurt her. As a result, Chassy leaves and rejects him.

But destiny has more in store for her. With the advent of her lycan beast, she unexpectedly rises to the position of alpha in her adopted pack. Then she met her father whom she never knew and found out more about herself.

The persistent vampires, push packs to band together under an alliance. Chassy's previous and present lives intersect when Xander stops by her new pack for a joint training session against this backdrop of peril and unity. Will Xander and Chassy be able to cross the gap between them? Can they stand together in the face of the impending vampire threat?

What will Chassy do when she knows that she's unable to give Xander an heir and a boy with his mother comes to the pack claiming Xander to be the father?

• Language: English
• Publisher: supernovel
• Release date: Feb 28, 2024

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Chapter 1

Chassy

I am Chastity Reid.Chassy,for short,and an omega,just like my mother,Merlisa,who is also from the Red Moon Pack and found her mate in human territory who happens to be my father,whom I haven't remembered or seen since I was a child.I don't remember my mom treating me nicely either.She was always yelling and shouting at me,which made me realize at such a young age that she didn't care or love me.

We have our own house,but we both work in the pack house.There was no time that she never shouted at me every time she saw me.As I entered the lion's lair within the pack house,the atmosphere was tense.My mother,once a lively woman but now overcome with resentment,was holding a boiling pot as she stood at the stove.As I stepped inside the door,my heart was thumping.

About time you showed up,you useless creature,she shouted,her eyes shrinking into slits of contempt.Did you think I'd continue to make your terrible meals?

I attempted to remain calm as my throat constricted and a lump formed.I'm sorry,Mom,I said.

Sorry?she replied with a sarcastic melody in her laugh.Omega,you're simply a burden and a continuous reminder of your pitiful excuse for a father,so sorry doesn't cut it,she added.I made fists with my hands and dug my nails into my palms.Each of her remarks pierced my tender sense of self-worth like a blade.Determined not to give her satisfaction,I bit my lip to hold back a response.

A bunch of young omegas entered the room as if on cue,their eyes gleaming with vile delight.They functioned as a pack inside a pack,and their power came from their mutual contempt for me.Then,Arlene,who had a twisted smile,took the lead,moved forward,and made a sarcastic remark,Well,well,see who chose to bless us with her appearance.Did you emerge from your burrow specifically to make us all ill?

My heart was thumping like a caged bird as my eyes darted from one face to another.I want to get away from their never-ending assault,but I'm aware that doing so would only make things worse.So I said,Leave me alone,barely audible.

Arlene's hands were visibly placed against her chest as she pretended to be surprised.Oh,did the omega just speak?I had no idea you could put words together.

The bunch burst out laughing,sending vicious laughter reverberating off the walls.My fingers clenched at my sides as my cheeks burned with embarrassment,and I still had to put up with this to demonstrate that their words couldn't harm me.

Then another omega scoffed,a sly grin spreading over her lips.You know,I heard omegas like you are good for nothing.

As I prepared for the shock of their words,my face turned pale and my heart sank.Every taunt and jeer served as a reminder of my position within the pack's hierarchy,which I had not chosen but was compelled to follow.Pathetic,Arlene spouted,her disgusted mouth twisting.

I struggled to stop the tears from flowing as they welled up in my eyes as my eyesight became foggy.I refused to give them the gratification of seeing me cry and wouldn't allow them to.But what they said weighed heavily on me,and I felt as though I was suffocating as a result.

What are you still standing at?Start doing your chores!Mom shouted.So I started to do as she said and passed through the others who were there to mock me.I don't know why they were acting like that when,just like me,they were also omegas and didn't have their wolf

Every day,I would pray to the moon goddess to give me a mate who would accept me and take me away from this shithole that I am in.I should have felt safe and secure because I had a pack that I should call home.And that scene is a constant occurrence in my life that I wanted to change.

The Red Moon Pack is the strongest in the region.Our Alpha,who didn't have his mate yet,was passing the time by banging on different women and was the strongest Alpha as well.No pack would dare get in his way if they wanted to keep their packs safe.He was assisted and supported by his strong Beta,named Limuel,and Gamma,Jack.

While everyone was happy being in the pack that was led by strong leaders,my existence was a tapestry of suffering and gloom.I have been aware of the weight of cruelty and rejection since my earliest memories.Yes,I was an omega by birth and bore the stigma associated with my mother's position,which appeared to define who I was.

A feeling of melancholy that matched my feelings was carried by the wind as it rustled through the thick woodland that encircled the pack's area.The pack members started to move in the early morning light,their movements serving as a reminder of the world to which I belonged,yet I was still an outcast.

I sat on the sidelines as the pack's kids laughed and played because I knew that if I got involved,people would laugh at me.After my father left us,my mother was my nightmare even when I was awake,while my alpha did nothing.I would never have believed if he had said that everything that was happening to me had not come to his attention.I hate him for making me feel unsafe with my mother and my own pack.I hate that he doesn't use his power to protect someone like me who only wants to be accepted.

Three days.All I need is to wait for three days,and I will be able to smell my mate.If he's not in this pack,I am going to leave here and look for him.It's better than finding him here only to reject me.I don't think that I will be able to handle it if that happens.Anyone is OK with me;just don't make him one of the pack members,please,moon goddess.

