With God All Things Are Possible: Following My Dreams - My Story & Changing the World (Two Stories in One and Many Others)

By Stephanie Puttbrese

THEE UNFOLDING-
THIS BOOK "WITH GOD ALL THINGS ARE POSSIBLE"~~FROM THE BIBLE SCRIPTURE MATTHEW 19:26! CONSIST OF MY 1ST 2 STORIES TO THE WORLD (FOLLOWING MY DREAMS- THE STORY & CHANGING THE WORLD..... ALONG WITH ALL THE OTHER WRITINGS THAT WERE BIRTHED INTO EXISTENCE BETWEEN MY 1ST STORY IN 2013, A SECOND STORY IN 2016, AND THE MAKING OF THIS BOOK IN THE SUMMER OF 2019. ALL THESE STORIES AND WRITINGS HAVE BEEN PIECES OF MY SOUL BIRTHED ONTO PAPER TO UNDERSTAND ALL THAT I AM HERE TO TEACH, INSPIRE, AND WITNESS THE SOUL OF A BOOK
IN THE MAKING OF-
****My 1st Story (Following My Dreams-The story) took 3 months to complete! I started that story during one of LIFES Greatest Turning Moments for me; As I went through those moments I wrote this story! This STORY I poured my HEART into! I poured my LIFE into this STORY, and I BELIEVE it was THIS STORY that took the burden, and all the weight off me! I seriously couldn't stop WRITING, and 3 months later my 1ST STORY was BIRTHED into EXISITENCE! Whats even more crazy is there was no plan for this story to happen! it happened as life was unfolding in the most peculiar way, during one of life Biggest turning points- after i had already been pursing an aspect of my Dream with my 1st website, and after my 1st orginal Dream veture- of going through a company to patent my Invention/Idea! In the midst of ALL that my 1st story was Birthed into Existence! It was A moment I Truly SEEN ALL THINGS ARE POSSIBLE WITH GOD- and though that became the title of my book and I wrote that verse in my 1st story( different ways-- many times) more than enough times; I did not know that would eventually be the TITLE to My Book!****
****MY SECOND STORY 'CHANGING THE WORLD' I WROTE THE 1ST HALF OF MY STORY BY PEN AND PAPER IN MY SPIRAL NOTEBOOK AFTER ONE MORNING I SAT DOWN WITH A DIVINE FLAME OF INSPIRATION THAT SAID THE TIME IS NOW. I SAT DOWN AND STARTED WRITING MY SECOND STORY TO THE WORLD AND 2 WEEKS LATER MY SECOND STORY WAS BIRTHED INTO EXISTENCE! WHATS EVEN MORE SPECIAL IS AFTER I WROTE THE 1ST HALF OF THIS BOOK WHICH WAS 18 PAGES FRONT AND BACK- TOOK 3 DAYS WHILE I WORKED, MANAGED LIFE AND KIDS; I STOPPED WRITING TO TYPE UP WHAT I HAD! AGAIN I HAD A DIVINE INSPIRATION AND I WROTE 2 PARAGRAPHS THAT I KNEW WERE THE START TO MY SECOND HALF, AND THE ENDING PARAGRAPH TO MY BOOK- AND GUESS WHAT -THEY WERE! !!WHATS EVEN MORE SPECTACULAR IS THIS BOOK WAS CREATED AFTER ITS VERY FABRICS IN MOTION WERE PUT ON MY 1ST VISION BOARD IT WAS CREATED FROM! FROM THE MAKINGS OF MY 1ST BOOK AND THE FABRICS IT WAS PULLED FROM! WHO WOULD OF THOUGHT! WHO WOULD OF THOUGHT! :) :) :)****
ABOUT THE BOOK-
****MY 1st story is all about my Dedication to the “Dream Process,” each step I took to get there-- along with my Dedication to GOD & GODS Dedication to me through my soul process; the world that was revealed to me, and My life that revealed God/The Universe are always working through YOU, and for YOU, to have the very Best Life, Contribute to the World, Find your Creativity and Passions- --and Follows Your Dreams until thee very End of Time***
****This 2nd story was my story to the World felt through my pain, and seen through my eyes! Its about how each ONE of us has something in us that has the Power to INSPIRE--and that just 'ONE’ person CAN Change the World! Just ONE! Or, if nothing else 'JUST ONE' can make the world "THINK"- and sometimes that's enough to Change it! Read my story to see America is still the land we are looking for and each one of us has the Power to lay witness to this COUNTRY & WORLD Being more than GREAT!!!****
****my other stories are writings that go with my 1st 2 stories and what it means to see and feel, and write in witness to LIFE’S UNFOLDINGS AND the many WONDERS and AWE of our GOD ABOVE****
More than anything this Book is to ‘Truly Witness’ with ALL THE POSSIBILITY OF--- “WITH GOD ALL THINGS ARE TRULY POSSIBLE”

