Altschmerz
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A powerful exploration of the human experience through a series of personal and intimate reflections to freshen your perspective.
Altschmerz takes you on a journey through the depths of pain and despair that many of us encounter in our lives. The lingering anxiety that grips your soul, the feeling of paralysis that leaves you with no new options to consider - this is what the author calls "old pain."
Through a series of personal and intimate reflections, you will come to understand how to deal with difficult emotions and experiences that have long been buried in your psyche. From the ups and downs of domestic relationships, to the scars of childhood trauma, from the courage required to stand up to fear and abuse, to the strength needed to overcome obstacles and find true self-worth, Altschmerz is a powerful exploration of the human experience.
This is a book for anyone who has ever felt trapped in anxiety or fear, and who needs a fresh perspective on life to get through the tough times. Whether you are struggling with emotional pain or simply need inspiration and guidance towards a brighter future, Altschmerz offers a vision of hope and possibility that will stay with you long after its pages have been turned.
Javier Rhoden
This was the introduction to my spirituality and learning how to do things for myself. The extension of help I gift to others could only come from the capacity in how I’ve helped myself. It was then, I understood that as a human, experiences were needed for growth and this growth can only sprout from branching out of my comfort zone. At the end of it all, I wanted to build something more meaningful by planting seeds from the darkness of life, to watch it grow and spread among different people, thus generating light. I’ve come to terms with the fact that I will die one day and in no way, would I want there to be any regret for making the same decisions the masses believed to be the right ones, meanwhile neglecting my gift as the last choice. After all, the goal in this life, my life, is to express this consciousness healthily.
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Altschmerz - Javier Rhoden
weariness comes
with old persistent issues
when you’ve always felt
the same tiresome flaws
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anxiety torments you for years
leaving a saturation in tastelessness
you remain paralyzed
without new perspectives to ponder
with nothing left to do
but disgorge them from inner oblivion
only to wander off
to the backyard of corpses
ready to dig up the pain
in preservation from being buried
long ago
altschmerz is a compound noun
meaning old pain
also by Javier Rhoden
Luminescence
Lamentations
concepts
egg...................................................................................5
caterpillar.......................................................................43
chrysalis.........................................................................81
butterfly.......................................................................106
synopsis
in childhood, tribulations formed chrysalides
to reinforce development in character
evolution through those ages
taught how to scatter scabs, like eggs
from beaded flesh, so in adaptation to darkness
metamorphosis would occur
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scars navigated emotions like spiritual compasses
artful compositions were collapses in fear
by flesh out of inner silences to move on from the past
experiences illustrated imagination like canvases
in allowance of pens to unfurl in vastness
breaths out-distanced inches to lengthened ink
in travels among fields of pages to splotch like brush strokes
as touch up to portraits of a better you
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collectively, we don’t have to live in absence of ourselves
art communities thrived in openness of itself
with information to become versed in
by feeding the heart virtuousness
kindness manufactured softness as insecurities lessened
mistakes transfused to synonyms with lessons, this
a widespread of depth to keep you in flight
beyond skylines of existence
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childbirth was a rooting
grounding developed from learning
to learn, was living in utilization
of responsibilities like diaries
to mindfully elevate away from a self
you never examined
levitation resulted from maturation in free spiritedness
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come adulthood, time will reveal what mattered most
upon calling to collect its debt, a certain death
either in wisdom, or you had none
we possess no weather controls for gloomy seasons
but you can regain solidity within yourself
to ensure emergence
domestication.
in flutters of lashes
scripts were recited which no one deciphered
wrinkles of life imprinted youth
floor space beneath eyes resembled depressions
from debilitated moons
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dear journal:
through sleepless nights
father outmatched quarrels against a battered softness
this snapped to a heated separation
breaths were scorched in distortion
with reddened insecurities and other colored wires for detonation
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note to mother:
ravaged by backsides of leathered rawness
impersonated hues of refractions, which proved
innocence stood in wetness from storms of sin
defiance against tones of handsomeness
resulted in endless scrubs of skin
brownness transited to dirtiness
where blood settled in as discipline
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lesions healed darker in cloaks of mobile dark matter
sweaters of anxiety muffled screams from open flesh
to prevent confessions in curious gazes
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dear youth:
though sadness was witnessed in starless night fall
other children with ruptured faith, erupted tears
emotional cycles fell as side effects from environments
observation was mental stimulation in awareness, oh
how eyes gave insights to unspoken dispositions
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note to bisected bond:
subjection were signatures of parents on certificates of birth
with no information