Chapter 2

Chassy

The sun is still down,but my eyes open on their own.I looked around my room,which I didn't think anyone would be able to sleep in besides me.Besides a cot that I took from the used things in the pack's garbage area and my worn-out bag with a few worn-out clothes that I also got from where I got my cot,A space where I could sleep was the only thing that my mother could provide me with.

I roamed my eyes around,and there was nothing unusual except for the fact that I felt like my eyesight had become clearer.I could also hear noises coming from—I don't know where—because it was very faint.The scent of my room became stronger,and I realized that it smelled like shit,just like my life.'Hi,'I said in my head,trying to get a response from my wolf if I had it.But there was nothing.It was all nothing but silence,no matter how many times I greeted her.

Am I really wolfless?Will there be no hope of changing my fate?Will there be no chance for my kind to have a reason to accept me,even if that shouldn't be the case?After minutes of contemplation,I decided not to feel discouraged.It was still early,and I still had a whole day to wait to see if my wolf would resurface or not.I got up from my cot and started to warm up.It was going to be a long day and,just like any other day,tiring because of the pack members who were happy to see me suffer.

'Hey,'I tried to say in my head again,hoping someone would reply,but still,there was no one.I went out of my room holding a hand-me-down towel and worn-out clothes to go to the bathroom at the end of the hall.Mom's house was slightly bigger.It was from her parents,who were both fighters of the Red Moon Pack,so I wondered why she was an omega.I took a bath in a hurry because the water was so cold.Mom didn't want me to use the heater as it would consume electricity.

After I was done,I went back to my room and looked in the mirror.Hahaha…Mirror my ass.It was the glass window that I used as a mirror because I had already said that my room was bare.It was a plain room,without my cot and bag.I look good,as always.Of course,that's only in my eyes.I don't know about the others.I then went out of my room again and went downstairs,ready to work in the packhouse kitchen and receive maltreatment from other pack members.

I'm 18 and supposed to be having a good time off,but my mother will never let me.So,here I am,walking my way to the pack house,where my mother was starting to work for sure.No one in the pack was kinder.Everywhere I walked,there was murmuring and snickering,a continual reminder that I was their target.Each statement was a lash to my flimsy sense of self,causing me physical and mental damage.

I encountered taunts and teasing in the training yard when I passed as adolescent wolves rehearsed their shifts and sharpened their abilities.I couldn't get the fortitude to face them,so I turned my attention to the ground as their boos resounded in my ears.It was still early,but they were so lively and energetic,tormenting me.

One of the more experienced wolves shouted,Hey,Omega!Show us your shift!Oh wait,you can't!which caused the gathering to roar with hilarity.

My cheeks flushed with embarrassment as everyone could see that I was unable to shift.I clenched my hands,torn between the desire to fight back and the understanding that doing so would only worsen the pain.So I continued walking my way to the pack house,and I couldn't help but remember why I suddenly stopped coming to school,even though I love to study.

School ought to have been a getaway,an opportunity to find comfort in books and knowledge.However,I discovered that I was ignored even in this educational environment and experienced the pain of exclusion most keenly in the classroom,which served as a microcosm of pack dynamics.

My thoughts strayed as I sat alone at my desk with a book open.I had always been drawn to tales of valor and fortitude,heroes who conquered hardship.I felt a spark of optimism at those moments,a desire to overcome the suffering that had dominated my existence.

And then,from behind me,a voice mockingly said,Hey,omega girl,why don't you just give up?No one here wants you.

My heart sank when the same malice that followed me everywhere entered my refuge.I closed my eyes,finding solace in the made-up worlds that had given me a momentary break from reality.

Because I thought that nothing was going to change even if I finished school unless I shifted,I decided to stop,and my mom was so happy that she didn't need to spend money on me.As if she really did.

You're late,my mom's voice boomed into my being,and then I realized that I was already at the pack house.I had my head down and started to work on my chores so I wouldn't get scolded by her,which I thought was only wishful thinking for me.Because no matter what I do,she still hates me and will always yell and shout at me.

It was in the afternoon when Alpha Xander asked for me in his room.Get his laundry and clean his room.Don't do anything stupid,or I am going to break your legs.Mom threatened me.I nodded my head and went to the 4th floor,where Alpha Xander's room was.I didn't want to go there because I didn't want to see him either.All the time that there was a pack gathering,I would hide myself and try to make myself invisible to everyone,especially high-ranking officials.

As I approached his room,a sudden feeling of nervousness engulfed me.I don't know,but I had a feeling that something was going to happen,and I was sure that I wouldn't like it.I was in front of his room when I smelled it.It was the most intoxicating scent I have ever smelled.I should be happy,but it scares me because I know who owns the room behind the door that I was standing in front of.He is there,my mate.My heart sank when the realization hit me that he was not going to accept me and that I would end up being rejected.

Without expecting anything,I knocked on the door,then I heard him say,Come in.

Chapter 3

Chassy

Come in,Alpha Xander's voice echoed.I turned the knob and opened the door,trying to appear relaxed.I didn't want to convey my true feelings about our bond.After closing the door and heading towards his laundry,I was stunned to find him by the bathroom door,clad only in a towel around his waist.It was mind-blowing,not because it was the first time I saw the opposite sex in such a state,but because I knew he was mine,and I desired him.

No,I shouldn't want him.He would never accept me,only reject me.I was sure of it.Summoning my courage,head down,I said,I will just get your laundry,Alpha.

