The Ordinary and the Almighty: Daily Encouragement as We Journey with Jesus
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Debora McKay Notari
Debora McKay Notari is a high school teacher with a M.S. Ed. in Learning and Literacy. She currently lives between Bend, Oregon, and Santa Cruz, CA. She is a wife and mom of three grown children. Her whole heart is to encourage believers to love Jesus with their lives, and to believe in His great care for them and all people.
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CONTENTS
Dedication
Preface
The Ordinary And The Almighty
Periple
Job’s Wife
Sparrows
Mighty Ocean, Mighty God
Star Namer
Peter
To Know You
Nathan
Hunger And Thirst
The Bad Vacuum Cleaner
Your Presence
Speculations
The Trapeze Moment
Some Birds Sing At Night
Dealing
To Love
Conviction
The Someday
Redemption
Jesus Glasses
My Stuff
Healing
Something Out Of Nothing
Goliath
Two Hands
Delighting
Noticing
Anyone
What You Ask
To Seek And To Save
Still Waters
Farther Along
The Poetry Around Us
God Is Love
Bandages
The Fire
The Good Part
Quiet, Please!
Super Bowl Liv
Sirens
The Stuff Of My Life
The Masks We Wear
Today
Valentine’s Day
We May Never See
Teachers
Batons
Forgiveness
Shame
Not Fitting In
The Darkest Day
Tapestries
Tears
Praying For Blue
Irritations
Fearing No Evil
The Joys Of Common Things
The Flower That Could
Spring Is Just Around The Corner
Diamonds And Snow
Integrity
The Good Way: Be Like A Tree!
Enough
Beauty And The Best
Worry
Grandpa And The Oak Tree
Broken
The Waiting Place
Forever
Accepting Help
God’s Way Versus My Way
Patience
Judging
Oh, For A Day!
Saint Patrick
Hand On The Suitcase
The First Day In Heaven
Little Children
The Great Rock
Comparing
Worship
God’s Prompting
Serving
The Discipline Of Growing
Jesus Is Lord
Every Good Gift
Rooted
Peace
Comfort For Comfort
Prayer Matters
Playing Ping Pong
Fragrances
Faithfulness
What We Say And What We Do
The Given
The Philippians 4:8 Test
The Glory
God Is The Same
While We Wait
We Cannot Outgive God
The Resurrection
Street Signs
The Blessing Of Diversity
The Ravaged Heart
Bitterness
The Good One
Not Thrown Away
Sunrise Service
Easter
Rescue
A Barbed Gift
Thankful
Only One
Sustained
Five Loaves, Two Fish
Talents
The Burdened
Shade
The Humble
The Great Conductor
Enemies
Gratefulness
To Walk By Faith
Learning From Ants
Many Words
The Jesus Who Is
Where Jesus Is
Before
Mothers
Neighbors
Draw Near
Little Children
Fishing
Sponges
Dirty Hands
Connecting
What He Promises
Music
Have Fun!
Dtip
Famous
Time
We Cannot Go Back
The Clouds Above
Strong Joy
Need Wisdom?
Humble
Mementos
Good Soil
Eyes On Me
The Right Ingredients
Angels
Fearing God
Perfectionists
What Matters
Clothing
Discouragement
God, Our Friend
When God Stands Silent
Accepting Each Other
Elderly Wise
Willing To Be Wrong
Mary Magdalene
He Will Not Let You Fall
Washing Jesus’s Feet
The Heart Warrior
His Image
The Light And Lamp
Making Plans
Serving Him
To Listen, Obey, And Follow
Following The Recipe
For The Least Of These
What God Requires
Sequoias (Elderly Wise Two!)
