Prophetic Poems
By Vonce Dajour
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Told through poetry alone, South Carolina Quarrels is the first book in the Prophetic Poems series, which revolves around the life of the author from the emotional perspective of a poet's mind. Forced into the military and trained to be a sailor, the poems start when the author gets stationed in South Carolina in one of the most rigorous academi
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Prophetic Poems - Vonce Dajour
Part One—
Home → South Carolina
Origins
This first poem is about
That time when my heart was filled with doubt.
The dreadful and anxious wait
Of struggling against an unknown fate.
To give you some background on me,
I’ll tell of my life and family
Before I left for the military.
Way back home,
I was always alone.
It was a home that was broken.
Much was left unspoken.
Never a moment of peace,
No, the pain and suffering never did cease.
Always yelling and arguing
A household of utter sin.
It was Hell on Earth. Degraded worth
Was all that I learned
Though for a real family I yearned.
My father and mother were always at war
And school was certainly a bore
But also awful for someone like me
Who grew up so restricted by their family.
A family that didn’t allow them to have friends
So their social life came to an end
Before it could even begin,
By the fourth grade of school
Because he could never be cool.
He didn’t know how to talk or interact with others
Due to the bubble made by his father and mother.
No, he was an outcast by birth
Born into a family that would give him zero worth.
So, here I am, trying to make worth of my own
Creating my own empire from a broken home
Always and forever alone.
Until eighteen, I wasn’t a person at all
But as an adult the wall
That my parents had made began to fall
For I had grown tall
With independence and liberty,
They would no longer shackle me.
But remnants of what they did cling to me
And I can’t escape my family.
And now I’m stuck in the military.
Even if I became a ghost
I’d still be the unholy host
To the monster and demons they made in my heart
No matter how much I try to part
Ways with them,
There is no end.
I could keep going, but the poem would be too long,
A Hellish devilish song
If I were to cram my whole family life into this one
And so, this poem is already done.
Instead, the next two poems shall continue the tale
Leaving your mouth dry, bitter, and stale
As they tell separately about my father and mother,
My life as a son and a brother.
My father was the original villain of my life
But soon, it was both he and his wife
Who were ruining everything in sight
And against whom I’d have to fight.
My mother, though a sweet woman by birth
Had, by this time, gone down in emotional worth.
In her fight against my father, she
Became a villain also to me
Adding to the evil of our family.
Now, my family and I are somewhat close
Though my heart still holds
A lot of hatred toward my parents both,
My family life left behind like a ghost.
A thing of the past that still haunts me today
But it comes and goes away
From dark of night til bright of day.
Randomly some remnant of that curse
Will flare up and hurt.
Time has made me reconnect
Which I did not expect
But family is something that should be cherished,
For you never know when it will perish.
Forgive but never forget
And always be bitter and upset
Deep down inside but outside smile
Because you’ll only have them for a while.
Still, allow me to share some of the hate
So you can better relate
To me when I’m talking about my family life,
My tyrannical father and his cold cruel wife.
Father
We’ll start with my father because he
Was the first villain to me.
My mother came afterward in her fight against him
Which resulted in a flood of unstoppable sin.
He, by birth, by creation, is an evil being.
There is death in his very breathing.
We thought for so long that alcohol is why he was that way
But after so many a night and day
During the short time that he was sober
Our hopes were over.
Because we realized it was just his personality
The way he treated all people and me.
It wasn’t alcohol, his heart was just evil in its purity.
My father was a raging alcoholic man
Whose heart I could never understand.
He was a villainous tyrant who did not care
Did not love and did not share.
He was a hypocritical man and always lied.
So many times, we thought he had died.
Died of alcohol poisoning.
He was never good at listening.
He always twisted things to his will
And he struggles, always and still.
He will absolutely judge and criticize
Any person, no any being, alive.
No one can ever do anything right.
Everything is always a fight.
He believes himself the king of Earth
Entitled to all of it by his worth
Beyond anyone else alive
In fact, we should all strive
To be like him, he must think
As we all sink
Into expectations he set that are unreal.
I’ll never understand how he does feel.
He’s suicidal and depressed but will never admit it
And alcohol, well, he refuses to quit it.
It got so bad that he was a walking zombie
When he destroyed my family and me.
So close to death he always was.
His heart knows nothing of love.
Every breath he takes spreads more lies
With nothing but disapproval in his eyes.