• Language: English
• Publisher: Xlibris US
• Release date: Sep 16, 2019
• ISBN: 9781796033267

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Copyright © 2019 by Stephanie Puttbrese.

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CONTENTS

Thee Unfolding-

Following My Dreams - The Story

Changing The World

Songs/Signs/Sites

Book Videos

God Had A Name

The Intro That Started My 1St Story

The Day It Started - - - My Second Story

I Am Not Voting – (And) I Am Not Sorry….. (Election 2016)

People The Time Is Now

Changing This World–-Very Simply, I Suppose

If The World Were A Masterpiece

A Lil Thought For Life

Feelin’ Good

Life: Every Path Takes You There

What I’ve Learned….

Since Then

Great Tribute

The Beauty Of Gods Embrace

National Peace Day (My Heart Signs)

Life Path Numbers

New Beginnings

You Know What I Learned: Time Is Currency

In Honor Of Jesus

You Know You’re A Hippie When

Bless This World

Cycles In Life

Everyday In A Thousand Different Way

You Ever Feel Like

High Off Life

I Am

Weight On The Soul

I Believe (The Power Of Observation)

Change Is Always Good….

The Butterfly Effect

The Paradox Of Light And Dark

Darkness (Aka-Fear)

Release

Emotions

The Elderly Community

Earth

Beauty

Notebooks

A Smile

Color My World Bright Please

Love Your Body- - - Love Your Cells

Be A Gardener With Faith

A Time Made For This (My Book Picture)

Methodical

Open Those Hearts

Index

THEE UNFOLDING-

****My 1st Story (Following My Dreams-The story) took 3 months to complete! I started that story during one of LIFE’S Greatest Turning Moments for me; As I went through those moments I wrote this story! This STORY I poured my HEART into! I poured my LIFE into this STORY, and I BELIEVE it was THIS STORY that took the burden, and all the weight off me! I seriously couldn’t stop WRITING, and 3 months later my 1ST STORY was BIRTHED into EXISTENCE! What’s even crazier is there was no plan for this story to happen! It happened as life was unfolding in the most peculiar way, during one of life Biggest turning points- after I had already been pursuing an aspect of my Dream with my 1st website, and after my 1st original Dream venture- of going through a company to patent my Invention/Idea! In the midst of ALL that my 1st story was Birthed into Existence! It was A moment I Truly SEEN ALL THINGS ARE POSSIBLE WITH GOD- and though that became the title of my book -and I wrote that very verse in my 1st story(different ways— many times) I did not know that would eventually be the TITLE to MY BOOK!****

****My Second Story ‘CHANGING The World’ I Wrote The 1st Half Of My Story By Pen And Paper In My Spiral Notebook After One Morning I Sat Down With A Divine Flame Of Inspiration That Said, ‘The Time Is Now.’ I Sat Down And Started Writing My Second Story To The World- And 2 Weeks Later My Second Story Was Birthed Into Existence! What’s, Even More, Special Is After I Wrote The 1st Half Of This Book Which Was 18 Pages Front And Back- Took 3 Days- While I Worked, Managed Life And Kids. I Stopped Writing To Type Up What I Had; Again, I Had A Divine Inspiration And While I Had Stopped Writing for those couple days- I Wrote 2 Paragraphs That I Knew Were The Start To My Second Half, And The Ending Paragraph To My Book- And Guess What -THEY Were!!! WHAT’S Even More Spectacular Is This Book Was Created After Its Very Fabrics In Motion Were Put On My 1st Vision Board- It Was Created From! From The Makings Of My 1st Book —And The Fabrics It Was Pulled From! Who Would Have Thought! Who Would Have Thought! :) :) :)****

Read my story to see we are all on a Journey to get somewhere and Everything in your life is no mistake, but Opportunity for something even better.

