Life on an Emotional High

By Therapy

Id describe this as my book of stimulation in poetry, with experiences of my life for both men and woman to enjoy. In this book I am divulging myself through poetry in a way different from others. Stretching your imagination of what you think poetry is while expressing myself on many different levels. At the same time Ill be giving you a hint at my experiences in conversations and thoughts with others. Just me riding the roller coaster of life screaming and hollering waving my hands and having a good time with writing. All of this while giving you secrets written in my poetry to leave you guessing and wondering, is this about her, her life, her relationships in love, life and marriage? Who was that about? Just making you wonder. So many thoughts in my writing that it will make you wonder about me, wonder about you and your life.

All of my writings are from my heart to my pen, with a modest amount of modification and a minuscule amount of proofreading, limited enough to keep my writings as real as possible. In writing straight from your pen its never perfect and sending my book to be professionally proofread I thought would make my thoughts too unreal, too commercial; take some of my personality or zest out of my book. I wanted my writings to be as if someone was really speaking through writing. Even if my grammar was terrible, it would be the real me. The corrections I have done are straight from spell check from my laptop giggle, now we all know how that could be, but I did it anyway.

Ive exposed me and my thoughts in a way that has allowed me to sky rocket to another level, to another me. Ive extended to you Theaology, THE STUDY OF THEA, Thea and the life experiences she has surrounded herself in, along with the joys of living to learn what life really was about and not the just the pretty picture we all want and or pretend it is. My painting of life is an explosion of time, painted in yellows and reds. Colors of laughter and smiles that are to abundant to count. Colors that allow me to stand in the wings of life and spilling it out to you in expression, thoughts and short stores of which will allow you to think twice about your life experiences and enjoy every single moment that god has extended to you.

Now what I am asking for from each one of you while reading my book is to enjoy my book with an open mind. Dont tear it down too much but read what I have to say and live in the joy of my development of it.

Let me explain briefly some of the chapters in this book. Chapter one is about loves hurts, joys and change that we all can relate to. In reading you will get a picture of what love and life is about, a picture of the happiness, the sadness, the ups and downs and the just plan sick and tired of love. My poetry will express this in every way I could imagine.

Poetry of love so deep you will need a shovel to recover from it, because it pulls you in and makes you shake your head to say Ive been there. In this chapter there is a poem written in the form of a short story called, An Un-produced Movie of Romance. It is a screen play rewind; yes thats how I am going to describe it. Its the perfect story for the question, where is this love going?

Chapter two, well Ive devoted this to the men, its my own unique message for them. My way of saying you are spectacular, even when we dont tell you, you shine. I speak in this chapter as if I am one of the boys. Ive removed that I am woman hear me roar attitude, and Ive learned that I couldnt roar without them as loud as I can now.

In this chapter I play with 2 words Ive created, do-luscious and flow. Read it youll see what I mean, nothing but fun thoughts. My other favorite poem is The Struggle; it has a part one and a part two. Some of the woman who read these 2 poems may find objection to what I have written. But I had to say what I thought a man would say or wanted to say. The Struggle, was written

• Language: English
• Publisher: Xlibris US
• Release date: May 24, 2007
• ISBN: 9781462840021

Therapy

Therapy resides in Chicago, IL; she’s a tantalizing sensual author that spills life right into your lap with her writings. She received an Associates of Science at Kennedy King College and completed her education at Chicago State University, majoring in Registered Nursing and Medical Records Administration. Therapy has been a member of the National History Women’s Project and National African American Insurance Association - Chicago Chapter since 2007, and The National Council of Negro Women since 2006. She’s the author of the book Life on an Emotional High that exploded on the scene in May 2007. Therapy is the owner of her own business, MyTherapy4U Creations a company specializing in greeting cards and event planning. She can be reached at her company website www.mytherapy4u.com , www.myspace.com/lifeonemotionalhigh.com or her email address [e-mail]

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Copyright © 2007 by Nathania Sledge (Therapy).

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Contents

Introduction

About Me

Chapter 1 Love’s Rollercoaster Ride

Chapter 2 This Age Game

Chapter 3 To The Men I extend to you my heart

Chapter 4 Growing up and sex

Chapter 5 Straight Sexuality Cautious read at Your Own Risk.