He’s nothing but angry and aggressive.
When around him, everyone is stressing.
Not a moment of peace when he is around,
No, he would ruin an entire town
Just by living there.
He does not care.
The embodiment of evil, a hypocrite
An ugly indestructible zit
On the face of life.
He doesn’t deserve his kids or wife.
He thinks it’s unfair if it happens to him
But to someone else, it’s not a sin.
No, it’s entertainment when others suffer.
He truly changed and ruined my mother.
I wonder what life would have been
If she had taken me and left back then.
But she could never leave him, he made her dependent
On his finances and pension.
He is so stingy when it comes to money.
If you suffer, he finds it funny.
He’s so rude to people.
Sees no one as equal.
Never taught me anything like a father and son.
No that bond was done
Once I turned into a kid because he
Only likes babies and puppies then you see
He finds them a chore
If they’re able to talk they’re a bore
Because they have actual life problems
And he doesn’t want to solve ‘em.
You can never relax.
Always have to watch your back.
A braggart, he always boasts about his past
Every great thing he’s done should be a well known fact.
Denies anything negative ever said,
He has a thick arrogant selfish head.
He constantly seeks attention and validation
And there isn’t a hint of patience,
No everything is a rush or too slow
Hurry up, we must go.
He is controlling and a micromanager
And my one sister, he disowned her
For just merely being alive
Because around the time she was born his father died.
Everything turns into a fight,
But he believes that he is always and only right.
A tyrant, he forces everything upon others.
He never got over the death of his mother.
He practically raped my mother every weekend
And he admitted to cheating,
All he cares about is sex,
Never got over an ex
That was actually just his mistress.
He’s depressed that he’s alone
And now lives in a separate home
And that no one other than me stays
But he’s the one always pushing everyone away.
He is completely unable to understand
Why we all consider him not human,
So selfish and despicable is he,
The ruiner of the past, present, and future of my family.
Mother
I don’t think my mother will ever understand
What she’s done to my life as a human.
That wretched horrible woman is the worst.
She alone is my greatest curse
Along with my father, they both
Turned me into a hollow lifeless ghost.
My mother is worse, however, because she and I
Actually argued until one of us cried.
My father never argued with me, he always went through her
Or spoke behind my back, but I assure you, I heard.
He was alcoholically insane, that was his excuse
But when my mother made me want to wear noose
And she said awful things to me,
That was truth, reality
That she believed.
She can’t blame it on intoxication,
Only anger and frustration,
She meant all her exclamations.
Worthless son, and stupid bastard
Are some of the names from the disaster
Of a home I lived in
Because my birth was a tragic sin.
Social outcast, you have no friends.
Laughs at the idea of my life coming to an end.
Thinks it’s stupid and pathetic for me to say
That I almost took my life on more than one day.
Tells me I’m worth nothing
Then gets mad at me for not loving
My family and for being filled with rage.
But I kept a list, a single page
Once, long ago that had every insult my mother ever said
Though that list is also in my head.
Actually, she threw it away
Because she denied she would ever say
The things that I had written down
I shake my head and frown.
The fact that she tried to hide her sins
Then expects to be forgiven
Sickens me to the depth of my heart
Really, I truly wish to part
Ways with such horrid people
Who have no evil equals.
But I had a second copy, a digital one in fact
And it so unfortunately lacks
Everything that has been said to me,
Still, you’re about to see
A glimpse into my past.
Time has gone by so fast.
Spoken by my own mother, could you ever imagine
That something like this could happen?
She who birthed me and is supposed to love
Said such awful things to her own son.
A selfish bastard, rotten son.
A useless boy and son.
Redundant compared to the first one.
A failure and a disappointment.
I guess that I’ll never be missed.
You’re a lonely high schooler. Haven’t you been lonely enough?
That’s not even the worst of the stuff.
Worthless son. A failed member of society.
Thanks for saying that about me.
Immature taste of clothing and no sense of fashion.
Not sure why that was said or how it happened.
Except I do because I always dressed nice
And I got told more than twice
That I didn’t look like other boys my age
Oh, how it filled me with rage.
"A bum, that’s all you’ll ever be. Fuck your writing and poetry.
You’ll never find love writing for a living
Because you’ll never meet women
Who trust you to take care of them since all you do is write
And that’s a financially unstable life.
You’ll have no wife, no one will ever love you."
