Ex-Gay Christian: Souls at the Crossroads

By Robert Williams

This author embarked upon life's journey from the town of Kinston, North Carolina and, at age ten, accepted the LORD JESUS CHRIST as Savior and joined the Christian community at age twelve and began hearing the Holy Spirit's still voice encouraging and guiding me into all truth. Over the years, he has faithfully kept all pledges.

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• Language: English
• Publisher: Book Vine Press
• Release date: Jan 10, 2022
• ISBN: 9781956896602

Robert Williams

Robert Williams received his degree in astrophysics from the New Mexico Institute of Mining and Technology in 1998, and is a former array operator for the Very Large Array, the world's largest phased radio telescope. His previous novels include Peculiar, MO, The Storms of Eternity, and The Remembrance.

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Contents

Dedication

Preface

Prologue

Section I

Strong Delusion—Is Gay Marriage Embracing the Lie?

America at the Crossroads

How Can One Modify Perfection?

Same-Sex Marriage—Embracing the Lie

Marriage Unions That Are Blessed

A Divine Institution

The Mystery of Marriage

Marriage Is a Covenant Sealed in Blood

God Protects the Legitimate Marriage Bed

Section II

A Personal Demonic Encounter - an Enlightening Experience

A Cry for Help:

A Prayer for Freedom

Demonic Feet Under God’s Table

One Removed, More to Go

How the Mighty Fall

The Promise of a Fruitful Life

The Wages of Sin—Incarceration

A Vow to Live Holy

Recognize the Deception

A Gift of Suffering

Suicide Is Not an Option

Take Charge of Your Circumstances

Section III

Combating Satan, the World, and the Church

Battling Hell, Flesh, the World, and the Church

The Church, Bride of Christ

The Hypercritical Present-Day Church

A Prayer When Forsaken

A Bride Devoid of Love?

The Church Kills Its Wounded

Fight the Homosexual Spirit, Not its Victim

Sexual Confusion

Is Homosexuality a Product of Habitat or Birth?

Homosexuality Violates Natural Law

The Choice Is Yours

Despising Both Sin and Sinner

Can Homosexual Christians Go to Heaven?

Out of the Muck, Clay, and Mire

Reflecting God’s Character

Gay Christians

Why Grant this Homosexual Testing?

Gold Characteristic

Christians with Demons?

Section IV

Finding True Identity Through Christ

Born THIS Way

Self-Fulfilling Prophecy

And Concerning the Bible and Old Testament Law

The Broad or the Narrow Way

Ignorance is No Excuse

Christ Above All

Christ is Our Covering

The Living Water

Prayer For Deliverance

Freedom from Sin’s Pitfalls

Smooth Tactician

Lines on the Sand

Section V

Children with Gifts—and Some with Demons

The Satanic Face of Disney

This prayer model serves as an example:

The Cartoon Network

The Harry Potter Curse

Freedom of Choice

Major or Minor

Your Gifts

About the Author

Notes

Dedication

To the two teen prophets who gave me a big hug, smiled, and prophesied this project would be a blessing to many. Thank you—I needed that!

Love all humankind—trust only Jesus, He sticks closer than a brother (Proverbs 18:24).

Preface

I had no desire to write this testimony. I don’t believe in sharing secrets in public—especially not mine. However, on three occasions, the Lord commissioned me to take up this work. The first time, He said, This will help many; the world is waiting to read you. I began writing and planning the work; nevertheless, I placed it aside somewhere along the line.

The second time, the Lord spoke through a prophet, saying, Stop procrastinating. You have the plans, and now complete the work. I then questioned, Lord, just what work do you mean? I’m not sure. I thought He was referring to one of the e-businesses I had been exploring.

The third word was unmistakably clear, Write the vision, and make it plain. You will begin snatching people out of the fire, the clay, the muck, and mire they’re in. I have expanded your consciousness; therefore, share what you have learned. They will listen to you when they don’t listen to others. You will speak to millions. Make certain you give them the unadulterated word.