Chapter 6 Pieces of my mind

Chapter 7 Personal stuff

Chapter 8 Help! Depression

Chapter 9… One last thing.

Chapter 10 My Very Own Words w/ definitions

Dedication

I dedicate this book to my husband who gave me the time and the space to grow and understand who I really am. I dedicate this to the loved ones that were applauding me, making my ego bigger than the sun. I dedicate this book to my brother Limmie who in all his passing, allowed me to carry his spirit within me so that I could open up like a butterfly and help his spirit to soar in ways that he was not able too in his silences.

I dedicate this book to the quintessence of a particular man.

When you align your personality with your soul that’s when you become the most powerful person you can be.

Gary Zukav

Introduction

I’d describe this as my book of stimulation in poetry, with experiences of my life for both men and woman to enjoy. In this book I am divulging myself through poetry in a way that’s different than most. I will stretch your imagination of what you think poetry is and expressing me on many different levels, while at the same time giving you a hint at my experiences in conversations with others. Just me riding the roller coaster of life screaming and hollering waving my hands and having a good time with writing. All of this while giving you a few secrets written in my poetry to leave you guessing and wondering, is this about her, her life, her relationships in love, life and marriage? Who was that about? Just making you wonder. So many thoughts in my writing that it will make you wonder about me, wonder about you and your life.

All of my writings are straight from my heart to my pen, with a modest amount of modification and a minuscule amount of proofreading. Proofreading limited enough to keep my writings as real as possible. Proof read enough so that you feel like you are dancing in my head and jumping hurdles of sunshine and ducking at the slight punctuation errors.

When writing straight from the pen, we all know it’s never perfect and sending my book to be professionally proofread, I thought, would make my feelings too unreal, too commercial; it would take some of my personality or zest out of my book. So I said to myself, why let someone proofread my work and change the feeling of my work. Why do that? Especially since I wanted my writings to be like I was really speaking through writing to you, even if my grammar was terrible, it would be the real me. Therefore the corrections I have done are straight from spell check from my laptop and we all know how that could be, but I did it anyway.

While preparing writings for this book I had a BIG smile on my face. First of all because if I didn’t I wouldn’t be the lady that some people think smiles all the time. Secondly, I smiled because I saw myself as this woman of so much substance, with so much self discipline, who thinks so highly of herself, regardless of what anyone else thinks. I saw my inner beauty glowing and I saw just how gigantic my heart was. Most of all, I saw that I was capable of carrying burdens that didn’t belong to me. I saw my strength and I saw this woman that loved life so much, she learned to treasure it to the utmost and I had learned to live life to the fullest and just dance with no shoes on naked to life, exposed.

So exposed that my real friends would tap me sometimes and say, Thea you shouldn’t say that! but I would still say it anyway. I would spill out of my mouth what my husband called Theaology, my way of thinking. He would tell me sometimes, Everybody does not think like you. and all I would say to that is, shame on them. My Theaology tickled him most of times but if it was directed at him, it didn’t tickle, believe me he did not laugh, and the study of Thea that day was in trouble. My best friend Pam, my friend since the age of 14, would tell me that I spoke things that were taboo, even if a person was going through or feeling what I expressed, they would never confess to it and me speaking it kind of made them uncomfortable. But my best friend loved me for it and would tell me that’s the best part of me.

My poetry made me think about my life experiences in a more relaxed way. Writing poetry was better for me than writing in a journal or writing a diary. Writing in a diary seemed like just punishing me with my experiences, like crying on paper, day after day after day, so not me, so useless. Writing a journal seemed like a bunch of incidents spread out on pages with no meaning or no resolution. My words seemed to have no sense of growth, just like a diary, the journal seemed to make time stand still. So I wrote poems to get the thoughts out of my head in a smoother fashion while at the same time allowing me to move on with life. Writing poetry was kind of like making light of my life experiences so that I could survive and grow.