Well, mom, one could say that’s true
For you, since you’re all alone
Stuck as an almost single mother back home.
You’re an actual son of a bitch.
Guess that one’s just a classic.
A fucking liar, that’s all you are or will ever be.
That’s you and my father but not me.
I try my best to be patient and honest
But your hypocriticalness, I can’t stop it.
You’re just like your father, in fact you are him.
That would be an unforgivable sin.
You’re delusional, completely delusional and mentally ill.
All because I had a steadfast will
That refused to give up, and it doesn’t still.
You can go to Hell!
Very well,
I suppose that’s where I belong
Since I was already there, all along.
A bum full of regrets. You’ll carry them all to your death.
I’m not sure what she’d expect
If I told her that we all have regrets, some more than others
And that she wasn’t like other mothers.
She was really cruel, and she forgets this all
And to Hell, surely, she’ll fall.
Maybe I’ll be there too,
Because young me didn’t know if all of this was true.
After all, kids should believe what their parents say
But that isn’t true to this day
Because sometimes parents just don’t understand
Their kids as they change from a boy to a man
Or a girl to a woman or whatever they may be
And my mom certainly didn’t understand me.
And she may forget,
But I’m still upset.
My mother’s words when I was a child are not easily forgotten
And they are stored in my heart in the rotting
Little corner where all my memories from when I was kid
Like an infectious mold stay and live.
"You, your sisters, and your father are huge regrets
And this is not what I thought to expect
When I gave having a family a try again, I’m done.
You’re all worst than the first one."
Interesting, though her new family is far more
Successful than her first, though it’s not a war
Or a competition, but the kids of this new family
Are much better than the first, and that includes me.
And I’m not the most successful but compared to her other son
I am certainly number one.
That’s the ironic part: she’s the only common factor.
But to her, that doesn’t matter,
She could never be the cause of disaster.
But all her first three kids left
Because that woman is the embodiment of death.
She keeps saying that the kids or the father are the problem
And that she needs to stop them.
I wish she would open her eyes and see
That the issue isn’t my siblings, father, or me.
But that she is the one who ruined both families.
Six kids and she failed them all.
Now through life, we struggle and fall.
She claims to be a mother with maternal instincts
But into her cruelty we all sink.
She is the destroyer of all things good and pure,
Who turned my childhood into a constant war
Or arguments, yelling, cursing, tears,
Nightmares, anger, bitterness, and fears.
She is the root of all the chaos and screaming.
The reason why we ended up leaving.
Not just me, but all her kids hate their lives one way or another
All of us, with her as a mother.
Now then, let’s get back to what she would say
To me all through the night and day
To make me hate myself and my childhood
Unlike how a child should
Have to feel
But my childhood, in a sense, was not real.
"Piece of crap and piece of shit.
Fucking ridiculous,
Moronic, stupid, and an idiot.
Unsympathetic and just wishes to resist
Even though you’re just absolute shit.
Musical outcast, social outcast, always alone."
Oh my, what a lovely home To have grown up in
Thinking my birth was an awful sin.
And now, my mother only cares about me
Because she forced me into the military
And anything great about me she credits to them.
When will this ever end?
She gave birth to me and supposedly loves us all
But between us stands an indestructible wall
Of regrets and pain and hatred and rage
And it will always, always stay
There between us because of what she’s said and done
Only by birth, am I her son.
All I ever wanted was a mother who cared.
Who took care of me when I was scared
Or made a warm welcoming home
For whenever I felt truly alone.
A mother who accepted me and helped me out in life
And would approve of my future wife.
A woman who didn’t criticize and judge and degrade
But our relationship can’t be saved.
Because all she does is make me feel worthless.
My love, she hasn’t earned it.
It was there because I grew in her womb
But the household she raised was a solemn tomb
And so she pushed me away
And I won’t stay.
Because of her, my life has been tragic.
It would take pure magic
To make me love my mother with all my heart
And to put back together every part
Of it that she destroyed with her cruel coldness
And every word that she has spoken.
You get the point, right?
I could easily share with you every fight.
I could share of every time I cried
Or how I almost died
By my own hand because my life didn’t matter
But I found the falseness in the latter.
From these awful insults grew
The person I once knew
Who was me when I first left home
A hollow being and all alone.
The Wait
So, you just heard a little bit about
That time when my heart was filled with