The Love You Seek Resides Within Yourself

By Evelyn Burgess

Evelyn Burgess was born and raised in Detroit Michigan. Growing up without a mother present, she was raised by her grandmother. Keeping a journal was her way of venting and escaping her depression. Later becoming a survivor of domestic violence, she decided to tell her truths to the world.

• Language: English
• Publisher: Xlibris US
• Release date: Jul 20, 2020
• ISBN: 9781984588241

Evelyn Burgess

My name is Evelyn Burgess and I have been writing poems for years. It is my therapy to help deal with the problems I was experiencing. This helped me to get it all out because dealing with Therapist and Psychologist never helped me. A childhood without a mother, being raped, an abusive relationship, a near death experience, and many attempts at suicide. I have experienced all of these without anyone knowing. I kept a smile on my face and my mouth closed for years. I thought I had to be strong and push it all aside. But I was dying inside. I turned to music, meditation and then God. I’m not completely healed but with God’s Grace I am making strides to happiness. I decided to share this with everyone but especially those feeling overwhelmed by internal emptiness and those who may not understand. Please know that someone somewhere is experiencing the same things that you are. You are not alone and never give up on yourself.

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DIVIDED KIDS

Separated as small kids

We grew apart

Causing so much pain

That filled our hearts

So many problems

Came from that division

A different outcome

We always envisioned

Now we are broken

Trying to find our way

But we sadly remain lost

Until this day

I’m praying for us

Wishing for the best

Starting with peace and love

Then our minds can rest

LEFT BEHIND

How do you leave

Your children behind

That kind of parent

Was out of their mind

You weren’t clearly thinking

About either child

You chose your friends

You chose to be wild

The children got hurt

And you were not there

They didn’t ask to be here

Their lives so unfair

You were happy

Was it all worth it

Their lives were hell

Well most of it

SHE WAS BROKEN

She was broken from the start

Because her parents weren’t there

She grew up feeling empty

And believing no one cared

She had children of her own

Thinking that would fill the void

But she still had highs and lows

Emotions like a rollercoaster always annoyed

Relationships never lasted

She pushed everyone away

Having severe trust issues

Until this very day

Just wanting some happiness

And a future that was bright

Needing time and patience

And her life to be alright

LITTLE GIRL LOST

She grew up fast having a short childhood

So many emotions that were never understood

No one showed affection and she felt so alone

Everything she knew was learned on her own

She accepted all attention because of the emptiness inside

Wanting a real man whom she would stand beside

Life gave her nothing but she had lots of love to give

The only real love she felt was from her own kids

She finally realized she would never find

The comfort she had been seeking all this time

It should have been given to her from the start

And it never was so her life had fallen apart

MOTHER

Memories of her mother

Were wigs, heels and lipstick

And wondering why

Why hasn’t she come to get me yet

Other moms at the school

They would always come

To be normal like other kids

The heart always yearned

Every