Empathy
Exercise
The Still, Small Voice
The Confused Quail
Coffee
The Original
Meaning
Animals
Freedom
Dinner With Jesus
Construction
Gentleness
Not Perfect
Pandora’s Box
The Fruit And The Thorns
Dwelling Place
Parting Waters
Hinds Feet
Job
The Good From The Bad
Carry Me
Keeping Silent
With His Stripes
Cristo Te Ama/A Song
Childlike/Song Two
Balaam
Walls And Bridges
The Don’ts And The Dos
Dirty Feet
Teenagers
Crosses
Parents
Marbles
Twenty-Twenty
The Log In My Eye
What Mary Poppins Knew
Stuck
Precious
The Story Of You
Standing
Authority
The Mighty
The Lame One
Gideon
Eden
Exquisite
Everest
Striving
Samwise
Salt
Cancer
Colorblind
Not Defeated
Confidence
Treasure Hunting
Pollyanna Gets A Bad Rap
Performing
What If It Wasn’t Real?
What We Feel And What We Know
Battle Tested
Christ All Around Me
Pride
By Accident
Calling The Manager
Giving Preference
Divorce
Our Sun And Shield
Helpless To Help
Kindness And Truth
His Name
Marriage
Psalm 121
The Anchor
Be Brave!
The One Tree
The Pied Piper
Pancakes And Syrup
My Times
The Junior High Thing
Jamie’s Glasses
When God Searches
Our Heart’s Desires
A Good Word
The Homeless
Baseball
Too Hard
The Earthquake
The Unexpected
Abuse
In The Morning
Prayer Shoes
Walks With Dad
Newness
Disconnected
Hurt Feelings
Give Me Jesus
Endurance
Autumn
The Off Day
Tribulation
Attending
Elisha
The Chilly Days
Tell It
Much Strength
Rich
Reflection
To Enjoy, Not Have
Blaming
The Carpenter’s Hands
Sound Judgment
The Sky
The Lord’s Prayer
Soul Eyes
The End Of Me, The Start Of You
Counted On
Parking Spots
The Brunt
Memorials
Two Roads
Turn Your Eyes
Not In Vain
Aslan
The Way Forward
Of Grace
Common Sense
Autumn Revisited
Influencers
Psalm 119
Seasons Of Harvest
The Long View
Tending The Garden
When Locusts Come
Choose Wisely
Hume Lake
The Book Of Ruth
The Gift Of Tea
Prayer Walks
The Valley Of Shadow
Starting Over
The Whole World
Your Next Adventure
Gravesites
Fungus And Trees
Charred Pillows
Thankful Faith
Different From Me
Heritage
Able
Spending
Ingrown Eyeballs
Thanksgiving Day
Together
Birthdays
Sheep And Turkeys
Finishing Well
Ice Skating In Heaven
For Him
Before Winter
Solitude
Frozen Fog
Of Hearth And Home
Snowflakes
Oh, Christmas Tree!
The Little Drummer Boy
This Star/A Song
A Christmas Prayer
The Little Match Girl
Noel
Advent Prayer
The Brightest Light
Prepare Him Room
The Wise Men
Ebenezer
Some Children See Him
Let It Snow!
The Christmas Truce
Emmanuel
A Shepherd’s Heart
Wrapping Paper Blues
Comfort And Joy
Christmas Eve
He Is Here!
After Christmas
House Cleaning
Authority
Imprints
Resolutions
New Year’s Eve
References
DEDICATION
So many people have taught, loved, and inspired me!
I am deeply grateful!
To my beloved family:
Dave, Dad, Mom
Jessica, Justin, Jordan
Deanna, Mike, Gary, Behnoush, Jeff, Jenn, Janine, Patricio
MaryAnn and Dave Overly
Melodi, Tasha, Calvin, Chris, Laurel, Jake, Caden, Nick, Darren
And the ones to come.
My incredible heart friends:
Deb, Chrystal, Colette, Janet C., Julie, Karen, Kerri, Lily, Laurie,
Nancy A., Patty, Rachel, Ruth, Shannon
My mentors:
Connie Badgeley, Dewey Bertolini, Muriel Cook, Ken Cross,
Geri Hinote, Susan Hurley, Charlaine Williams
My inspirations:
Ann Kiemel Anderson, Pastor and Velma Church, Jim and Barbara Day, Dr. David Jeremiah,
Ken and Melba Poure, Rene and Laurie Schlaepfer, The Spurlock
family—especially Jack—Joni Eareckson Tada
And to every student I have taught, or should I say, who taught me back!