Alpha,you say?he asked,acknowledging my knowledge of our mate bond.My mate,an alpha,the strongest,had known about our connection but did nothing when I was mistreated.The one who should have provided security chose the company of another she-wolf or woman over caring for his bullied,wolf-less mate.

Yes,Alpha,I insisted.

You know who I am to you,he said.

Yes,you are my Alpha,I replied,refusing to let him mock me.I wouldn't claim him;without a wolf,it wouldn't be too difficult.I was the only one who would suffer.

I heard him growling,but I didn't flinch and kept my head down.Look at me,he ordered,and I did.He looked at me intently,the mate bond making me feel a desire as soon as our eyes met.I didn't have a wolf,so I shouldn't feel this way,so why?

Then,my feet were swept off the floor,carried to his bed.No,this is not going to be good.I shouldn't let the mate bond overtake me.Put me down!I shouted.I knew he was my alpha,and I had no right to resist,but I didn't want him to touch me.It stirred a desire I thought was not good for me.

I don't know what you are talking about,Alpha.Just let me do what I came here for,I replied,and he just looked at me.After a while,he smirked.Yeah,smirk all you want because I am not going to let myself fall for the bond that only those who have wolves should feel.

Oh,that has been my plan,he said,kissing me.My eyes widened in shock because I never thought he would do that.I knew the type of woman he liked,and I was far from that,so why is he doing this?Even if I am his mate,the fact that he was with another woman,even after knowing that I am his,is enough for me to hate him even more.

I tried to push him,but who am I fooling?No matter what I do,I can never do that.He is an alpha and way stronger than me.Plus,my body wanted him as well.No,this is not happening.I should stop him.I won't be able to leave the pack if I let him do as he pleases.

Wait,if he wanted me,does that mean he is going to claim me?Then,will I become Luna?With that in mind,I decided to accept him.This must be what the moon goddess saved and stored for me—to be with the strongest alpha in the region.Even if I didn't know how,I tried to respond to his kisses.He stiffened for a moment;maybe he never thought I would do that.But I am willing to take a leap and risk my feelings.I may not like him as much,but he is still my mate.

The laundry and cleaning that I was supposed to do in his room were long forgotten as our bodies collided.It was painful as it was my first time,and I thought that he was already done,but I was wrong.Alpha…I moaned when I felt that I was about to cum again.He was so gentle and caring that I thought he was going to mark me.

But no matter how many times we did it,he didn't.We were both panting,lying on his bed,and,I admit it,I was above the clouds,and I didn't want to end it.I looked at him and found him looking at me as well.I was about to ask him why he didn't mark me,but he talked first.

Get dressed.Take my laundry and leave.I was stunned.I never thought that he would tell me that.My heart clenched because of the pain,as it was almost a rejection.He made me feel like I was just another woman who warmed his bed.I wanted to yell at him and hit him as hard as I could.But I know better than to do it.I was in pain,and in addition to the suffering caused by my mother and the pack,his indirect rejection beat all the pain they caused me.

He got up and picked up the towel that was on the floor as well as my clothes.He looked at them,and,under different circumstances,I would rather die of embarrassment at the way he held them before he threw them at me.I wanted to cry,but maybe,just maybe,my heart was already immune to pain,so no matter how hurt I was,my tears didn't fall.

I grabbed my clothes and wore them,then went to where his laundry was before I went out of his bedroom without looking at him.I may appear unaffected,but my heart was torn into pieces.The people whom I thought would be there for me are the ones who hurt me the most.First is my father,who left me in my mom's care.Then my mother,who hates me and mistreats me.Now,my mate,whom I thought was my ray of hope and would take me out of my misery.How can the moon goddess be this cruel to me?

With an aching heart,I did all my remaining chores.But I never thought that the pain that Alpha Xander,my mate,just gave me didn't end there.I want to end my life before he kills me first because of the unbearable pain.

Chapter 4

Chassy

I didn't know how I managed to get through the day.I felt like I was already dead because I didn't think that my heart was still beating either.I didn't want to get up and work in the pack house when I felt my heart aching the following day.What am I going to do?The tears that I thought were drained started to fall on my face.I thought I was already immune to any kind of pain,but I was wrong.Mates are the ones who could hurt anyone the most.

Because I didn't want my mother to yell and shout at me,I decided to get up and do my daily routine.Only this time,I stayed in the shower a lot longer than usual.My body felt so numb that the cold didn't bother me.How can I?When I already feel my heart freezing.

An alpha.I was mated to an alpha,and this happened to me.How can I be so foolish to think that just because he wanted me,he would claim me as well?I walked my way to the pack house as usual and passed through the training ground,but unlike any other day,I didn't notice them or hear them making fun of me.

How can you be this late???my mother asked,shouting right at my face while I held it after she slapped me.Will I cry?Would there be any changes if I did?Would it touch her heart?I don't think so.After so many years of maltreatment,cursing,and beatings,I don't think that there will come a time when she will realize that I am her daughter.

I'm sorry;this is not going to happen again,I replied with my head down,resigning all my feelings,hope,and love for this woman whom I needed now more than ever,but here she was,and she didn't even know that something was happening to me.After I said that,I walked to the pantry and got everything she needed for the breakfast she was cooking.

Can you move faster?as usual,Arlene asked arrogantly.We are all omegas and were supposed to set the table together,but here she is telling me to do it alone.My life really stinks.I feel like I am the lowest among the lowest creatures in this pack.