The Lord doesn’t do things the way I’d do them. And I thank Him for that! I will sit back and keep things under wraps, but in this case, what the world doesn’t know can hurt them. The Lord believes in sharing testimonies so that others may benefit. He wants to use our voices like trumpets, spare not —shout out warning from the rooftops (Isaiah 58:1). Charge them, The wages of sin is death, but God’s gift is eternal life (Romans 5:23).

God’s ways are not mine. I keep personal secrets under wraps—and believe me, Satan, likewise, would rather prefer we don’t share failures and battles we’ve overcome through God’s mercy and undeserved grace. However, in the Lord’s economy, nothing is wasted. The more pain and suffering that’s gone through life, the dirtier the muck and mire from which He has rescued us, and the greater our call to share with others God’s hand in the restoration. I have observed that even our suffering is designed and orchestrated by God. He is such a loving Father, who doesn’t allow us to bear any more than we’re capable of handling. Even Scripture tells us that, …He who has begun a good work in you will perform it until the day of Jesus Christ (Philippians 1:6).

Our self-confidence is that God is working within us. We are His workmanship in spite of our failures. He allows our failures for us to become perfected, to help us develop a foundation. For I know the thoughts that I think toward you, says the LORD, thoughts of peace, and not of evil, to give you an expected end. Our lives are of great value to Him, for we can take our pain and encourage others who are passing through similar fires in life. There is Scripture I recall that gives credence to this, And they overcame him by the word of their testimony. You understand, each testimony gives others hope, encouragement, and strengthened faith, which places more nails into God’s agenda for Satan’s demise. I am here to let you know that Father God can give a second chance to those who have lost their way. There is no sin that His merciful eyes haven’t seen. And, regardless of how Satan presently has you bound, there is no sin which the blood of Christ can’t cleanse.

Daily, I realize God is raising an end-time army—a bride (the church) who will do whatsoever our Lord Jesus Christ tells her. He is placing within His bride a fire that will explode if it isn’t set free—the type of fire Jeremiah experienced, a fire shut up in his bones (Jeremiah 20:9). I must tell it, regardless of what people might say or imagine. As for me and my house, we shall serve the Lord (Joshua 24:15). We are aware that the time is short, and the need is great!

God is a wonder! There is no end to His wisdom. May each reader be blessed! I pray that by God’s grace you, too, will catch the fire and allow nothing to hinder you from running this race successfully. Share your pain and shame; you also must pull the lost from the fire. For we know what the end will certainly be (Hebrews 12:1).

I will hold no punches. For the most part, Scripture is quite accurate when it warns that Satan has deceived the whole world (Revelation 12:9).

We are misinformed, and I will tell it as the Lord revealed it to me. He permitted me to experience some of the things going on in the spirit world—behind the scenes—things unsaid and hidden, but only spiritually discerned.

Satan knows what angers Almighty God. Therefore, his ploy with practicing homosexuals and same-sex marriages is to press humanity to the point where God has no recourse but to bring severe judgment upon America and those patterning her footsteps. At this juncture, the question is, will these Americans continue demanding their entitlements, or will they awaken in time, recognize their error, and be willing to apologize to God and walk His narrow way (Matthew 7:14)?

Think about it. If this lawless cherub (Satan) had no consideration when it came to enticing his Creator, likewise he will stop at nothing to bring humanity, those close to God’s heart, to share in his eternal suffering in hell. God grants humanity grace not offered to Satan; this serpent, in his anger, blinds the earth to this truth.

Prologue

The Lord’s Commission: HELP OTHERS.

Section I

Strong Delusion—Is Gay Marriage Embracing the Lie?

