Metamorphosis : from Mental Illness to Spiritual Awakening
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John's latest volume of poetry, Metamorphosis, explores his transformation from an individual suffering with a serious mental illness to an earnest seeker of spiritual fulfillment. The three hundred, eight line poems are deeply personal and authentic to his experience. They reveal insights, experiences and beliefs core to his mental health and spiritual development.
John Frederick Zurn
John Frederick Zurn is a published author of novels, short stories, plays and poetry. He spent his career as an English teacher at traditional schools and as an instructor at developmental training centers, teaching employment readiness skills to mentally challenged teenagers and adults. Now retired, John continues writing and publishing. As an artist and spiritual seeker, he explores the varied promptings of the human spirit. John lives in Illinois with his wife, Donna.
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Metamorphosis - John Frederick Zurn
ebooks by John Frederick Zurn
Sojourners through Time
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The End Justifies the Pain : Writings About Mental Health
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What’s Inside
Section I: Purgatory
Describes my daunting challenges with specific bipolar disorder symptoms and their effect on my life and relationships. It reflects my mental health issues together with my search for meaning and purpose for my then fragmented life. 142 poems
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Section II: Spiritual Awakening
Expresses some of my spiritual ideas, feelings, and experiences that gradually replaced my delusional thoughts and extreme moods leading to my transformation from mental illness and despair to emotional maturity and spiritual awareness. 125 poems
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Section III: Society
Expresses some of my observations about our societal attitudes, values and beliefs. 32 poems
Introduction
This latest volume, Metamorphosis, explores my transformation from an individual suffering with a serious mental illness to an earnest seeker of spiritual fulfillment. The three hundred, eight line poems are deeply personal and authentic to my experience. They reveal insights, experiences and beliefs core to my mental health and spiritual development.
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The most important reason for including mental illness and spirituality in the same volume of poetry centers on the way they overlap, like a Venn diagram. There exists a significant relationship between them.
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When I was ill, I had a deep need to discover a closer relationship with God. In psychological terms thus was often labeled as religiosity
because the need for God became so tangled up with my symptoms that they seemed to be all part of the illness itself. However, this deep need for spiritual experiences with the Divine couldn’t be ignored because it never truly disappeared. So, during my year of struggling with mental illness and in my intensive spiritual search, the need of God became a permanent theme that was simply distorted by my symptomatic thoughts and behavior.
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Although on rare occasions these mental states did manifest genuine spiritual awareness, my mental illness - described in my poems - reveals specific problems with delusions and deeply rooted mood swings. For example, events that occurred on television or in my environment were falsely linked with my own life. Because these experiences happened simultaneously, I considered them to be highly significant. If I read about an organization that was founded on my birthday, I believed the organization was personally relevant to me. If I observed a license plate with my initials, I would assume I was on the right track
in following my delusional path. In addition, if I walked into a bar and heard a random song, I’d assume the meaning of the song, again, told me my delusional path was proceeding according to plan.
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Nevertheless, since occasional spiritual experiences did manifest, I mistakenly generalized these moments into all other area of my life. For example, if I heard a word of knowledge,
I would assume this phrase applied to everything and everyone I encountered. If I read a Biblical passage at random, I would make it fit all of my circumstances as well. I detail many of these experiences in my book The End Justifies the Pain.
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Perhaps, one of the most important ways in which I gradually learned to discern the difference between symptoms of mental illness and genuine spirituality was through writing. No matter what hospital, institution or halfway house I was in, I nearly always was given a pencil and paper. This allowed me to gradually work through my delusional thinking and stressful moods, by slow degrees, until ideas gradually became more intelligible. This process of self-discovery can be read in my book, Metamorphosis. Since my spiritual journey continued to be inextricably linked to my mental illness, writing granularly helped me find closure and transformed my states of mind. Then, my spiritual search progressed more smoothly and safely.
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To suggest that I didn’t need help from countless mental health professionals would be disingenuous. To describe my interactions with these professionals as obstacles would also be false. That was not generally my experience. My poems express several of these interactions with mental health professionals as well as my relationships with my fellow sojourners. In addition, I continually made mistakes and, at times, I was my own worst enemy. It was only when I hit rock bottom
that all the help from others had a cumulative effect.
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One of my main purposes in writing this book, Metamorphosis, is to express my thoughts and feelings as they helped me to understand my illness and explore deeper levels of spiritual awareness. This process has created a kind of inner road map of my journey as it relates to mental illness and recovery. Since both humility and perseverance are required for recovery and spirituality, they have much more in common than might be readily apparent.
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The book contains three hundred poems of eight lines each with an alternating rhyme scheme. This shorter