The breakfast had started,and I don't know why the jerk alpha decided to eat with the warriors.Does he want to know how much I was affected by what he had done to me?Good morning,Alpha!Everyone greeted him.The female warriors all looked so happy.Who wouldn't,when they see the most handsome creature that the moon goddess has ever made?

I never glanced at him and just stood where I was and waited for anyone who needed anything so I could get it for them.My face was stoic,and I tried to look stoic.He will never hurt me again.I shouldn't let him.A little later,his beta,Limuel,arrived with Gamma Jack,so I went back to the kitchen and got their food.

Thank you,Beta Limuel said after I placed his plate in front of him.I didn't say anything;I didn't even look at him or our gamma.Eherm,he said,clearing his throat,but I still didn't look at him.Then I left and went back to where I should be standing during their meal.I wonder why I had to do this.Why do I need to serve them like this?Don't they have their own hands to get their food?Wash their dishes and laundry?This hierarchy is pissing me off,and I promise myself that if I live long,meaning if I never take my own life out of misery,I will change everything here.

The days have passed,and I don't know how that happened.It was over a month,and I don't know what keeps me going either.Alpha Xander didn't talk to me anymore,and I was wondering if he only wanted my body.Why can't he just reject me?

In the second month,my mother let me go home early so I could be early the following day because there would be a Luna celebration the day after tomorrow.How come we're going to have the ceremony when my mate has not talked to me about it?Did he decide to accept me already?Is this the reason he wasn't talking to me?To surprise me?I shook my head with that thought—no,he would never do that.He is not the type to do that.

Everything was clear when I was cleaning the living room,and a group of she-wolves arrived,they were talking about one of them having a Luna's ceremony and being the chosen mate of an Alpha.You are really lucky to be chosen by alpha-one of them said,but was stopped by our gamma.

Ladies,Alpha is waiting for you,he said.I looked at him and found him looking at me as well.He didn't say anything,and I turned my gaze back to what I was doing.That jerk!

I went home after and stayed in my room.I think and think and think.I wanted my mate,that's for sure.But he doesn't want me.What am I going to do?I know that I can't force him to accept me and make me his Luna,but isn't it just natural for him to love me because I am his mate?

My heart clenched once again,as the thought of being rejected was close to happening.I didn't wish to be mated to an alpha and become Luna.All I want is a mate who will accept and cherish me.Why did the moon goddess do this to me?What have I done in my previous life that has caused me to suffer like this?

After some thought,it was 10 in the evening,and I knew that my mother,along with other pack members,was resting and in their slumber.I got up from my cot and had a bath.I may not have my mate now or in this lifetime,but I didn't want him to see me suffer.

Yes,I am going to leave.But before that,I wanted to spend another night with him.I heard from the warriors that the wolves earlier had left the pack and would be back tomorrow,so I'm sure that my mate is alone in his bedroom.

Slowly,I walked out of my mom's house and went to the pack house.The kitchen door is always open because of the omegas and warriors who left the pack without Xander's knowledge and enjoyed a night in human territory.

As I entered,I walked straight to the fourth floor,where Xander's room was.After I gathered my courage,I knocked and waited.I didn't hear anything,so I opened the door and went in.And there he was,lying on his bed,sleeping.

It's late,I heard him say,and I sat up.So he's not asleep yet.He looked at me,and I met his gaze.I didn't try to hide my feelings.I want him to know that I want him and,at the same time,I hate him.A smile appeared on my lips as I walked closer to him while he was still on his bed,sitting,waiting for me.

Then I slowly stripped off my clothes as soon as I stood in front of him with our eyes locked on each other.I wanted

Chapter 5

Chassy

I ended up in a stream that I didn't know was there.I had been living in the pack for 18 long years,and yet I had not gone outside the border.It was the first time that I saw something other than the kitchen in the pack house,the road I always take when I go there,and the room in which I slept.I just realized how foolish I am to stay in a place where I never felt like I belonged.I looked into the water and saw my reflection.The moonlight was so bright that I thought at least it would stay with me.

Because of the light that came from the moon,I saw how miserable I was.Is this how I am supposed to live?Will there be a chance that I will be happy?If everyone had a purpose for living,what was mine?Who's going to be with me to materialize that purpose?Feeling tired and exhausted,plus the numbness and heaviness of my heart because of the rejection I had caused,I couldn't help but lie down by the stream and close my eyes.

I didn't know how long I had been sleeping,but I was woken up by the sound of a broken branch.I opened my eyes and got up before I looked around,and it was too late for me to run because a big brown wolf had already jumped at me.I guess being a rogue is like this,especially when I am a woman and have no wolf.Am I even considered a rogue in my condition?I had a feeling that they were a lot stronger than me.Then I decided to fight for my life.I can't die like this.

The wolf didn't move or do anything and just stared at me.Then,after a while,I heard the rustling sound of the leaves.When I looked at where it came from,I was shocked and scared to see another two big wolves.Just where did they come from?Then,the big brown wolf shifted.I turned around even if I feared for my life because one thing I know about our kind is that we were naked when we shifted back to our human form.You can turn around now,said the voice.It sounded a little old to me,but I still did what he said.Who are you,and where did you come from?he asked.

