Uncontrollable Control

By Ervin Middleton Jr and Karie Walker

Greetings earthlings!!! Welcome to my world. I suffer from many diagnosed mental instabilities that stem from childhood physical, emotional, and sexual trauma. So I decided that because it's really uncontrollable, and the only thing that can really be done is it can be managed; I decided to do one of the things i do best. Write poetry. Reading this, my hope is that you will overstand more how my mind works. I have D.I.D, paranoid schzoprenia, PTSD, bipolar 1&2, seizures; so my poems are all of my alters taking part in writing. I also want to show that even through adversity, you can accomplish great things.

• Language: English
• Publisher: Lulu.com
• Release date: Mar 11, 2022
• ISBN: 9781678106652

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Acknowledgments

I would like to dedicate this work of art first to the Almighty Artist of all creation, who created me to be able to create this and other works of art. Ase, Amen, Ameen.  I would also like to dedicate this to each and every individual that has battled, and is still battling mental challenges. I want you to know that you are extremely important, and please do not give up. I know life is challenging for you, but know that you can take those challenges and do something with them that can make you feel better, and make the world see you as people, not problems that need to be solved, or broken pieces that need to be fixed, we just want and need love. I see you. I am you. To my Goddess, my best friend, my first crush, my first girlfriend, my Queen of the nile, my wisdom, my iron, my most beautiful, intelligent, funny, strong, sexy, black ruby, Patrice Grimball Middleton you are the reason I made it here. The reason I was able to take my words, my emotions, and place them on paper in a way everyone can understand. Thank you for just being you.

To my children, all of you. You are the best parts of me. You are all shining stars. I may not have always been there in person, but you were always with me in my heart. To the Queen Of Collaborations Ms. Angela Thomas-Smith. Had i not met you, and you took a chance on a complete stranger, I wouldn’t be typing this right now. You gave me opportunity. You saw without seeing and took a chance. I thank you so very much for opening your heart, your connections, and letting me do what God makes me do best, shine. And last but definitely not least, to my ancestor, and grandmama Pastor Pearl Middleton, may you rest in heaven. You are where i got my creative writing and poetry from. Every sunday after service, or after whatever service you would attend, you would