Deep Within...: A Daily Devotional for Those Experiencing or Coming Out of Covert Narcissistic Abuse

By Morgan Worthington

In the aftermath of her divorce from a covert narcissist, the author realized that there were two components to what she experienced: the intellectual, and the spiritual. While intellectual awareness provided understanding, healing came through submission and surrender to Jesus.

The reason why the Word of God is called the Sword of the Spirit is that it is the weapon that destroys evil in the spiritual realm. You also can move from understanding the traits and characteristics of covert narcissists to becoming strong and victorious in Christ.

Jesus wants you. He wants you to find peace in His presence. He wants to restore you, heal you, and bless you more than you can ever fathom. Give Him permission, and use His Word.

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• Language: English
• Publisher: Christian Faith Publishing, Inc.
• Release date: Apr 14, 2022
• ISBN: 9781639615339

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Deep Within…

A Daily Devotional for Those Experiencing or Coming Out of Covert Narcissistic Abuse

How to make it through, come out on the other side, and move on from victim to victory!

Morgan Worthington

ISBN 978-1-63961-532-2 (paperback)

ISBN 978-1-63961-533-9 (digital)

Copyright © 2022 by Morgan Worthington

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Foreword

The goal of this book is to provide the reader with some of the most common covert narcissistic symptoms and to provide God’s thoughts about those symptoms.

It’s been years since the covert narcissist in my life spoke to me. I am now at a place where the Lord is blessing me, restoring what the locust ate, and drawing me into a closer, deeper relationship with Him.

It wasn’t easy. There was much pain and soul-searching during the process. First, I had to acknowledge that I didn’t do a very good job living my life on my own and putting my happiness before Jesus. Secondly, I had to humble myself before God and admit that I needed to seek Him.

After I moved out of our house, and while waiting for the divorce to settle, there were times when I was so brokenhearted that I didn’t know what to think or feel, that I would simply say the name of Jesus out loud, over and over for fifteen to forty-five minutes at a time. I started listening to YouTube videos from Full Stature Ministries, which taught me that the verses about Jesus being with me always were verses about the Holy Spirit living in me. I didn’t have to invite the Holy Spirit to come in; He was already there. I just had to start allowing Him more of me. I started filling my mind and heart with the Word of God. I listened to Scripture read out loud on YouTube when I lay down to sleep.

I gave God permission to change me; to be in charge of my life; and to be the Lord of all my dreams, plans, goals, and desires. Not wanting to remain a victim, I gave Him permission to bless me, prosper me, heal whatever it was in me that drew me repeatedly to this type of situation, and deliver me from any spirits that had attached themselves to me through trauma and pain. I realized that loneliness is a spirit, and it is not a spirit that is subject to Jesus. Jesus is always with me, as He has promised, and I am not lonely anymore.

When I wake up in the morning, I speak out loud and give Him permission to be Lord over the day, my thoughts, feelings, expectations, relationships, finances, activities, body, soul, and spirit. I verbally resist the devil in all of these areas and then command him to flee in the name of Jesus, report to the Throne, and be redirected as Jesus deems fit. I then invite the Holy Spirit into all my situations.

The significant financial loss that was incurred during the divorce (after fourteen months of marriage), I count as my ransom—and I am worth it. My case is on appeal in the heavenly court, and my loving Judge represents me. He will plead my case. (Read From the Courtroom of Heaven to the Throne of Grace and Mercy by Jeanine Strauss.)

Jesus Christ has become my dearest friend and love. When I start having soul tie thoughts, I tell the Lord that I am thinking those thoughts, and if He wants me to keep thinking about them, I will; but if He doesn’t want me to think about them, He has my permission to change them. Many, many times, fifteen to twenty minutes later, I realize that my thoughts have changed to other subjects.

I’m learning to truly give my cares to Him. I returned after a trip where I had rented a car. The car couldn’t be found in the system after I had returned it, and my credit card was being charged a nonreturn charge. Normally, I would freak out quietly, experience great frustration, and start trying to fix things. I did what was requested of me to resolve the situation, but I told the Lord, "I can’t do this one. I’m not even in the same geographical area. You