Stay True to your Heart, your Mind, and Thoughts and Strive for something better, and I promise You – It. Will. Happen!!! :) :) :)

FOLLOWING MY DREAMS - THE STORY

Read MY STORY to see we are ALL on a Journey to get Somewhere, and EVERYTHING in your LIFE is no mistake, but OPPORTUNITY for Something Even BETTER!

Stay TRUE to YOUR HEART, YOUR MIND, THOUGHTS, and STRIVE for something BETTER, and I PROMISE YOU- IT. WILL. HAPPEN!!! :) :) :)

i had always had a really IMAGINITIVE, CREATIVE MIND as a ‘child and growing up!’ Always LOVING, CRAFTS, ART, and BUILDING. Letting my INVENTIVE, IMAGINITIVE MIND come through. DREAMING of being a FASHION DESIGNER, INTERIOR DECORATOR or HAIRSTYLIST… ALL of which would have let my CREATIVE MIND RUN….

After high school and not becoming a Fashion Designer, Interior Decorator or Hairstylist and just working at my regular go-to job, taking care of people- which I LOVED! Living in my boyfriend’s basement not really using my Creative Mind to the full effect, I was still managing to use some of my Creative Mind in remolding my boyfriends never used, grungy basement -that became our apartment. I refinished and re-purposed all the old stuff that was left down there, and made it new! I let out my PICASSO on our outhouse style bathroom(He He). Along with that, I had made some rocking horses that were custom painted, and all decked out to the nines. I even made this cat sleeper castle with levels and a platform, that were all covered in carpet; Even, at that Time, I thought I should make more of these and sell them, but I never did! So, to say the least, I was always incorporating my INVENTIVE, CREATIVE MIND In MY Life, just not as a job!

Sometime later when moving to another state and buying a trailer I started using my ‘Creative Mind’ and started remolding our trailer. Very shortly after we moved I found out I was pregnant and had to stop the remolding because a lot of what I was doing at the time was painting. We had three cats that were inside, once I became pregnant I could no longer change their litter box. I had the litter box on this plastic mat and I use to just put the scooper right next to it on the mat. There was not really a place to put the scooper, and it bothered me that the scooper was just sitting out, like that. It was disgusting! After seeing this small rectangle box, I had an Idea for it. I put a plastic bag in the box and it became the perfect spot for the scooper. That gave me the idea for a Brilliant contraption that I had never seen. What if I could somehow design and make a small rectangle plastic, or metal scooper garbage can. With a push lift top that could be attached to the wall, or the litter box. Thinking there was a need for this, since I figured lots of people had cats, and they all probably had the same problem as me. After looking in stores and online, I felt I had a good chance with an Invention like that. After seeing a commercial on the t.v to an invention company. I called and got a free invention packet. This company helped with patenting and doing something with your Idea. After trying to figure out how I was going to make a prototype, I realized it was not that easy, since there needed to be a mold for the shape, a mold for the top, and you’d have to pay someone to draw up your dimensions. To even make one, it would be some money and you would have to draw up the dimensions, and put in a lot of work & money, and I didn’t have it. I really wanted to pursue the idea, it was a good idea, but I just couldn’t.

After having my baby we decided I was going to be a stay home mom because we didn’t know anybody in the area, and I had just had a full-time job for the last 7 years- and this would be a nice change. I could focus on being a mommy and remolding!! While being a stay home mom and in remolding mode on our trailer, I was in the process of doing my son’s room. His grandpa had brought over an old 80s wood tall dresser for my son to use in his room. At first, I thought this is not going to work, it’s too ugly, but being a ‘Creative Mind’ and already in Remolding & Creative mode; I decided I would paint it and spruce it up. I painted it white, lined the drawers all nice and put different knobs on each drawer like baseballs, footballs, and basketballs repeated- and when it was all done, it was awesome! Something to really kinda be proud of! I realized I had done an amazing piece. If it not being my son’s dresser I knew I could have defiantly of sold it and made some money since there wasn’t a lot of kids custom dressers out there. THAT Sparked ‘the Idea’ that with My Hands & My Creative Mind I could make and sell them! So my first thought was to make more dressers and not just any dressers, ‘only’ KIDS dressers. I collected ideas for the dressers but not liking the long work that entails refinishing things like sanding, painting and not really to keen on the remolding process anymore. I decided that wasn’t going to work!