Should I tell them?I looked behind him and found the two wolves looking at me,and I just noticed that they didn't look scary at all.Are you not going to answer me,child?the man asked again.With teary eyes,I smiled at him.Why?It was the first time that I was called that way.It was soft and sounded caring.Did something happen?the man asked again.Before he thought of anything else,I answered.

I am Chastity Reid and a lone wolf.You can call me Chassy for short.

How did you end up here?

Am I in your territory?I'm really sorry.I was running away from someone,and I felt tired and weak as I ended up here.I answered.

Do you have a place you can go?he asked,and the two wolves behind me started to walk away.Or not?After a few minutes,two men came out from behind a tree.Why do you always take a long time to answer?

Oh,I'm sorry.Well,I thought that they were going to leave,I said.

They are my beta and gamma,the man said,and my eyes grew wider.So he is an alpha.

You're the alpha?I asked,and he nodded.

Stay in my pack if you have no place to go,he said.

I-I–,I didn't know what to say.

A simple thank you will be enough.Of course,that is if you are willing to come with us.He replied,If not,I would suggest that you take care of yourse—

I'm going.I cut him off.I'm going with you,I added,and he nodded.Then he looked at his beta and gamma again,who were both smiling at me.I should feel worried,right?I mean,I don't know them at all,but I felt comfortable around them.I have never felt this before.Even with my own mother's presence,I have never felt this relaxed.Who are they really?

Don't think too much;when we get back to the pack house,I am going to tell you something,the alpha said before we started walking.Anyway,I am Alpha Jay,and he is my beta,Simon,and my gamma,Rick,he added,introducing them to me.The two gave me a warm smile,which I returned with a nod.Then we started walking until we reached the roadside,where we found an SUV.Get in,"Alpha Jay said after he opened the backseat door,as Beta Simon went to the passenger side and Gamma Rick to the driver's side.Why are the three of them together in the middle of the night?Wait,is it still night?

My eyes turned outside the window,and I saw that the sun had started to rise as well.So it is morning.When we arrived at the pack house,we just felt at home.No one is going to harm you there.You have to rest and sleep because you look like shit.Alpha Jay said,which made the two in front laugh.I am going to ask someone to call you at noon,so take a bath before you have your lunch,he added.Wait,do you want to eat breakfast before you rest?he asked worriedly.He must have thought that I had already been in the stream for a very long time.

I'd rather sleep first,I replied,smiling.Yes,I should sleep.I needed a rest from the pain that I am still feeling at this very moment.Even now,I wanted to close my eyes already,but I tried not to.I wanted to know where we were going.At least to make sure that I am safe.And I hope I am.

Chapter 6

Xander

I was in my bedroom,lying on my bed,deep in thought when I caught a whiff of her presence just outside my bedroom door.Despite her knocking,I hesitated to open the door,assuming she would eventually leave.To my surprise,she persisted.The doorknob turned,and my door creaked open.Why is she here?

It's late,I said,sitting up on my bed.I gazed at her,only to find her looking back at me with a different expression in her eyes.She seemed to be conveying her feelings for me.I could sense her desire,coupled with a hint of anger.A smile played on her lips as she approached,and all I could do was wait.

Then she started stripping.Although I was tempted to look,and I didn't say that I was not seeing her,I didn't leave her gaze.I chose not to because I wanted to know if she was serious about it.I want to know why she was doing this.

She reached my face with her hands shaking,and I could see that she was nervous.Why not,when it was the first time that she did this?I know,because I am the first man in her life.I want her;I can't deny that,so I pulled her,let her sit on my lap,and kissed her.

We were looking at each other,panting,when we stopped kissing for a while,and I told her,You're the one who came here;don't say that I forced you this time.I waited for whatever she was going to say,but she kissed me instead.

I threw all my hesitations at the back of my head and did everything I wanted to do to her.I had been wanting to do this to her since I was 18,when I found out that she was mine.But what can I do?She was only 11 years old at that time.I don't know how it happened,but it just did.Normally,I should wait for her to turn 18 before I can finally smell her scent and know that she's my mate.It was too early for that to happen.And fu**.I felt so frustrated that I had to wait 7 years before I could claim her.

The night was blissful.We made love endlessly.Let me just rest,and I am going to leave,and I will not let anyone see me,she said.I was about to tell her not to leave and to stay with me,but since she had already made her statement,I decided to talk to her in the morning.I wrapped my arms around her waist so I could feel her until I dozed off and fell asleep.

Aghhhhh…,I screamed after waking up.Glancing beside me,I realized Chassy was no longer there.'Limuel,in my room,faster!'I screamed through our mind-link,urgently calling my beta's attention.

When he arrived,I was holding my chest because it hurt like hell.What's wrong?he asked,and then Jack,my gamma,appeared.I looked at him and said,

Find Chassy!"I commanded him,and he nodded.I could see that he was worried about me,but I had given him the alpha command,so he had nothing to do but follow my instructions.Limuel took me to the pack hospital,and from there,I lost consciousness.

What!You still haven't found her?I asked,anger evident in my voice.It had been over two weeks since she left,and I still had no news about her whereabouts.I knew she had nowhere to go,so why the hell did she leave?Didn't she realize how dangerous it was for her,being alone and turning rogue as a woman?

No news,Xander,Jack replied with his head down.It was just the three of us,so they were allowed to call me by my name since we were friends.I know that I have been pressuring him ever since Chassy left,but I had no choice but to do that.I want him to do everything to find her.

Besides that night,do you still feel any more pain?Limuel asked,and I shook my head.