America at the Crossroads

It has happened; the highest court in our land has made a monumental ruling, which will affect the moralities of all Americans: determining whether it’s legal in all states to permit gay couples the same rights and marriage privileges as heterosexuals. It’s the new trend. I say to you, should this be allowed, I warn America prophetically that the decision will hasten her demise. Understand, God, is not mocked; He is the Creator and has said marriage is for men and women only. When a nation is bold enough to challenge the Almighty, beware. Strict retribution will follow. Wake up, America. Satan, the king of this world, has spiritually blinded you; he pulls the wool over your eyes, pats you on the back, and says, It’s okay. You’ve longed for this opportunity, and now it’s here. Seize the day.

Many repercussions will occur once we’ve embraced the issue, what will be the repercussion in the spirit world? We have only to look at the wrath levied upon Sodom and Gomorrah, and those cities in the plains. Their destruction was swift and final. Even to date, remnants of spent sulfur pods or brimstone remain. Those cities were totally obliterated. The area is presently a ruinous heap and those cities a byword. America, are you willing to suffer such judgment? Get prepared for God’s wrath, for it’s surely coming. Unless this nation radically repents of this sin that will trigger the judgment of God, His wrath must be applied. And, the trends of America pluck the heartstrings of the world.

Oh, America, can’t you see God’s wrath is approaching? "And the voice of harpers, and musicians, and of pipers, and trumpeters, shall be heard no more at all in you. And no craftsman, of whatsoever craft he has, shall be found any more in you; and the sound of a millstone shall be heard no more at all in you (Revelation 18:22).

Where is the voice of the Church during these days of historical mandate? Where are our wise and prudent believers while these monumental blunders adorned our historical records? Has she already gone too far? Has the wrath of God already rendered her speechless? Are we merely witnessing the gasp of her final breath? Could it be the entire nation is spellbound—and under a curse that is rendering her mute?

Recently, I watched on YouTube as two young men, twins, sobbed, struggling with fervent passion as they shared their lifestyle choice with their father; they were coming out before the world, blasting their pronouncement on YouTube. They called the father and personally gave the news to divert the shock, which would undoubtedly come from gossipers. They wiped wet eyes as they shared the father’s acceptance or rejection of his sons. They breathed a sigh of relief when the father reassured them that they would always be his sons, no matter what happened. Afterward, the brothers welcomed the viewers’ response to their coming-out decision. I felt compelled to give my opinion. Below is my answer, my views forged in the crucible of experience. The LORD has commanded me to share my personal experiences from the vantage point of acquired wisdom gained from a view of expanded consciousness:

"Hi, guys, here is an aspect which neither of you has probably considered: What does God say about your decision since He’s the one who created you. God says He produced the two sexes so that the family unit might continue, both male and female uniting and nurturing offspring (Genesis 2:18). There is also another variable that you have overlooked, though it needs consideration.

When humanity fails to agree with their Creator and His purpose for their lives, Satan and his demons have the right to attack and blind them so that they will never become what God has planned for them. Although they may gain worldly success, fame, and fortune, they nevertheless forfeit their souls and spend the afterlife with Satan and others who have disagreed with God. Unfortunately, those who rebel will be tormented forever for refusing to live as God has ordained. Thank God, I realized my error before leaving this life. And I hope you will also."

My friends, this world, is under great deception, being overrun daily by Satan’s master plan of deceit. And due to our unruliness, and because we prefer pleasure above truth, the Almighty tells us that He, too, will, therefore, send an extreme delusion so that we will believe the lies of this fallen world (2 Thessalonians 2:11)."

God loves humanity so much that He laments, My people perish for lack of knowledge (Hosea 4:6). Truly, we are witnessing our leaders and citizenry badly stumbling while grappling with today’s issues because they are systematically rejecting the Creator’s manuscript—the Bible—for successful living. Society is vehemently rejecting truth and exchanging God’s glorious standards and accepting Satan’s counterfeit, a lie—something disgraceful, beneath their status—to a state which the Almighty calls abominable (Leviticus 18:22), unfitting for those which He created in His likeness (Genesis 1:27).

