Beyond The Rainbow: Alpha

By Adin Alcatraz

Do you feel like nothing in your life ever works out? Do you ever feel like the life that you're living is not fulfilling you as much as you thought it would? In this first book of a trilogy series, you will begin to recognize the common patterns that are present within the LGBTQ+ lifestyle. Discovering these patterns and properly addressing them are what will transform you into becoming the person you are meant to be, help you sustain genuine, healthy relationships and lead you into a brighter future.

• Language: English
• Publisher: Adin Alcatraz
• Release date: May 8, 2023
• ISBN: 9798988358572

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Beyond The Rainbow: Alpha

Some names have been changed to protect people’s privacy.

Copyright © 2023 by Adin J Alcatraz

All rights reserved. This book or any portion thereof may not be reproduced, distributed or transmitted in any form or by any means without the express written consent of the copyright holder, except in the case of brief quotations for the purpose of reviews and certain other noncommercial uses permitted by copyright law.

Cover art and design by Adin J Alcatraz

ISBN-13: 9798988358572

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Table of Contents

Chapter Zero………………………………………………………5

Out of the Closet..…..………………………………………….......7

Losing My V-CARD…………………………………………….....9

Rainbow Stripes…………………………………………………..11

Gender Dysphoria………………………………………………...13

Our Nature……………………………………………………….17

Irrevocable Decision…………………………………………........19

Nature…………………………………………………………….21

Voicemail…………………………………………………………24

Perfect Illusion……………………………………………………25

Turn Off Autopilot……………………………………………….26

A Collector’s Heart……………………………………………......27

Soul Window……………………………………………………...29

Deceived by the Wrapping………………………………………..30

Overruled………………………………………………………....31

Nocturnal……………………………………………………….....33

One Last Time………………………………………………….....34

Teenage Dream & Forever Love………………………………….35

Linked Heart………………………………………………………38

Switch Out………………………………………………………...40

Rainbow Costume…………………………………………………41

LGBTQ + Death………………………………………………......43

Mind Construction…………………………………………………45

Trance……………………………………………………………...47

False Labels………………………………………………………...49

Rainbow  Family…………………………………………………....51

Delusional……………………………………………………..........53

Reactance…………………………………………………………...56

Chapter zero

Every picture has its story. People can say it can speak a thousand words. My life is a picture puzzle.

It's incomplete because some pieces haven’t been found yet. Not only are the pieces scattered, some are missing. The thieves of this world don’t want you to assemble your puzzle so they’ll steal them away from you and/or blind you from them.

Not only is it hard enough knowing that you have enemies, it's even worse when you become your own worst enemy. The self can be your biggest enemy because you can trick or lie to yourself into trying to fit pieces from the wrong puzzle into yours. Self-deception. Not only could you be deceived by others, you could even deceive your own self.

This can lead to the most perilous, saddest circumstances of your life. Why? Because if this cycle continues and never ends, then you’ll never come near to solving your puzzle. You’ll never discover the joy of being truly complete and seeing the real meaning of the picture’s story. You’ll never come to what you were meant to be. How could you become what you’re meant to be with the wrong pieces?

All you’ll see is a sad mixture of incorrect pieces that are scattered and that clearly don’t even fit together. All you’ll see is meaningless scraps that didn’t amount to anything. A waste of time and people won’t bother to figure out your puzzle.

Now, you may ask Well, why does it matter if people can figure me out or not? The reason it matters is that you could have been the beautiful picture they needed to guide them towards finishing their own puzzle.

Of course, we’re all different and we are not to be replicas of each other. But if your picture is of Italy, would you want a puzzle piece of Brazil? So if you are a completed piece you can help someone else complete their piece.

We are all connected to one another. We are all a part of a grand design, big-picture puzzle. We were meant to be all enjoined together as one. How can you be part of the completion if you are lost?

Sadly, if that is your fate, then you’re just the puzzle piece that was added at the last minute because there were no other pieces left. The puzzle was pretty much done without you. All you did was fill in the empty parts. Or even worse, when the puzzle piece is already completed without you.

Do you really want that for yourself? Do you hate your own self that much? Why? How do you think you could heal from that? Do you have a remedy?

If you do… Are you willing to accept and receive it? Why keep rejecting what’s good and keep taking in what’s bad? Why self-destruct? Do you realize that when you explode, there’s this thing called collateral damage? And do you think that you’re not going to pay for that?

I’ve learned that one of the worst things in life is to be naïve; you always end up losing. So it is only up to you to take the right step in the right direction, but you need to want it bad enough. If you don’t, then you’ll stay in the same place until the ground beneath you turns into quicksand and ultimately swallows you up with no