I don't believe what the doctor said;she didn't reject me.I felt her.She loves me,and I make sure to let her feel my emotions as well.

Xander,when the wolves from the Raven Claw Pack arrived,they were discussing the Luna ceremony,and I believe she overheard them.I attempted to prevent them from talking because I didn't want Luna to misunderstand,Jack explained,and I glanced at him.

Why didn't you inform me?I inquired.Limuel was also focused on him.

I did!he exclaimed.Remember,after they left,I talked to you about them,and I made sure to tell you about Luna,he added,and I stared at him.I remember that time,but–Wait,so it was true that sometimes you feel like you can't hear anything?he added,and I nodded my head.

Yes,that happens,especially when it's about Chassy.And until now,I couldn't find the reason.I know I can hear very well,even the tiniest noise.So,I wondered what was wrong with me.I think she rejected you right after she left the border.Because we couldn't trace her scent anymore,and you know that in our territory,there are a lot of rogues lurking around;her scent must have mixed with theirs,Limuel said.

I understand,I replied,leaning back in my chair.What am I going to do to find her?

You should have talked to her,you know,my beta said in a low voice.She could have understood why you can't claim and mark her yet,he added.

Yes,and I can't do anything about it,I replied.Or she may not believe it either.We don't know.

We're going to find her.I promise you that we will bring our Luna back to our pack,Jack said,so I smiled at him.

Thank you,I told him.

The next day,I was on the training ground and was about to finish when Jack came running.I think I saw her,he said as soon as he was closer.My heart suddenly stopped beating,eager to hear more news that my gamma would unfold.

Chapter 7

Xander

What do you mean,you think you saw her?I asked.

I think I saw Chassy in human territory,he answered.Her scent is not the same as before;I think she already has a new pack,he added.

Which pack?

I don't know,but I had a feeling that I knew the pack;I just couldn't tell.This is frustrating.I need to find her before anything happens to her.Though I was warned about this,I still can't help but worry about her safety.What if something happens to her?I didn't want to admit it,but I know that she rejected me after she left the pack.What if she found someone else?

You should have followed her,I told him.

I know,but everything happened so fast.I was already tailing her,and then someone bumped into me and talked to me.I didn't want to leave her out of my sight,but that human was so persistent in talking to me.Then I missed her.

You feel like there's this force that prevents you from getting closer to her?I asked.He looked at me and nodded slowly.I understand him.Please dismiss the warriors,I instructed and went back inside the pack house.I guess for now,I have to let her go.If this is our fate,I will go withYou feel like there's this force that prevents you from getting closer to her?I asked.He looked at me and nodded slowly.I understand him.Please dismiss the warriors,I instructed and went back inside the pack house.I guess for now,I have to let her go.If this is our fate,I will go with it.But when the time comes that I finally find her and she is still the same Chassy that I knew,I will make sure to take her back.She's mine,to begin with.

I entered my office and sat in my chair.I leaned back and tried to relax.I had been thinking about her for two weeks.Yes,it was still a very short time,but it feels like an eternity to me.I closed my eyes and remembered why I had to do what I did to her.

***Flashback***

Xander!Jack shouted.We were at school for the future high-ranking officials of the pack,like alphas,betas,and gammas.Congratulations to us!he added.I smiled at him while Limuel was shaking his head.Among us three,he was mediocre.Though he didn't want to admit it,

We graduated,and next week is your 18th birthday.Surely you're very excited to find out who your mate is,Limuel said.

That was already a given,I replied.Every wolf was excited about finding its mate.Especially someone like me.As the future alpha of the Red Moon Pack,I need to provide an heir for the future of our pack.Though it wasn't only because of that that I was eager to find her,having a mate or someone who will take care of,understand,and love me is the moon goddess'gift to me.

So,are we going to go back to the pack or are you going to stay here for your birthday and party?Jack asked.We are still in the High-Rank Academy,and my father expects me to come back in two weeks,so I might just stay here since I am looking for my mate as well.

Why do you need to ask that?It was Limuel.Of course,we will be staying here,he added,and we all laughed.

Yeah,once we get back to the pack,we will be working our asses really hard.We had to show them how much we learned and put them into action.I said,

Yes,Alpha!they both exclaimed with a salute,then we laughed again.

It was natural for me to attract women because not to brag,I had this pretty face and good body that women would want to have in bed.But that's all.For me,they were just a fling.A one-time fu**-ner in bed to pass the time.No strings attached because,in the end,I will still choose my mate no matter what.

To make a long story short,we stayed in the academy's dorm for another two weeks,hoping we,especially me,would find our mates,but we failed.We party and fu**women every night,and we had so much fun.I don't know what will happen when we get back to our pack.Dad was so strict,and I was worried that he would make me assume his title.

I'm only 18;although I already know my responsibility,I am still young.But my father,the alpha of the Red Moon Pack,will surely make me start doing alpha duties to train me

Compared to humans of the same age,I looked more mature.Even with responsibilities,I can say that we wolves are more responsible than them.We were taught to become one at a young age,especially when our family belonged to a ranked official of the pack.There were those who were childish;I can't deny that.They were the ones who thought they had more privilege than anyone else.

Hey,man.It's time,Limuel said.Behind him was Jack,grinning.He looks stupid when he does that,and yes,it's time to go home.I nodded my head and took my bags before I followed them.