But I didn’t realize they would make my day brighter the second time I read them and it had stirred up energy that caused that voice inside of me to get louder causing my writings to start spilling out like milk into a cup, so rich. So I decided to extend my writing to others. I think the idea of knowing I would be sharing my poetry, enabled me to let my guards down even more. I found that I wanted and needed to shout and express. It was like taking medicine for my soul.

I’ve never been a quiet person, always more outspoken about life than most, but I found more of me than even I thought I would be able to handle. I became this suggestion box of information and boy did I want to share. I fell in love with this idea of expression even more than I was already. My writings were trickling out so fast; I felt I was laying the ground work of my life and my survival through. It pushed out the bad stuff and brought in all the good stuff that made my heart play such a lovely song. I allowed my pen to pour out word on top of word of my thoughts. And today, I’ve astonished myself with my thoughts and my life’s growth all because of this book.

In your reading of my book what I am asking for from each and every one of you, is to take pleasure in my book and keep an open mind. Also don’t tear it apart too much but read what I have to say and live in the joy of my development of it.

Some of my writings may shake apples from your tree, and your mind will start to tingle and your heart will start to race, but stay calm and enjoy it and say to yourself, Oh no she didn’t put that in writing, then close your eyes and continue the ride, I promise you’ll be ok.

This book’s rollercoaster ride starts out gentle and ends up hard and then it smoothes out again like most rollercoaster’s, so you decide how tight you want your seat belt. I hope you are ready to ride one hell of a ride.

Now let me explain briefly some of the chapters to prepare you for the rollercoaster ride. Well, chapter one is all about love’s hurts, joys and change. You’ll read expressions of love written in many different forms. You’ll feel the love I shared from my soul. While reading my writings you will get a picture of what love and life is about to me, a picture of the happiness, the sadness, the ups and downs and the just plan sick and tired of being in love in everyone’s life.

We’ve all been in love; some of us have fallen in love and didn’t know what to call. We have all extended our hearts; extended it because we really cared about someone. We have all fallen into something that made our hearts beat those extra beats and we were lead by those beats to loves door. My poetry will express love in every way I could imagine. Poetry of love written so deep you will need a shovel to recover from it; it pulls you in and makes you shake your head to say I’ve been there before, go ahead girl say that! Written in this chapter there is a poem written in the form of a short story called, An Un-produced Movie of Romance. It is a screen play rewind; yes that’s how I describe it. It’s the perfect story for the question, where is this love going?

Chapter three, well I’ve devoted this to the men, it’s my own unique message for them. My way of saying you are spectacular, even when we don’t tell you, you shine. I think I speak in this chapter with thoughts for the men. I’ve written this chapter because I’ve removed that I am woman hear me roar attitude, and I’ve grown to know that I couldn’t roar without men as loud as I can now. I’ve learned to listen and I’ve watched them, just so I would understand how to love them the way they want and need to be loved. All of this because I was trying to find the master key to my husband’s thoughts that caused some of his actions and reaction in his love life with me.

Also in this chapter I play with 2 words I’ve created, do—luscious and flow. Read it you’ll see what I mean, nothing but fun thoughts. My favorite poem in this chapter is, The Struggle; it has a part one and a part two. Some of the woman who read these 2 poems may find objection to what I have written. But I had to say what I thought a man would say or wanted to say. So the poems, The Struggle 1 and 2 were written from a man’s point of view by a woman.

Now I could be wrong in what I have written for them but I’m sure the men will let you know if I am. But in this chapter I’ve expressed some thoughts in poetry for them that I am sure will make them grin in agreement. Since sometimes women don’t listen when a man speaks I thought I’d try it for them; go ahead and read you’ll see what I mean.

There are several other chapters where I have played with a couple of short stories with long thoughts of poetry. These stories are meant to rattle you, tickle you and it’s all of me as uncut as I can allow myself to be in a book, in a story. Also there is a session in this book of various words that I have chosen to play with while giving you my definition of what that word means to me. Take those words and use them whenever necessary, create your own personal dictionary of fun and share. Just tickle somebody using them.

