The Resurrection of S.E.L.L.F.: An Autobiography Told From the Consciousness

By Terrell Bowser

This book is a walk through the author's life as he searches for his identity. This spiritual testimony shares how all the trials and tribulations he faced helped him fulfill his purpose. Anyone facing internal battles will find this book exciting, helpful, and thought-provoking. The author hopes that his story hits home with any readers seeking to work on their wellbeing and become the best version of themselves.

• Language: English
• Publisher: BookBaby
• Release date: Mar 20, 2023
• ISBN: 9781667888286

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The Resurrection of S.E.L.L.F.

An Autobiography Told From the Consciousness

©2023 Terrell Bowser

All rights reserved. This book or any portion thereof may not be reproduced or used in any manner whatsoever without the express written permission of the publisher except for the use of brief quotations in a book review.

print ISBN: 978-1-66788-827-9

ebook ISBN: 978-1-66788-828-6

Contents

DISCLAIMER

ACKNOWLEDGEMENTS

PREFACE

Part 1: SELF

CHAPTER 1: FROM THE NORTHSIDE

CHAPTER 2: TO THE SOUTHSIDE

CHAPTER 3: ILL STREET NEWZ

PART 2: DOPEBOY T

CHAPTER 4: HITTIN THE GROUNG RUNNING

CHAPTER 5: UnNATURAL FLOW OF THINGS

CHAPTER 6: UNEASY BEING BREEZY

CHAPTER 7: CONCRETE BRUSH FIRE

PART 3: ALCOHOLIC DUBB

CHAPTER 8: IT’S THE PHYSICALITIES FOR ME

CHAPTER 9: BOTTOMLESS CUP

CHAPTER 10: VAPOR LOCK

CHAPTER 11: THE SWITCH

PART 4: S.E.L.L.F.

CHAPTER 12: SAFE

CHAPTER 13: CREATIVE JUICES

CHAPTER 14: LIFTING THE WEIGHT OFF MY SHOULDERS

CHAPTER 15: THE JOY OF BEING LOVED

CHAPTER 16: WHAT DID HE SAY???

CHAPTER 17: SERVICE CONNECTED

CHAPTER 18: IF YOU KNOW YOU KNOW (IYKYK)

CONCLUSION

BIBLIOGRAPHY

DISCLAIMER

The information in this book is for entertainment and educational purposes only. No certainties of and kind are implied. All readers of this book understand and acknowledge that the author is not giving any type of advice professionally, legally, financially, and/or medically. Please seek professional help when altering your life. All readers agree that the author of this book is not responsible directly or indirectly for any loss attained because of the information in this literature, including, but not limited to errors, omissions, or inaccuracies.

ACKNOWLEDGEMENTS

First, I would like to thank the creator for enlightening me, guiding me, and showing me exactly who I am. I want to thank all my ancestors that came before me for mapping and engineering the structure of my DEA(DNA) giving me an infinite amount of knowledge and wisdom to explore. I want to thank my loving wife for being present in my life and showing up every day with fight and love even when there seemed to be no fight left. For being the balance that I couldn’t see in myself. For putting our family first regardless of my actions and having the strength to carry us both when I was too weak to carry myself. I want to thank all my children for loving a father that didn’t always know how to show that love back and for keeping me motivated. I want to thank my mom for always having my back and loving me through all of her pain and mines and being the example of unconditional love even when I couldn’t see it. I want to thank my brothers for being by my side loving me, molding me, and always having my best interest at heart no matter how it was conveyed. I want to thank my dad for being the person he has always been throughout my life and the life lessons he taught me. I want to thank all my family members who has had a direct impact on my life, without you all getting me through times when I felt I had lost everything I am forever grateful. To all my close friends that I had the pleasure of growing up with either in childhood or adulthood I truly appreciate all the love, guidance, and support you gave me, that to me was unmatched and the biggest gift someone could ever receive. I want to thank all the god and goddess that has had an impact in my life from the subtle words of books, to the vigorous videos of enlightened messages, to the creative arts of materials, to the majestical healing instructions, and the consistency of being your true selves and committed to your own spiritual journey which led us to cross paths! THANK YOU ALL!!! Ase