Although we enjoyed being at the academy,we can't deny that we missed the pack.Truly,there's no place like home.Keep in mind that you are the leader,the father of the entire pack,and every member is looking up to you and relying on you,Dad said.We have been back for a month now,and just as I thought,as soon as we arrived,Dad started making me do his duties.

I know,Dad,I replied.

It's not enough that you just know.You have to put it in your heart so you will be able to serve wholeheartedly,he nagged,so I just had my head down.Anyway,you haven't found your mate yet?he asked.

No,I answered.

Do you think you need to go to different packs?he asked.

Well,that could help too.

Then,I am going to arrange a pack visit for you as my representative.Bring Limuel and Jack.I agreed,and he let me leave his office.

We went to the Silver Moon Pack.It was a meeting for a possible alliance,and I saw how shocked the alpha was when he saw us.Maybe he thought that we were just kids,but he still welcomed us and introduced us to his ranked officials.

Everything was good on our first day.We decided to schedule the meeting for the next day,and the alpha toured us around,showing us how beautiful his pack was.We were amazed at its beauty.His Luna is very welcoming,but I can tell that she's human.I later found out that she was also the reason why the pack was prosperous.

They wanted alliances because they were weak.A lot of the pack members are non-combatants,and they accept rogues who want to have a home.They are good.The alpha and the Luna are simple and not power-hungry

Night fell,enveloping everything in a quiet and peaceful atmosphere.Limuel and Jack joined me in my bedroom,engaging in a conversation about various matters.Suddenly,we heard howling.Startled,we exchanged glances and hurriedly rushed outside.

What are you three doing here?Get inside the pack house,now!the beta shouted,but we disregarded his warning and proceeded to follow them into the fray.

It turned out to be a rogue attack,and I suspected there was someone orchestrating it.Rogues wouldn't organize themselves solely for a random assault on a pack.Despite the presence of an alpha,they would inevitably face defeat.Engaged in the battle,we were unaware that it was merely a diversion.

Meanwhile,Luna and the gamma were on their way back to the pack when they were ambushed on the road.Witnessing the alpha in pain,we were relieved to see his beta defending him.Without that protection,the alpha might not have survived,immobilized as the rogue prepared to strike.

Then,as if nothing had happened,the rogues left.It was very tragic for the pack.Though we were there and managed to contain the situation,we couldn't do anything for their Luna.That incident made me promise to make my pack strong and formidable so that no rogue or pack would think of coming and attacking us to harm everyone in my pack,especially my mate.No way,there's no way that I am going to let anyone hurt my mate and my Luna.

After a week,we went back to our pack.Everything was settled in the Silver Moon Pack,but it wasn't the same anymore now that their Luna was gone.I reported it to my father,and the alliance that we were supposed to talk about was canceled.We couldn't talk to their alpha,so the beta and gamma requested to schedule it.

Even if it was like that,I gave them my word that no matter what happened,they could come and ask for help in our pack.The beta thanked us,and we left.

I learned a lot in the Silver Moon Pack.Being a wealthy pack is good.They managed to provide for everyone,and,most importantly,the pack had to be strong.So I suggested to my father that we need to train everyone who wants to train.Young or old,men or women,he agreed,and he looked proud of me.

The incident in the Silver Moon Pack has been on my mind for two straight months,so I decided to unwind.I walked around the pack and met the pack members.On my way back to the pack house,I caught a distinct scent.It was the most intoxicating fragrance I had ever experienced—honey and vanilla.How sweet could she be?Intrigued,I followed the scent,only to be disappointed.What the fu**?I discovered a child by the back door of the house,crying.

Why am I mated to a child?Why are you crying?I couldn't help but ask.She looked up,and,goddess,she was the most beautiful creature I had ever seen.

Nothing,she replied as she wiped away her tears,something I wished I could do for her.

Stop crying;I don't want to see you cry.Is that clear?I told her,and she nodded.How old are you?I asked,curious about how long I would have to wait for her.

11,she replied,fu**me.7 years,I had to wait 7 fu****g years to have her.

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Get inside and don't cry,I told her,and then I left.I had to because she was still young,and I didn't know what I would do if I were going to stay beside her.

On my way to the pack house,I thought about it,and I was still happy that I had finally found my very young mate.But I had to keep it to myself;I didn't want to scare her.The way I looked at her earlier,she's fragile.

Then I waited silently.I told Limuel and Jack about it,and they laughed at me but were still very happy for me.They even teased me about no fun for the next 7 years.It's fine;I can't imagine how sweet it could be when the time comes.

But after a year,I had a dream.In that dream,the woman who happens to be the moon goddess wanted me to neglect my mate until she was ready if I wanted to be by her side when fighting in a war.I don't know what that means.But I was not asked to reject her,only to neglect her,meaning she's still going to be mine in the end.

***End of Flashback***

Chapter 8

Chassy

Chas,you have to listen and pay attention,Daddy Jay said.He legally adopted me,and now he is my father.Can you believe that?I already have a father,and he loves me like his own.I never felt so happy in my life until the day they found me.I remember it clearly.

We arrived at the Silver Moon Pack,and I could see that everyone was looking at us.They all greeted their leaders with curious eyes on me.Don't worry,I am going to introduce her to you later.And no,it's not who you think she is.She's not my mate,Daddy Jay said,and my eyes widened.He looked at me and smiled.Don't think about them too much.They just wanted me to find my second-chance mate,he told me,and I nodded my head,realizing that he had already lost his mate.