Clearly, the sin virus is causing our people confusion, even our leaders, to the point of where God gives us up and allows us to wallow in our muck and mire. Have we reached the point where Satan, the prince of this world (2 Corinthians 4:4), has taken the opportunity to dumb us down big time—so blinded that we’re viewing humanity in a state of calling evil good and good evil? We suffer dilution, all because humankind refuses to love the truth so that the Almighty might help and restore them (2 Thessalonians 2:10).

Most of us have overlooked Satan’s shrewd tactics and challenges to the Almighty, …I will exalt my throne… (Isaiah 14:13). Have we forgotten that this rebel is building his kingdom to rival that of God? And humanity is being weighed in the balance, being used as pawns in this chess game of human struggle. Scripture reminds us that our adversary has incredible wisdom so that in comparison it rivals that of Daniel (Ezekiel 28:3). Not only was Daniel wise in the physical realm (dreams and words of knowledge), so adapted spiritually that he saw well into our present day, and so wise and favored by heaven, that God answered his petitions the very same day of the request. Nevertheless, Satan’s angel held back the answer. Daniel’s insight was accurate and revealing beyond generations. Satan was afraid this revelation would give humanity an advantage; therefore, he fought to keep such detailed information from our eyes (Daniel 10:13).

Consequently, we can deduce that there is very little concerning humanity that puzzles Satan. And with his diabolical tactics, he plans to pollute humanity to the point where we will be forced to accompany this fallen cherub to God’s throne of judgment.

How Can One Modify Perfection?

Can those created ask the Maker, Why have you made me like this? (Romans 9:20; Isaiah 45:9). Let’s get real and stop relying on tear-stained faces, and heart-rendering emotions. Humanity is in need of God, not the opposite. Let’s savor this fact—when we contemplate our eternal destination and weigh our earthly longevity, we can expect, at the most, a lifespan that runs 60-95 years. Scripture, on the other hand, places everything in clear perspective, …Our lives are but a vapor that appears for a little while and vanishes and passes away. Our times are not in our hands, but at the disposal of God (James 4:14). Therefore, when comparing our present existence with eternity, and when equating God’s penalty for aberrant sexuality, it would behoove us to remain celibate. God’s judgment calls for eternal separation from the Almighty, as well as never-ending torment with Satan and his demonic entourage. Scripture expresses it very plainly, How shall we escape if we ignore so great salvation (Hebrews 2:3)?" Nevertheless, should rebellious humanity persist at having their way; they too will baste in the never-ending lake of molten lava (Revelation 21:8). God is not playing. He has given His commandments and expected us to follow them.

It’s clear. God doesn’t need rebellious, stubborn people as much as they need Him. God is holy and changes not; He will never change His laws to accommodate those who are spoiled and determined to have their way. Nevertheless, here in the twenty-first century, those desiring same-sex marriages want to convince the Creator and the universe, that it’s a matter of love and equality. But from God’s perspective, humanity must understand: ‘His mind is already made up, and the issue settled in heaven. He will never change; He was the same yesterday as today; the ruling isn’t reversible, and His position will remain in place forever.’ And when we think it through, how can humanity revise perfection? God, who made everything, merely asks His children, those made in His image, whom He exceedingly loves, rise and mirror PERFECTION. We either get on His wagon or be thrown away. Due to the death and resurrection of Christ, mankind is granted the opportunity to be forgiven in this life. This gift of grace is tremendous. When you think of it, the angels also sinned; nevertheless, they were judged and sentenced to eternal damnation, no hope of rescue. Scripture puts it rightly, What is man that you are mindful of him, and the son of man that you care for him (Psalms 8:4)? And again, Apostle Paul expresses it well, How will we escape if we neglect so great salvation (Hebrews 2:3)?