Thank you
"Something is wrong, I know it, if I don’t keep my attention on
eternity. May I be the tiniest nail in the house of the universe, tiny,
but useful. May I stay forever in the stream." — Mary Oliver
PREFACE
The Ordinary and the Almighty
is a celebration of the Christian
journey in devotional and
poetry form. Each day,
my prayer is that you will be
encouraged to lift your eyes
to Jesus, to find in Him your
every heartbeat, strength,
purpose, and joy.
I chose small portions
of scripture so that you and I
might meditate on His word
one bite at a time, letting it
seep into our very souls and change us.
To Him, the ever-transforming
one, be the glory forever and ever!
Amen, amen, and amen!
THE ORDINARY AND THE ALMIGHTY
January 1
I can do all things through Him who strengthens me. (Phil. 4:13)
Oh Lord, may I live with this in mind.
I am the ordinary, and you
are the Almighty.
The ordinary can just make it through the day—
trudging along, and do okay—
survive in a flickering candle
sort of way,
but the Almighty can make the day
brand new and bring life.
The ordinary can see as everyone can see,
but the Almighty tells me to
walk by faith, and not by sight.
The danger comes when I forget
that I am ordinary—
when I think it all depends upon me.
Oh, no. You made it clear.
Apart from you,
I can do nothing.
Nada. Zilch.
But, oh, the flip side!
I can do all things
through Christ who strengthens me.
All things.
I would rather be ordinary every day
so you—the most almighty one—
can do the extraordinary
through me.
PERIPLE
January 2
Therefore, since we have so great a cloud of witnesses surrounding us, let us also lay aside every encumbrance and the sin which so easily entangles us, and let us run with endurance the race that is set before us, fixing our eyes on Jesus, the author and perfecter of our faith. (Heb. 12:1–2a)
Periple in French means journey.
Today the journey begins.
Today, I want to throw off
one weight—
one of those that Hebrews calls
encumbrances,
in other words,
sins that entangle us,
catch us in
traps, and weigh us down.
The NIV phrases it to "throw off
everything that hinders."¹
What first comes to mind today?
What troubles me persistently?
What hinders me?
Worry over money?
Worry about my adult children
and their journeys, their choices?
Marriage stress?
Hebrews goes on to say
that we are to also lay
aside the sin that besets us.
Sometimes it is a hindrance, and sometimes
it’s a sin that weighs me down.
And then we are told how to do it.
We are told to "run with endurance the race
set before us."²
The metaphor of the runner is clear.
I am not meant to run carrying a suitcase or
wearing a backpack,
but to run and never, ever give up,
fixing my eyes on Jesus.³
For He is with me—really with me—
wherever I go on this
adventure, this journey.
He is with.
JOB’S WIFE
January 3
Then his wife said to him, Do you still hold firm your integrity? Curse God and die!
But he said to her, You are speaking as one of the foolish women speaks. Shall we actually accept good from God but not accept adversity?
(Job 2:9)
She held them all close—
all ten beautiful babies
who grew up—such wonderful
kids. Her husband,
godly, caring. Her life, good—
wealthy, really. All was
as it should be. Until the
great wind—maybe a tornado—
and all ten —all of her beloved
children, killed. Then, the wealth
disappeared, and Job—he was
so sick. How had they angered
God? Thus, a dark cloud of
despair covered her soul as
a blanket. She could not see.
She uttered the words, "Curse
God and die!"⁴ We fault her,
and yet, have we not at times
accused God? Doubted His love?
Job’s wife needed encouragement in her
suffering. For suffering can
blind us, and loss lies to our
very souls—trying to convince
us that God no longer cares—
that maybe we messed up,
losing His love and approval.
But God loved Job’s wife. He could
have wiped her out with the great
wind as well, but He didn’t.