Being the gal who had always worked a full-time job all throughout high school and to the present, I liked to work and make money, so I really wanted to do something to make some money and still get the sense that I was contributing a little since we didn’t have a lot of money. I wanted to still feel like I was working and trying to provide something. This striving and inventing made me feel good, and I was good at it. With my creative mind still in overdrive from doing lots and lots of remodeling and already trying my hand at inventing. I set out on a quest to use my creative mind, the little money we had, and my hands, to invent, make something, and sell it.

We had cats and brand-new furniture, I used to put sheets over them to protect them. So my 1st REAL venture/idea was making stylist couch covers! After finding tons of material for next to nothing at a salvation army and trying my hand at that, I realized it was a lot of work and not having lots of measuring, cutting, and sewing machine experience in the first place. It was very hard to make even one prototype much less many more, so I went onto something else. Having the creative bug bitten me, I was keeping my mind open to the next venture and possibilities.

I had made a stained-glass window design on my bathroom window and liked the look of it and I had these sun-catchers, that were stained-glass pieces made into a star that I hung from a string inside my windows sill. The look of the stained-glass against the SUN was very Tranquil & Peaceful to me and I just liked the feel and look of it. After seeing some see-through colored glass beads in the clearance aisle I had an idea. For my next venture, I would start making this type of dangle chandelier sun catchers that were in a waterfall multilevel design. They would be made with beads and fishing lure that hung from a window cile or from the ceiling in front of a window. With beads that seemed like they were kinda floating. Already having all the fishing line I could ever need from my boyfriend who had worked at a fishing lure company, all I needed to do next was to get the beads that I had seen. We didn’t have a lot of extra money, so I had to wait to get the beads until we could afford to get them. Being they were the missing puzzle piece to my next creative venture I hid the beads really good and waited it out until we could afford to get them. Not too long after that my stepdad who I hadn’t seen for many years had come down to my place to see his son (my younger brother) who was living with us at the time. When he was leaving he gave me some money for helping out my brother so much in the past years. I instantly knew what I was going to do with that money and went straight to the store and bought the beads. This venture was naturally a lot easier for me with not a lot of work to do. So for the next couple of months I made lots and lots of prototypes. Once all of them were made I started to wonder how I was going to sell them and get them out there. I tried eBay and many auctions later I realized that it might be a little harder to get them out there and sell them than I thought. So my window dangle sun-catchers making days came to a halt and so did the creative, making, selling aspect I was chasing. As a good amount of time passed and with no creative inspirations but with the house I let the inventive, creative aspect kind of go.

Sometime later while up north visiting family and staying at my aunt’s. While using my cousin’s bathroom I noticed her hair flower. This was before hair flowers became super duper popular and when stores only had liked one, and it was expensive. The flower was so beautiful and it had feathers coming from it. I remember thinking I want to get a hair flower, being a hair girl it seemed like a great accessory and I loved hair accessories. I remember looking at it to see how it was made and seeing it was a very simple design. When I got home I started looking to see if they sold hair flowers and like I thought, they only had one, and it was expensive. When studying the hair flower I started thinking, I could make something like that and sell that, but for much cheaper. I already had everything I needed being the inventive, creative person that I was, I already had a huge craft box. I took a flower from the bouquet I got at my sister’s wedding and made my first hair flower with feathers and all. It was in those moments that my spark was reborn and my creative mind was in full throttle again. With this venture, I was able to buy all sorts of different flowers for next to nothing since most stores sold bouquets for just a dollar. It was the first time I could actually make something that would be easier to make and sell, and I could actually make some money from it. I set out and made tons of hair flowers. All different styles and sizes. I let my creative mind run with hair flowers. This venture was more practical and fitting to me. I was very excited about the possibilities that the hair flowers could bring. The last thing I felt I needed was a mannequin head. I really wanted one because I felt the mannequin head would be a good way to showcase my flowers. So I was kind of wishing I could find a mannequin head, but a little discouraged of the thought cause where would I ever be able to find a mannequin head in the first place. Even if I did find one I’m sure it would be much too expensive. Not even a week later I found three mannequins heads at a garage sale for $2 dollars a piece, down the street at our trailer park. I truly felt I was ready and this venture was meant to be. I got right to it and called around to shops and hair salons. People were very excited to see my hair flowers and check them out. This eventually worked out and I started doing consignment and selling my flowers in a girlfriend’s salon who thought the hair flowers would go over well.