We entered the pack house,and I was amazed at the beauty before me.It was so modern,from the chandeliers,portraits hanging on the walls,and furniture.It screamed wealth.He sent me to my room and reminded me to clean up.An omega came to see me and handed me clothes that were all new.I chuckled at the thought that my pack had never once given me anything to wear,but this new pack that I am in right now gave me a new one.I am not even a pack member.

Chastity!Daddy Jay shouted,making me startled.You're zoning out again.Do you want to learn or what?he asked.He was pissed,and I liked it because I felt that he cared for me.His anger was different from my mother's.Though he shouted at me,I could still feel the love of a father.Unlike my mother,who gave me the feeling of being unwanted.I don't know why it was different,though,when in fact,they both shouted at me.

I'm so sorry,Dad.I just remember the first time I came here...I told him.

It's been six months;why are you still thinking about that?he asked.

I just couldn't believe that,because of your dream,you went to the stream,I replied.He told me when I woke up that day that it was because he dreamed of the moon goddess,and I told him to go to that particular stream.

Sometimes the moon goddess tells us what she wants to say through our dreams.Of course,she can't be seen or talk to us in our world,so it must be through our dreams that she finds a way to communicate with us,he said.

Then,did she tell you to take me with you?I asked,and he chuckled.

You're like a child.How many times do I need to tell you that she didn't?I just thought that she made me go there to save you.he answered.And yes,he had been telling me about that many times over because I kept on asking.

Are you starting to get tired of answering my questions?

I will never get tired of you,my dear.He replied,and I smiled.

Then let's continue.I am motivated to learn now.I replied happily,and then he sighed.Who wouldn't,when we have been like this ever since I arrived in his pack?

I went back to school and took an exam for an advanced learning program since I stopped attending school when I was in the Red Moon Pack.It was a good thing that I was smart and studious,so I passed the test,and now I am attending the same class as my age.I'm into woodwork and carpentry,as well as being an auto mechanic.So,if there's something that needs to be fixed in the pack house or anywhere in the pack,they are free to call me,and I am going to fix it.

Daddy Jay is now teaching me how to become a Luna because he wanted to appoint me.I didn't want to at first because I knew that other pack members were worth becoming one.But Beta Simon and Gamma Rick agreed,so I accepted it.But I never thought that there would be a lot of things that I needed to learn,so I am stuck with the lesson.

After 3 months,they decided to hold a Luna ceremony for me.If they asked me,I was not going to hold it.It's fine if I just become their Luna.But it was already a tradition and culture in every pack,and Daddy Jay never agreed with what I wanted.

I sent an invitation to the Red Moon Pack,and I was waiting for their reply,Beta Simon said.We were in the Alpha's office and were having a meeting about the ceremony.You know the Alpha of the Red Moon Pack?I asked curiously.Alpha Xander and his Beta and Gamma were here when we were attacked and lost our Luna.They were still very young at that time,but they helped us and fought the rogues.Many could have died that night if it wasn't for their help,Beta Simon answered,and everyone became gloomy because they remembered their very loving and caring Luna.It's one of the reasons why I didn't really want to become their Luna.It was hard for me to even get near her character.And I don't think I still have the time to think about the gap between me and the previous Luna.What if Xander attended the ceremony and found out that it was me?What is he going to do?No,what am I going to do?

Dear,are you alright?Daddy Jay asked,which made the other two father figures look at me as well.Nothing,Dad;I was just thinking that the Red Moon Pack must be busy since they were the strongest in the region.Don't worry too much.You are perfect for the title.All the pack members agreed to this,he replied,and I nodded.It is going to be my 19th birthday next month,and I don't know what will happen.After I rejected Xander,I didn't feel anything after that chest pain,so I think he had not accepted my rejection yet.I had been thinking about it because I had been reading about rejection as well,and everything that was written in our books about when he accepted it didn't happen to me.

Now that everything is clear about the ceremony,I want you to go to town with Sims and get your gown.The designer had been calling us to get it,but until now,you still didn't,Daddy Jay said.I already told my son about it,and he is ready to accompany our little Luna here,Beta Simon said,I'm sure that Allie will come to them as well,Gamma Rick added.I got up and was ready to leave the office when the phone rang.Gamma Rick answered it.Good afternoon,Alpha Xander,he said,which scared me.Is he going to attend the ceremony?No,this is not happening.

Chapter 9

Chassy

Alpha Xander is the last man I ever want to see in this lifetime.I started to panic when I heard our gamma mention his name.I don't know what I will do if he is ready to attend the ceremony.Everything that I worked hard for in this pack,though it was still for a few months,will only come to waste because I am sure that I am going to leave everything behind just to avoid him.

I'm scared of facing him.What if I feel that old feeling again?I had already rejected him;wasn't it only right not to feel anything towards him anymore?I understand,Alpha,I heard Gamma Rick say,and I saw him looking at Daddy Jay.Thank you for letting us know.Bye.Then he put down the phone.The Red Moon Pack won't be able to attend the ceremony.He asked me if it was OK to send a representative,but I told him that it's not necessary since I understand him,he told us.I sighed in relief after I heard that,so,with a smile on my face,I told them.

I'll go and see Sims and Allie.We'll get my gown in town.They all nodded,and I left the alpha's office.In the past months,study and training have been all