PREFACE

Just like all things, you have a beginning and an end, so it is said! Before I had arrived in this realm, I had agreed to a contract to come an experience life in the physical. Part of the agreement was once I arrived here, I would have a severe case of amnesia. Being born in this world without a clue as to who I was and where I had come from left my mind completely vulnerable to the manipulation of this egotistical unbalanced arena, I found myself in. In the infant stages of my life, I was full of love, aspiration, and imagination. As a young child the possibilities was endless. Imagination had no bounds enabling me to dream beyond the stars. No matter what I wanted to be, who I wanted to be, goals I wanted to achieve it was all possible. Being free at heart and full of imagination gave me a love for all things because I knew that everything was connected. All vegetation needed water, sunlight, wind, and the earth to grow in to what it was intended to be by nature. The same principle applied to me. Imagine a summer day in the country after the awakening hour were all you can hear is the subtle language of nature in the cool breeze as it flows across you skin, the sound of water heading down stream cleansing itself by filtering though rocks and crystals, your bare feet feeling the vibrations from the earth, the smell of natural fragrance coming from the nearby flowers, and the energy from the sun feeding the body like comfort food. That was how I felt before the world as we know it got ahold of me. Once that happened, everything that I just describe became inner city blues. The very air that I breathed was polluted, the water filled with dirt and crud, the energy from the sun blocked and diluted, and the noise never ceased. With all of this going on it was very hard for me to remember what that feeling was like, let alone remember who I was. The next eighteen chapters of this book is my autobiography from my mental point of view. Being able to look back and understand things about me with clear and concise clarity of my mind, I was able to share with the world what it meant to get back to that mindset of pure love. During this book I will touch on certain physical aspects of my life in order to get the main point across which is being consciously aware of what was taking place, the evolution of my mind to the involution of my consciousness. Working on myself was not an easy task to do, a lot of which has to do with confronting myself and realizing the root cause of why I was the way that I was and how to fix it. The emotional roller coaster that I went on was full of twist, turns, and drops that took the life from me at moments. Coming all the way back to the beginning I realized that when one thing ends another start which goes to the saying that energy is neither created or destroyed it just switches form. Everything in this book is not to say this will or has happened to everyone, this is merely just a tool to use and see if anything resonates within you. I have been divinely gifted the ability to be a living example and show others how to remember who they are and what their purpose is here in this realm. It took some time for me to really innerstand who I was and what my purpose is. Through my actions is how others will see my internal light in the physical plane. This book is just one of the many tools I’ve been equipped with to fulfill my purpose. During this collective awakening some will be teachers, some will be warriors, some will be guides, and some will be healers, in my case examples (showers), all part of the collective push to mend what has been broken for some time now. Forty plus years on the planet is what it took before I tapped into my spirit which got me to this point. Those years was not easy and neither is being awakened. It was inevitable for this to come to past. All my life my gifts and purpose would be present I just didn’t know how to recognize it or channel it in the right direction because of the indoctrination of this worldly society of looking outside of myself for all the answers. Every question I needed answers to was revealed to me in due time the more I spent navigating myself. I spent a lot of years running around like a character in a movie not once thinking I was fictional. Knowing how fictional I am, I overstand why I’ve always been drawn to the what is called science fiction. Science is the pursuit and understanding of the natural world and fiction is literature created from the imagination. This means that sci-fi (Sy-Fy) is the study of imagination in its natural state. Removing the imagination and implanting logic created the box we all live in currently in this world. Remember as a child you had imaginary friends, could talk to animals and nature, see spirits, that was because the mind was free to imagination. The origin of the word imagination is to picture oneself. Seeing yourself in everything lets you know that all is connected, everything that makes up the universe makes up us, we are source. Many are called and fewer