While waiting for them to sell(which was kind of slow) and in creative mode and the inspiration and ambition very much alive again, I opened my creative mind and set out to do more. Next, I started making these hair feathers with the leather string and beads. This venture was more for fun and just an idea that I thought was cool after seeing something of mine that resembled a hair feather and it fit in with my hair accessory thing that I had been on.

After that and almost coming into the heightened peak of my biggest creativity I started making these hair accessories that were glass beads and beads on a twisty wire attached to a clip. You could wrap them around your finger and twist it up like a curl and make the curl as tight or as loose as you wanted it. You could clip them behind your ear or under layers and to me at the time these were what I thought was going to be my million dollar idea and my biggest hair accessory invention ever. I envisioned them at every bridal shop and the whole bit, but one problem, the wire after being twisted many times would break. So, as much as I loved that idea it just couldn’t be the one until I figured out how to fix that problem.

While seeing a music video a month or so earlier there was a girl on a video, who was wearing an over the shoulder chain/vest. I absolutely loved it and had never seen anything like that before. To me, it was sooo… thinking outside the box. I thought I would love one of them. I went to the library and searched on the internet on where you could buy one. I couldn’t find anything about it, much less anything about body chains. Being it was on a music video I thought even if I did find one it would probably be much too expensive for me to buy. So my thought was if I could only find some chain I would make one. Which I didn’t think was going to be easy, since I had never seen anywhere to buy chain in quantity and for a good price. So I just put it to the back of my mind. Pretty much in the heightened peak of my creativity, I came across chain for prices next to nothing and from what I could remember from my mind, I made my version of the over the shoulder chain and my first body chain was born. This shoulder body chain became the inspiration for a world I felt I born to be in. The body chain world. A world that was still very much young when I stumbled upon it. From just that one I had inspiration for another and another, and soon my mind couldn’t keep up with my hands. The over the shoulder turned into my band style, which turned into my spider web, which turned into my drape, and then my rib cage, and my rib cage turned into my chain tanks which were like no other and my personal fav’s. I felt like these were my big ticket, so I set out to get them out there. My first idea was to go to all the different boutiques around the surrounding town and show them off and see if anyone was interested in buying or even doing the consignment thing like I was doing with the flowers. After a lot of likes and interest, I didn’t get anyone who wanted to do consignment or buy. With no sales and having the same outcome with the body chains on eBay as the sun catchers, being there was not much of a market for them yet. I kind of scratched the eBay thing. So my last ditch attempt to get some sales, I had lived in a town that was a ghost town in the winter and the hot spot in the summer. To try and get some sales and get them seen I would take a table and set it up in front of the trailer park, where I lived. Which happen to be on the busiest street in town and I would set out my stuff on the tables and put out signs and sit there and try and sell them. With still no sales and summer coming to an end I knew I only had a small window of opportunity to sell my body chains before they would be out of season and hard to sell. Then I’d have to wait all the way until next summer to get them out. After putting out so much effort I was kind of heartbroken. I had put in so much effort into my body chains and creating things. I just wanted something to feel good about and creating and inventing was that something that made me feel good. I wanted other people to like my stuff because I thought it was cool and I felt I was really good at it, and I wanted the gratification from others. I was getting all the signs saying that this was where I was supposed to be, but nothing was really going anywhere. With summer coming to an end I kind of wished that as much as I loved my body chains because I truly felt these were going to be the thing and extraordinary, I kinda wished why couldn’t I have had something that was popular all year round and loved by all.

