Self-Appeasement

By Marshall Elmore

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• Language: English
• Publisher: BookTrail Publishing
• Release date: Oct 4, 2021
• ISBN: 9781637675007

Marshall Elmore

I was born August 18, 1970 in Houston, Texas. I had a hard childhood, a rough teen life, even more difficult coming out to hate crime, and a journey to enlightenment.

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Copyright © 2021 Marshall Elmore

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Contents

3 Years

900 sq. ft. of Insanity

A Gift

A Great Foundation

Activate

Aeonian

All Time Love

Almost in Love

Along The Way

Amazing Life 

Amiable

As I Scream

Authentic

Backbone 

Believer 

Better Ends

Better Than You Have It

Blame

Bonhomie

Bottom

Broken Toy

Call Me by My Name

Capital Punishment 

Carry On

Challenge This

Chasing

Coldest Comments

Coming Out

Complacency

Complacent

Conditioning Through Elimination 

Condolent

Conflict

Conflicted

Containers

Content

Control

Conversation

Crazy

Dare

Darkness

Darrell L. Gray

Daytime

Deserted

Divine

Dormant Pain 

Dreams

Dwain

Each Day You Live

Echoing the Tears

Edification

Egress 

Elation

Esemplastic

Essence

Euphoria

Excepting

Exist

Eyes

Facade

Fade Away

Fair To Middling

Falling for You

Fearless

Fighting the Triggers

Fissure

Floccinaucinihilipilification

Fly

Focused Goals 

Follow the Sound

For a Broken Heart

Forevermore 

Foster

Found

Funeral

Gainsay

Grandma

Grasp

Hangout

Happenings

Hazy Victory

He Who Wanders

Heedless

Hell Is Other People

Here it Goes

Here, There, Just Really Nowhere

Here

Hold onto Yourself

Hollow

Home

I Alone

I Am Weird

I Cannot Forgive

I Have Come to Hold

I Love the Echoes

I See I Feel

I See You

I Stole

I Want You So Bad It Hurts

I Would Rather

I Write Poems

If Only

Imperative 

In This Space

In Your Book

In Your Possession

Inane

Inculcate

Innate Affection

Insanity

Insight

Internal

Introducing Honesty

Intrusion

JANA

Keep Moving

Let Me Be Happy

Light Up

Like Me

Limits

Listen Up

Looking at Love

Looking at Time

Looking at Yourself by Point of View

Losing Hope

Make A Difference 

Matter

Maybe Today 

Melee

Mist

Moxie 

My All

My Name

My Rock

My Side

My Story

Myself

Nephi,

New Dawn

No Different 

Nonce

Nonchalant

Normal

Not Good Enough 

Not Today

Nothing to Say

Nothing

Object of Desire

One Last Dance

One of These Days

Ono Kay

Orphan

Our Role

Out of Your Mind

Over Yet

Palliate

Part of Me

Pathetic

Peaceful Days

Penetrate

Peripeteia

Picked Up

Pinned

Possibilities

Postulate 

Pothered

Prosecution

Protect

Prove

Put Up a Fight

Real World

Rebirth

Receive Me

Releasing the Silence 

Relinquish

Reserved 

Return

Reuniting Separation

Reveal 

Revelation 

Rides

Sabotage

Safe and Sound

Scott

See Me

See-Look

Self-Medicate 

Self-Pity

Self-Torture

Shadow

Sharing

Shelter

Shine Together 

So Far

Social Distancing

Something

Sorry

Spare

Stay Positive 

Stay With Me

Stealing Time

Still No Cure

Stop Wanting

Strained

Strive

Succumb

Sunday

Surface

Süveyda

Swim

Tell All

The Calling

The Explosion

The Little Joys

The Mirror

Theory

Therapy 

There Must Be 

This Place

Thoughtful 

Time

Timed Victories 

To Be Good

To Fill

To Get There

Tonight

Tough Shell

Tranquil

Trash

Trivial

True Lies

Unacceptable

Unleashed

Unpack

Visions of Honey

Voodoo 

Waiting to Die

Waiting

Walk Along

Wandering Around

When He Asked

Why

Words

Worthwhile

You Are Able

You Left Me

Zeal

3 Years

I met you on a moonlit night.