And, as we know, He gave
this dear couple ten more
children—twenty in all—and restored
everything. Can God handle
our despair? Yes. Can He restore
our parched souls and bring us
joy again? Oh, yes! As He
loved Job and Job’s wife,
He cares for you, for me.
Oh, that we might believe in
the middle of our losses that
He is able to restore more than
we could ever dream! That we
might hold fast to the Anchor
of our souls and not doubt!
Oh, may we learn to say,
Blessed be the name of the Lord.
SPARROWS
January 4
Are not two sparrows sold for a cent? And yet not one of them will fall to the ground apart from your Father. But the very hairs of your head are all numbered. So do not fear; you are more valuable than many sparrows. (Matt. 10:29–31)
I sit outside an industrial building in
the San Fernando Valley.
I have left college to take a year off to pay debts.
I feel like a failure—
working at a credit card company, answering complaints.
I work very slowly, and for the first time feel
like I am getting D’s and F’s when trying my best.
I am not very good at this.
I don’t fit in here.
The strange old woman, a coworker,
sits at her cubicle,
waiting for me to walk by.
She says loudly, "If it wasn’t for that
apostle Paul, there would be
no Christianity."
Her way of mocking.
Somehow she knew
of my faith.
But she is wrong.
God was God long before
he made Paul.
He would have found a way
to find us.
He always does.
On my break, I sit outside.
I see a dead bird covered by a trail of ants.
It could be a sparrow.
Then I remember that God
sees every sparrow fall.
In LA, in the middle of the concrete,
in this industrial place.
He saw this bird.
He sees me.
And I knew that I could walk
invisible to all around me,
or seem unimportant, underachieving.
But I am seen by the
almighty God of the whole universe!
Who loves little sparrows.
Who loves me.
MIGHTY OCEAN, MIGHTY GOD
January 5
More than the sounds of many waters, than the mighty breakers of the sea, the Lord on high is mighty. (Ps. 93:4)
One of the things
that most uplifts me
is to walk by the
spraying, foaming, ocean.
I stop and want
to spread my arms out wide!
My God is an awesome God!
He made this!
This water teeming
with fish, great and almost microscopic.
This power untamable.
The ocean is
not in our control.
Nor many things.
Yet God is greater than
even this mass
of blue joy
in storm or in calm.
The tide rolls in.
Massive waves
burst against rocks.
My God, the God
of every creature,
of all creation,
made this.
And if He can do this?
Can you imagine
what else He can do?
Now let’s talk about the stars!
STAR NAMER
January 6
He counts the number of the stars; He gives names to all of them. (Ps. 147:4)
You created the wild and
wonderful ocean.
And you created the stars,
pinpoints into heaven.
You know how many stars
there are—all galaxies too.
You call them all by name!
How incredible,
and how I would love to know
the stars’ names.
Someday.
But think of how powerful
God is!
Not one of us
could count the stars,
name them, know them.
Not one of us
could number the grains
of sand on the beach
or the hairs on our heads.
It would be a futile task,
but it is easy for God.
So, that said,
is God able to handle my day?
My sorrow
or sickness or
deepest pain?
Is God able to
illuminate my darkness?
Yes! One billion times, yes!
God who said, Let there be light!
That God, loves me, loves you.
That God.
The Star Namer.
Wow!
PETER
January 7
And He said, Come!
And Peter got out of the boat, and walked on the water and came toward Jesus. But seeing the wind, he became frightened, and beginning to sink, he cried out, Lord, save me!
(Matt. 14:29–30)
I am thinking about Peter today.
I love Peter. Don’t you?
His raw impetuousness,
his heart to do more
than he really can,
until he learns
that it is through Christ,
not his own willpower.
Lord, Peter intends to follow,
but he denies you three times.
He leaps out of a boat
to walk on water,
and he does,
until he looks at the waves.
Lord, I look at the waves,
and I, too, am overwhelmed.
Waves of hurtful words
and actions of others,
waves of stress or sorrow.