Little did I know that my next experience in life would literally be pushing me into and opening the door to my greatest Creation & Venture ever. In the midst of things and having a great falling out with my brother and mother and in the heat of the moments being attacked and told I was nothing but a dreamer and I had my head in the clouds. I found myself very disturbed about the whole situation. Knowing that I was not in the wrong and that I could not control the obvious and dwell on the whole thing and let it eat me alive. Knowing I was not wrong in no way. I made a very conscious decision that I wasn’t going to dwell on it and let it bring me down, and that I had to leave it to GOD. From that moment on I decided I was going to use all the negative energy I was feeling to fuel and motivate me, and push me into my creations and my creative mind. I truly felt GOD was trying to tell me that I had something BIG with the body chains and my creations and my fully ignited creative mind went was in overdrive. With my mind consumed with my body chains and hair accessories, I was messing around In the days following the fall out with my brother and mother. I was messing around with my twisty wire and my chains because of my thoughts earlier that I had wished I had something that was popular all year long. To me, at the time these twisty wire hair accessories were the golden ticket and that gave me an idea. What if I somehow took the twisty wire and intertwined it through the chain links or attached it to the twisty wire somehow and made a cool twisty chain accessory. Kinda a branch off my glass bead twisty design but with chains and fixed the problem. Since I felt the chain look was going to be the next big thing even though I didn’t have any sales yet. I was sure it was going to be the big thing and my thing and hair accessories were a thing all season. This little idea was incorporating the best of both my worlds that I was in, with the body chains and my clip twisty hair accessories. I got to work right away and quickly found out, that intertwining the wire through the chain links was next to impossible, and trying to attach them with sauder or other adhesion was going to pose great challenges as well, so I entwined the chain and that’s when it happens. The idea that would be my greatest creative venture ever. When unwinding the wire and the chains just hanging there It hit me, what if I just let the chain hang and attach them to the clip and it can just be a cool chain hair accessory. It was so simple but I had never heard or seen anything like it so, I got to designing. First I started with a two chain design naturally because that’s the look that I had just done with the twisty hair accessories. It didn’t really speak to me, so I added more chains and more chains in this multilevel design. This design already spoke to me cause of my chandelier sun-catchers which were in a waterfall multilevel design. When the piece was all done I liked the design, but I felt like something was missing. It was just a bunch of chains in a design. It still felt unfinished. When making my first body chains, the shoulder ones. I made them with and without these beads and metal circle charms. I use to hang the charms on the front chains. It was just a cool added feature to my shoulder chains. That was the missing puzzle piece I was looking for. So, in the middle of the chain design, I added the metal circle charms all evenly spaced throughout the middle chain and wah-lah, it had all the substance I needed it to have and my first HAIR BLINGZ was born. After viewing the HAIR BLINGZ and taking it all in, I really loved the design and loved it but when checking it out; I thought I should have put the first circle charm at the bottom of the chain and then made my way up, and that gave me the idea for the second one. I would pretty much make the same HAIR BLINGZ design but I would put the circle charms at the end of each chain, in the multilevel design again. This HAIR BLINGZ I made with gold chain instead of silver and my second HAIR BLINGZ was born. I knew I had created the golden ticket. This was just the thing I needed that would be popular all year long. I had never seen anything like it before, it was so simple and such a simple concept. It was right at the time that hair accessories were becoming super popular, and they were coming out with more hair flowers and clip in hair feathers and the hair feathers that you attached to your hair. I could just feel it in my bones that this was what I had been waiting for. I got right to designing. With my mind in overdrive and trying to push myself I had a thought, what if I put a big charm at the end. Being a girl who never liked real nice jewelry(lets just say a diamond was not my best friend) and who always loved the thought and look of costume jewelry, but never wore it either. I had tons of dangle earrings and costume jewelry that I had got because I couldn’t pass it up on clearance. With all the big charms I could ever need to start and no real attachment to any of it, I got right to it. Once again my hands couldn’t keep up with my mind and before I knew it I had created so many variations. For sure that I had thought of the million dollar idea and that there was nothing like it. I went straight to the library and searched and searched for the idea. I didn’t want to set myself up to get too excited about it if there were others out there, but there wasn’t. I didn’t find anything like my idea. I Instantly knew I had thought of the million dollar idea and my excitement grew. Knowing that hair accessories were becoming the thing. I really thought I had a chance to make something of it. I could really envision HAIR BLINGZ in every store and being loved by all females all year long. Wanting to be protective of my idea and knowing it was something never before seen. I decided I would start to pursue getting a patent and the invention companies again. I felt I really had the million dollar idea and I wanted to put my name on it. I already was one step closer with this idea, being I already had so many prototypes. Once looking into the different companies I got the whole scoop on what kind of services they provided. I loved the company idea, but they asked for a lot of money and even the cheapest was close to two thousand. I asked if they did a payment plan especially on good ideas, but they didn’t. So I told the guy as much as I loved the idea and the idea sounded wonderful there was no way I could do it at the time. I just couldn’t afford anything like that, and they didn’t do payment plans. So the only way I felt I could do it was if we sold our trailer. All summer long I was so close at putting our trailer up for sale but I still had a couple of things left to do. I was hopeful on the trailer selling right away from all the remolding I had done and trailers for a good price sold fast. Then I could use that money to pursue companies but that was the only way it would have worked. Otherwise, I had to do the patent myself. I mean all invention companies did really was a patent search, a patent right up and did some marketing. I had already looked into filing a patent myself beforehand with the kitty scooper idea and for me to write up my own patent and file it, the cost would have been a couple hundred dollars. That was looking like what I was going to have to do with summer coming to an end and the house not up for sale yet. It was looking like the only option I had if I wanted to get patent pending and rights to the idea. I was going to file a patent, no matter what, I wanted to have the patent pending and rights.

