Killing My Words, Surviving My Thoughts

By Milleen Holliday

Killing my words Surviving my thoughts is Milleens first book of poetry and true letters written about her life. In this book is the true drama about love, hate, and self esteem. Readers will find the perfect words for all emotions throughout the poetry, and heartfelt letters of true situations that will touch the hearts of many. Milleen hopes that this book will reach many readers and inspire them to speak their feelings.

• Language: English
• Publisher: Xlibris US
• Release date: Nov 22, 2010
• ISBN: 9781453584675

Milleen Holliday

Born the youngest of four, Milleen went through a lot of trials in her life. With a quiet personality writing became a way of expressing her feelings. She also loved to read books written by “Judy Blume” and “ James Baldwin. ” With this inspiration she decided to become a writer. Now as an adult Milleen has learned to handle her life with the love of God and her daughter.

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Copyright © 2010 by Milleen Holliday.

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Contents

Love

Tony

April Showers

Unforgettable

Blind Thoughts

Virgin

Never

Vows

Because

Regrets

He’ll Call Me Mama

Best Friends

I’m Ready

Heartbreak

I Wonder

Stay With Me

Forbidden

Fantasy

I Hate You

No Right

Dreams

To Baby Girl

All I’ve Ever Wanted

I’m Not In Love

How Dumb

Father

Time After Time

How

Dark Brown Eyes

Sorry

Addiction

Miss Seventeen

Ex

Your Love

Must Be

If I . . .

Sweet, Passionate Love

Woman

To my twin sister,

Colleen Friga

Love

It’s easy to picture love

in your mind and actually

begin it. I would hate to

think after all this time,

your heart wasn’t in it.

To be in love is what you

say you can’t go through,

where does that put me

and us? I’m still in love

with you. There’s no

time to pretend, let’s

finish what we started I

don’t want love to end

and to be left brokenhearted

I can’t help how I feel

that’s no doubt, this

love is real, that’s not

hard to figure out.

I can make you feel good

inside and make love

so sweet, so, man, you

should swallow your

pride and fall in love

with me. Come to

realize that your heart

does exist. I can see love

in your eyes, with every hug

and each kiss. Maybe

I’m a fool to want us to

be together, but hey, that’s

cool, as long as I’m loving

you forever.

Tony

It came like thunder

from time to time

stayed with his body

disappeared with his

mind. It ate him up

this time to see it

wouldn’t go away

evil said he was

fine, so no more

pills today. He

could’ve been a

pastor for all to see

but the devil that

bastard, ran away

with his dream. With

God he’s alive. On

earth he’s deceased

I’ll never forget how

he died, because it

hurts to have epilepsy.

April Showers

You’ve been gone for

two days and forty-eight hours

and these tears on my

face run like April

showers. I thought

about the fight we had

yesterday, you disappeared

in the night, and left

without a trace, your

thoughts were mean

and you were full of

anger. You looked

at me as if I were a

stranger. When you

and I argue, I scream

and shout, but I can’t

believe, I told you to

get out. Yes, that thought

was in the back of my head,

but I never intended for

it to be said. So for two

days and 48 hours my

tears will stay and run like

April showers.

Unforgettable

To the start of our

life to the end of

our world, all day

and night I’ll be

your girl, then I’ll

forever become

your queen, growing

together, things

will be what they

seem, I want to

stay, to be the one,

to always say, these

words of love, I’ll

always be, the one

you need, and your

love will grow,

forever in me. My

love in you will

be incredible, to me

you’ll always be

unforgettable.

Blind Thoughts

I look at him he

looks at me, he

looks at all the

wonders that I

can’t see. He feels

the colors of

my face as they

shout out loud

he puts the

picture in its

place when he

hears my sound

his heart and

soul is always

kind, I see him

as smart and bold

and also blind.

Virgin

She lay on his bed

and looked into his

face, felt the warmth

of his warm embrace

nor did she move

or dare to escape

he pushed inside, she

called his name, that’s

when she knew things

had changed.