Help me to lift my eyes
from the impossible,
from all that would sink me
in this moment,
and to believe that
you can give me power
to do what I can’t.
I look at you, and
I can forgive even the
worst offenses.
I look at you, and I can swim
when I would sink.
I look at you,
and I can.
TO KNOW YOU
January 8
But let him who boasts boast of this, that he understands and knows Me, that I am the Lord who exercises lovingkindness, justice and righteousness on earth; for I delight in these things, declares the Lord. (Jer. 9:24)
Dear Lord, through all
of the Old Testament
you longed for people
to know you,
to follow and love you,
and to make you known to the world.
This has not changed.
You want me to do the same—
to walk with you each day,
to reflect you in my
attitudes and actions.
How incredible it is that
we are called your friends.
And what do friends do?
Hang out together,
share our hearts.
How often do I hang out with Jesus?
I want to,
but I get distracted by my busy world,
by my own pursuits,
by problems that I suddenly think
are too big for Him because I don’t ask
for help until things become impossible.
Impossible?
Not for God.
Forgive me, Lord.
It is simple, really,
to love you, to know you,
and to make you known.
NATHAN
January 9
Jesus said to her, I am the resurrection and the life; he who believes in Me will live even if he dies.
(John 11:25)
It was the hardest of sorrows—
the suicide of a student—
drowning himself at the cement ship
near Santa Cruz.
No, Lord.
I could not believe it.
Not Nathan, my student
just the year before.
Nathan who talked about many things,
but not the dark things.
I didn’t see it coming.
When he was missing—
in my heart—I thought he was okay.
But he wasn’t.
Afterward, for some time
I found it hard to walk down by the
cement ship—
that tomb, and symbol of pain.
Then my church announced
baptisms in the ocean right
near that place where Nathan died.
Reluctantly, I went.
Then I saw—
person after person
dipped into the cold ocean
and raised symbolically
to new life.
My soul understood.
Life! Life! Life!
with every baptism.
You, the resurrection!
You, the life!
I was restored.
Oh Lord,
grant me eyes to see
the next Nathan
before it is too late and
a heart to pray for all
who hurt so deeply that
they may find true healing
and worth in you.
HUNGER AND THIRST
January 10
Blessed are those who hunger and thirst for righteousness, for they shall be satisfied. (Matt. 5:6)
Lord, we walk around
spiritually dehydrated
with little to no appetite for
spiritual food.
And we don’t know
that we are unhealthy,
living this way.
The more we drink of you, your presence,
talk to you, listen,
the more we chew on your word,
the more our thirst is quenched,
the more our hunger is satisfied.
How dangerous it is
to be thirsty and hungry
and try to satisfy that
with everything else.
Junk food for the spirit.
It makes us feel a little sick,
worldly, fake food.
It fills us up but leaves us empty.
It is Turkish delight.
It is the lotus flower.
Everything that distracts me from you
can deceive me, really.
Oh, to run to you
for what is real
and never look back.
For the more I know of the real,
the more I despise the false.
When I am filled with you,
I am never empty.
THE BAD VACUUM CLEANER
January 11
If we confess our sins, He is faithful and righteous to forgive us our sins and to cleanse us from all unrighteousness. (1 John 1:9)
We got it on Craigslist,
and I love Craigslist—so no offense
to that organization.
From it I have happily outfitted
half of my house. But anyway,
we saw the vacuum cleaner,
an amazing brand, very old, but no matter.
So we thought! We brought it home,
and it worked pretty well.
It turned on when plugged in.
It sucked up the basic dust.
It did the job.
And on and on we went,
vacuuming in ignorant bliss—
until a nagging feeling and
basic dissatisfaction with the
general look of the carpet
prompted the purchase of
a new one.
I plugged it in, vacuumed the rug,
and gasped. Unbelievable amounts of dust
sucked up in seconds! It was one of those
see-through canisters, and boy did I see
a lot of dirt!
In fact, it almost filled up!
I had been going through the motions
but living in a very dirty home.
I was fooling myself.