A little discouraged about the whole thing because as much I would have eventually figured out how to write up a patent, the whole process was hard and doing that without help was going to be difficult. I already had lots of variations to explain. To best explain all of them, and to cover all my bases was going to be challenging. With patents, you can’t really forget to write something, and if you don’t explain something right you can’t change anything once your patent is filed. Not knowing what to do. I was heartbroken. I had worked really hard to make something of my ideas and not only that, sell the house, and I was hitting a brick wall. I hadn’t sold any body chains and I had the million dollar idea but without a patent, it would surely be copied and the thought of that happening and not being able to do something about it without a patent, wasn’t even a road I wanted to go down. So I couldn’t do much of anything and everything came to a standstill.

I was starting to kind of feeling hopeless. I really felt stuck in my life with summer coming to an end. The chances of selling our trailer in the winter were next to none. Soon all the tourists would leave and this town would soon be a ghost town again. Along with the tourist, the jobs would go too, then once again we’d be struggling to make ends meet. We were always struggling. My boyfriend was always looking for work. By this time I had already dealt with a trailer that had needed so much remolding and turned out to be a real pile of junk when we got The trailer really turned out to be a journey all in its self. Everything in that trailer needed to be fixed or remolded. It had no insulation, and we spent our first winter, my pregnancy, with no heat and only space heaters and a stove to heat our house. Along with that our pipes froze and burst every winter which left us without water for days even a week at times. Our heat was $300 plus every winter. I was way over my time living here and I wanted to leave all my hopelessness and crude with it. I had made a really beautiful house out of our trailer, but I was way over it. It was a journey with this house, and this town and this town was offering me and my family nothing, and everything I felt I needed in my heart was not here. I didn’t want to sit here in Timbuktu and think about it one more minute, much less all the way until next year. Without selling the trailer there was no way we would ever have enough money to get out of this ho-dunk town or do anything. Things felt just hopeless!!