Keeping all feelings inside.

Letting my eyes talk tonight.

To keep the glow outside.

Feeling your warmth from across the room.

Feeling all of what to do.

Not understanding what is to be a groom.

Having all my feelings too.

So, I close my mind.

Let my heart do the talking.

Not worried about what is behind.

Or what is to come knocking.

Not having much to say.

All we do is touch.

I cannot believe we are gay.

All I want is God’s touch.

Now I need to know right from wrong.

Was it all too fast?

Will love be strong?

Or will it go like the past.

All the lies I hear you say.

Makes me wonder what is wrong.

Does my heart have to pay?

Then my love cannot be strong.

My eyes fill up with tears.

Fighting the facts of this love.

Not knowing if you really care.

Depression comes over me like a glove.

I let you have your freedom.

You take mine away.

Living in a prism.

Not knowing which way.

Feeling the love die.

Now all I feel is hate.

Wanting to cry.

Trying to open the gate.

Fighting to make it work.

Using me for a place to stay.

Now I am saying it will not work.

All I can do is say goodbye.

Now that you have gone away.

I find out you did more than lie.

Three years without saying goodbye.

Now I can only feel my heart die.

Take away the past.

Letting go of the sorrow.

I might meet someone at last.

There is always tomorrow.

Marshall G. Elmore 1988

900 sq. ft. of Insanity

I am tired and drained

The nice nature I came with

Now suppressed and locked away

I only hope I can remember the combination when I get out

I once had a code to give respect

Once given it will it come back

If not move on for there is no hope

But in here where do you go

I thought I was blessed

Able to soak in so much

The knowledge the experience

And filter out what I do not need

As each day passes

I hear the same criminal minds

The drug addicted soul

The helpless and deranged

The continuous fight

The anger that exists in us all

The endless need to lash out

Compressed as though our bodies were a pressure cooker

I have lost the will to get by

To continue the conversations

To care or feel positive

I have come to know I can trust myself

Let go of the interest

Stop all the contentment

I no longer need this to grow

I know I do not belong

I am grateful I do not have words of drug use

Selling mass quantiles

Running from the law

Or how I stole someone’s identity

I would not have thought to be proud

Proud that I was a criminal and mean

To have the best of the worst story to tell

To show I am the king of corrupt

These four walls hold all this in

Being selfish and relentless in its grip

Each inch solid and forceful

Each inch unbreakable

I only hope I can take back what is rightfully mine

My soul, my individuality, my spirit

Things I have come to hold

To leave with what I came in with

Marshall Elmore 7/22/07 @ 7:00am

A Gift

A new family is a gift

A chance

To start over

Take back everything I lost

Everything that was taken from me

I came to despise my own family 

I felt powerless around them

The family I knew was ruined, I was ruined 

Before I had ego, anger, paranoia

It was all created within me

Someone I could not recognize

And since then, all I have wanted

Was a family

Yet with this a new I live

Family is power

Love, loyalty

That is power

I swear to this now

This is me 

Always and forever

A new family is a gift

Marshall Elmore December 24, 2020

A Great Foundation

I should not say I love you

Nevertheless, the feelings are true

The words were said from my heart to you

I only wanted to give you a clue

I never meant any harm

To scare your heart was not my intent

In your presence, I feel warm

Words spoken natural and illuminant

I spoke too fast and premature

Not leaving much to wondering or find out

I understand and feel sure

A chance is all I ask to relieve doubt

Action speaks louder than words

You are from the show me state

Countless times the phrase I have heard

I will accomplish this and clean the slate

Your important to me and I am not sure why

On the other hand, I can do without and rely on myself

To be proud, learning and try

I am not afraid of myself

Please take my intent for what it is worth

There is no hidden agenda or motive

I want it slower and follow a better path

With understanding, this can be positive

I welcome your warmth and friendship

I have enjoyed your company and laughter

I want to continue and make a lasting relationship

A healthy one that we can enjoy together

Marshall G. Elmore