Americans, unfortunately, reared in a society which caters to their whims and indulgence, are accustomed to having things done their way, and for this very reason, many have turned away from the Almighty, though He’ll accept those who repent of their sinful ways. He will forgive their past although they must come to Him completely, not in part, but totally. When the repentant sinner comes to God, He demands not partial, but total control. Scripture reminds us that it’s "Christ in you the hope of glory (Colossians 1:27).

Same-Sex Marriage—Embracing the Lie

When humanity defiantly rejects God’s truth, yet embraces the lies in this world, Scripture tells us, "God sends them a strong delusion, so that they will believe the lie (2 Thessalonians 2:11).

Have you noticed that the majority of our society is turning their backs on God and His doctrines? We are witnessing this rejection across the board in our courtrooms, schools, and government buildings (taking out iconic idols, the Ten Commandments, the reading of Bible passages in our public schools, etc.). This rejection of our respect and reverence for the Almighty is highly visible in today’s marriage ceremonies as well. Many have totally eliminated the tradition of mentioning the name of GOD and uniting couples under the guidance and auspices of His words and theological precepts. And, for the most part, this deletion is intentional. My question is, if the guidance and precepts of our heavenly Father were absent, how shaky the marriage foundation? Who’d sanction and legitimize this union?

I’ll never forget the time I was publicly ashamed to recognize and obey our Lord. It occurred during a church service; the Lord reminded me of my sins and told me to go forward and repent. I was unwilling, for I didn’t want others to acknowledge that I was homosexual. The Lord, in His indisputable wisdom, drawing my focus upon the wages of my rejection and disobedience, said, If you are ashamed of me, before these people, who can do nothing for you, then I will be ashamed of you before the holy angels (Luke 9:26). Our Lord always draws our focus to sin and how it affects our eternal well-being. Thank the Lord He has since forgiven me of my outrageous insolence during that season. Whenever the Lord gives instruction, we should follow them immediately. He knows what’s best, and His timing is perfect.

Knowing the importance of immediately obey our Lord is a great lesson: our focus should not be on the temporal so much as how today’s decisions will affect our eternal destination. Our desire should be less for our immediate gratification and attain our desires in this life, but rather upon the long haul. We should be willing to sacrifice our earthly wants and desires in this realm, and rather place our focus upon where we hope to spend eternity, for we should desire an eternal existence with our Lord and His promises of unspeakable joy and glory (1 Peter 1:8). When I compare this life’s short span with eternity, it’s worth denying the flesh and this lifestyle, and instead eagerly embracing God’s promises and methodology.

Marriage Unions That Are Blessed

It makes sense that the institution of marriage God prescribes, a union of a man and woman, is for the proliferation of the lineage (Genesis 1:28). The wisdom of God is a natural order that ensures the human race continues. It is considered the ordinary course of life, set forth and sanctioned by God. In this ordained institution, man and woman are given distinct functions or roles. Whatever the male lacks in the union, the female, as a helpmate, is instinctively ordained to strengthen her husband properly. Therefore, marriage in any other fashion we can rest assured the marriage is illegal, forbidden, and not under God’s safekeeping.

There is very little in most same-sex ceremonies that even speaks of or acknowledges the Creator. When questioned, most couples vehemently call their bond an expression of love. Therefore, we must be very careful, for whenever human feelings take the preeminence of God’s blueprint, humanity suffers. It is, therefore, important to understand that happiness doesn’t always come with feelings, but rather in obeying and accepting God’s plan. If we can remember, Eve also did what she alleged was correct, and now all humanity suffers. And in the meantime, our archenemy, Satan, laughs at mankind’s idiocy. Let’s make it plain: any activity in which we’re ashamed to share or involve Almighty God, we are on shaky ground. And, if God doesn’t support or back up a union, then the god of this world, Satan, most assuredly will.

A Divine Institution

Here lies a question: why did God create humanity, His greatest creation, and deem it His masterpiece (Genesis 1:26-2:3)? Scripture sheds some light on this, "You