Always on my mind and pretty much my biggest driving force to this journey. This thing was kind of my ultimate motivator in my search for something. Since the pregnancy of my son and to the present moment I had been battling some really mysterious health issues. Imagine being an extremely healthy person and kind of radiating health. I loved to be healthy. I loved working out, eating right, treating my body like a temple. Then like a night and day effect and starting with the pregnancy of my child, I started dealing with problem after problem with my health. Except no matter what I did like eat right, work out, take supplements, change all my bad habits, became a health guru, did everything right, my body just quit responding to anything and started acting totally foreign. No matter what I did nothing helped. I became the total health guru plus some. I had always been a firm believer that if you work hard you can accomplish anything. Especially with your body and taking care of yourself that usually holds true. I had no problem working on my body and my health. No matter how hard I tried and worked on myself I had no control over the state of my body. Not only me but everyone could see that the state of my health was in question. Living here was a huge problem being there wasn’t the kind of specialist I needed for hours. I needed to leave here, so I could even start really addressing the issues with my health. In a way all this inventing, and striving for something to work out and to look forward to so badly was because I was kind of feeling hopeless about aspects in my life, but mainly about my health Being healthy was so important to me. Not having any control over my body this entire time. I felt like something was taken from me and it kind of put a void in me. With everything not working out when I thought it should, I needed something to be proud of and to strive for. I wanted something to look forward to. In a way, all the Inventing and Striving for something to work out and trying to provide something so badly was a way to fill that empty void that I had been feeling in my heart. Creating and Inventing was something I was good at and it made me feel good. Don’t get me wrong when my child was born he filled a great portion of that void 99.5%. He was my little Miracle I prayed for him every day cause we really had a hard time bringing him to this world. It was in the pregnancy to my son that my body just couldn’t handle it or something and it switched into oversensitive mode and on this downward spiral. I would never take back my pregnancy because it gave me my greatest Creation and gift ever! I was already striving to be the best mom but I needed something to be the best me. To be the best me I needed something that was mine to be proud of and to look forward to. I had worked so hard at my health with no results and worked so hard to strive for something. It seemed every aspect I was striving for I was only getting brick walls. I believed that in life that the things you strive for and really wanted in life like your Dreams and such were given and grouped in these categories: some were things you already had that helped you attain them, some were your answered Prayers, like, doors opened or doors closed and windows opened but most things in life that you really wanted and were striving for, would not be given to you like windows and doors opened but maybe a crack in the window. The rest would be what to you to do with it and how hard you work to have it, get it, and keep it. Sometimes you don’t even get the crack and its all up to you to just work really hard and strive to make it happen. If you want it and strive for it in your soul it will happen. I just couldn’t understand, I had worked so hard to make something happen. It had been years now and I had taken the steps that I felt GOD had given and done all things right and keep my head high. Still counting my Blessings and trying to see GOD and the whole picture. I had done everything to make something happen. Still, I got nothing. I had been through so much and been patient. Knowing everything is connected to a bigger picture and In time GOD would reveal it but it had been so many years and I couldn’t catch a break on anything. I was starting to feel really hopeless and at this crossroads. I was really feeling like my prayers were not ever going to be answered. With this burden and feeling like something was taken from me. I needed something to work out in my life I needed GOD to show me there was still hope and I still had something to look forward to.

Summer almost to an end and kind of saddened about everything I was still looking for hope. The house was pretty much done but still not completely finished so it still couldn’t be put up for sale yet. I was hopeful that it would sell soon as it was up on the market. I had made it into a really cute house from its previous form I was sure somebody would love it as much as I did because I had really put so much love, blood, sweat, and tears into this place. We didn’t really have any friends down there and the only person we did know was my boyfriend’s dad and by this time he had up and moved and was no longer living down there. We kinda knew this older couple that were friends of a friend. Every once in a while we would see them and chit chat here and there. They had come over and the guy was telling us how his brother had died, and he had gotten some inheritance. They were telling us how they were going out right now to buy this house on the edge of town. They had been renting another house on the outskirts of town and with some of the money, they were going to buy this house that had been looking into. After listening to them for a minute and in a desperate attempt and kind of in awe I was even having a conversation with somebody about looking for a house to buy. I just blurted it out and said you should buy our trailer instead of the house. I said why not we had been remolding from the get-go and the house was very beautiful and cozy. By that time we had run all our pipes inside, and we only had a little remolding to do. I told them that we were actually trying to get out of here really bad and that I had been dealing with medical issues and really needed to be back there so I could address them. She was a lady, who as well, dealt with her own medical issues. I told them there was nothing here for us, and we were kind of feeling stuck. They were looking for a house and here was a house for sale but for cheaper.

The house they