The purpose of this book for you is to amaze you, to make you dream of your life’s mission and to help you to transform and become the stronger you, the newer you all because you see yourself in some of my writing. And I wanted to make you see you were not alone in your life struggles or you life’s thoughts. I want this book to make you dance in the magnificence of you all day and all night just because you can, just because you want too. Now turn back the pages and let’s get started exchanging some awe-inspiring energy.

Wait! If I don’t tell you about my exciting chapter called Straight Sexuality, this introduction would not be complete. This chapter is full of poetry and short stories that tickle, peaches and cream, strawberries and chocolate and so much more. This chapter is like a bag full of candy, every kind and type you like. So pull the rip cord and get in bed with your partner and enjoy poem after poem on sexuality’s in an appealing and tingling fulfilling way. This chapter has an exciting bedtime story for adults that you can read to your each other that will make you go to bed with a smile on your face.

Writing this book has been wonderful for my spirit so I want you to enjoy reading Life on an Emotional High and see how high it takes you.

About Me

An author biography, hmm, how should I do this, I thought to myself. Should I go on and on about my accomplishments, is that really important to the readers of a book. Do the readers of a book really care what college I graduated from and my life road to writing this book or do they care about me and why I decided to write. I think, most people want a mental picture of the author so they’ll know how to relate to that person’s writings. So I sat down and examined myself.

I am a woman over 45 that is so very comfortable with her age, so comfortable that I make other woman my age uncomfortable, make them squirm, You know a woman telling her age is suppose to be a no-no because a woman’s age is suppose to be her secret, but for me what is the big secret. Plus my mom taught me to love my age and if someone should ask stick your chest and tell them. If you ask my mom to this day she will tell you without blinking her eyes and she is in her 70’s.

Let me move on with giving you a teaspoon of information about me and then, on to how I really want to do this author biography of myself. I haven’t done anything that anyone else would say is super fantastic so here is a teaspoon of stuff in case some of you just had to know about me and my journey to writing this book. I attended Kennedy King College, followed up at Chicago State University. I was a registered nursing major with a second major in medical records administration and a minor in communications. I worked as a waitress at Marshall’s Field great Walnut Room while I did my internship as a student nurse at various hospitals throughout the city of Chicago, mostly in the area of pediatrics and geriatric. I ended up working at Osteopathic Hospital which was a branch of the University of Chicago. I ended up working with only the geriatric patients for 6 months. This is when I discovered Nursing was not for me. Those geriatric patients shook me up. Here I was 5'3" barely 100lbs, a small little thing, making beds and doing bed baths for elderly patients that did not want to cooperate, did not want to be moved, and did not want any part of the hospital they were in. I also distributed medication to elderly patients that would spit it back at you, having food thrown, blood pressure and temperatures taking all day and just listening to the buzzer ring for more my assistance from the patients. All day back and forth, I just didn’t feel like they cared about my passion to care for them. I had a big heart but it just did not seem like these patients wanted me to extend it. They all just wanted to go home and not be in the hospital. This turn out just not to be for me, so I gave in and they won. Aside from the medical part I felt like a maid and I just could not imagine doing this until I made 65, hell I was only in my early 20’s.

This is not to say the field of nursing was not a very amazing, beautiful and rewarding field. I mean the ability to care for the sick is a fantastic opportunity; I mean an awesome choice to make in life as a career. But I decided it just was not for me and I needed an office job, a 9 to 5, where there were no sick people to care for and I could dress cute while being as professional as the next person. I do however applaud all those nurses that are still doing their jobs and handling their business caring for the sick day in and day out. They are all very strong and special women and or men, so praises are definitely due to each and every one of them.

Presently I work in the arena of workers compensation; I’m a Senior Claims Analyst my present clients are with the Illinois Assigned Risk and the City/Chicago External Funded. This is a field I stumbled into, some 20 years ago. I guess I kind of like it huh? I stumbled into this field while working a temporary assignment and with the help of another employee was talked into applying full time. And here I am too this day. The best part of my job is understanding and knowing how the Illinois Industrial Commission works and the laws that govern the worker’s compensation act. How I ended up here is still so unbelievable to me, so unreal such a big difference from what my major was in college, but this field is like 3 jobs in one, it allows me to use my communication skills and