I had the right brand
but the wrong vacuum.
And this is how it can be, isn’t it?
Trying hard to clean up our lives,
trying hard to be good, to say, "Yes,
I am a Christian if I am good enough,
religious enough." But that is
something like saying, "My house is clean
if I vacuum enough." The truth was
I could never vacuum enough
with that bad vacuum.
And the truth is we can never be good enough
no matter how hard we try.
So then,
what can scrub away our sin?
Nothing but the blood of Jesus.
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It is His redemption that makes us clean,
and good, and whole.
His death, His resurrection, His new life
in me, in you.
Not my effort, not all my trying,
no matter how hard I vacuum.
YOUR PRESENCE
January 12
I fear no evil; for you are with me. (Ps. 23:4)
What if we really believed that you are with us
at all times, every day, every minute?
Would that be a fearful thought
or a secure one?
Would I try to hide from you?
Sometimes.
But no matter what I believe
at any given moment—
if I feel absolutely alone—
if I feel abandoned,
you are with me.
It is absolutely true.
Nothing can happen to me
unless you allow it.
Nothing.
And you are always good.
What happens isn’t always good;
I might not understand, but
you said not to lean on my
interpretation of life’s events.
And you did tell us there would be trouble
in life. Sigh.
So I must redirect my thinking
and contemplate you, your word,
what is true.
I don’t have to handle any problem
without your wisdom and strength.
Your presence keeps me honest;
it reminds me that you hear my words,
but you don’t condemn me
when I fail and fall, skinning my soul
instead of my knees.
You forgive me.
Your presence gives me confidence
to love those who hurt me, those who
are hard to love.
Oh, that I might walk through every door
remembering
I do not have to be afraid.
because you are with me.
SPECULATIONS
January 13
But we are destroying speculations, and every lofty thing that raises itself up against the knowledge of God, and we are taking every thought captive to the obedience of Christ. (2 Cor. 10:5)
Speculating gets me in trouble.
I worry way too much.
What if? What does that person think?
Why did that person hurt me
with careless words?
Doesn’t God see?
(This is God we are talking about!)
Or maybe I speculate about the future,
if I do this or this, then that or that
will happen.
Speculation is about control, isn’t it?
I want to control how others act
toward me.
So I avoid hurt.
I want to control my present
and my future.
And it is as futile as trying
to control the wind.
There are two ways
I can look at this.
Either I am a victim,
blown here and there by
everything life throws at me,
or I am in a hot air balloon,
piloted by the God of the universe—
carried, directed, through the winds
of all circumstances!
Either God is in control,
piloting my life,
or I am helpless in this
wildly unpredictable world.
I choose to believe what God says.
Every day of my life
He planned.
Everything He works together
for good.
I need not speculate.
Today is the day I have been given,
and strength for today.
THE TRAPEZE MOMENT
January 14
For we walk by faith, not by sight. (2 Cor. 5:7)
Sometimes, we are in trapeze moments.
Picture it!
We have to let go of one secure swing,
and before we can grab another,
there is that moment of complete
faith.
Faith that there is another swing.
Faith that there is a purpose.
Another direction.
Another secure place to hold.
It is walking by faith.
Not faith in gravity or physics
but faith in obedience to God.
Sometimes, God calls us to let go
of the secure thing
and take the chance
that He is calling us
to something else.
And the trapeze moment
can be the scariest!
But what is the worst thing
that could happen?
Where could we go or fall, ever,
that God is not there?
Where can we go from His presence?
What could possibly
separate us from
His love?
If He calls us,
will He not provide for us?
Even if we die,
we are with Him forever!
So let it go.
And in the trapeze moment,
trust. For really,
He is the net
beneath the trapeze.
SOME BIRDS SING AT NIGHT
January 15
The LORD will command His lovingkindness in the daytime; And His song will be with me in the night, a prayer to the God of my life. (Ps. 42:8)
I don’t know what they are called,
these different types of birds
that go against the bird crowd
and sing at night
instead of in the day.
It is a little