The Wayward Sheep

By Peggy Chan

Life’s hustle and bustle barely leaves us time to think. It is not uncommon to ask ourselves, “Is this what life is all about? All this rushing from one place to another?”

You feel that something’s missing in your life, something you can’t quite put your finger on. Despite your successes, there is this feeling of emptiness—a kind of restlessness—and you don’t know why it’s there.

The nine-to-five grind and (for moms) the daily school rounds, household chores, baby schedules, etc.—we’re like hamsters running round and round on the wheel. It’s only when a crisis hits us that we freeze in place or pause.

That’s when we utter, “Oh God!” “Oh my God!”

Find out how Meg stands up to God whom she had rejected in favour of ancestral worship. God who was taking away three mothers in her family.

• Language: English
• Publisher: Partridge Publishing Singapore
• Release date: Jan 9, 2019
• ISBN: 9781543749281

Peggy Chan

Peggy is a retired educator, holding an Honors Degree in English. She has published English grammar books in Malaysia: English Grammar: A Malaysian Student Guide and Casey and Penny’s Guide to English, a series of four books. She has also published the Yes, I Can Read series of well-loved tales, retold in simple language for young readers. Bragging rights include three children and four grandchildren. Her hobbies are golfing, traveling, reading and creative writing. Her short stories and non-fiction books are also available online. She also blogs at Blogger.com. www.swingingby.blogspot.com shares places of interest which she has traveled to. In www.bubblyluv.blogspot.com you can read the musings and random thoughts of an Asian woman straddling a liberated society and a conservative background.

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Table of Contents

Acknowledgements

Introduction

Chapter 1   Shock and Disbelief

Chapter 2   Ancestral Worship

Chapter 3   Why Cancer?

Chapter 4   The Change

Chapter 5   More Questions

Chapter 6   God’s Love Manifested

Addendum

About The Author

Dedication

This book is dedicated to my mum and sisters, who are dearly missed and forever remembered.

Acknowledgements

I would like to acknowledge the support of the SPS community in encouraging the birth of this book. Thanks also go to my editor Sara Zibrat, who has been a great source of help with her impeccable editing and most helpful suggestions. Last but not least, my grateful thanks to the Lord for His guidance in the writing of this book. Glory be unto Him, our loving Heavenly Father.

Introduction

Life’s hustle and bustle barely leaves us time to think. It is not uncommon to ask ourselves, Is this what life is all about? All this rushing from one place to another?

You feel that something’s missing in your life, something you can’t quite put your finger on. Despite your successes, there is this feeling of emptiness — a kind of restlessness — and you don’t know why it’s there.

The 9-5 grind and (for moms) the daily school rounds, household chores, baby schedules, etc., etc. … we’re like hamsters running round and round on the wheel. It’s only when a crisis hits us that we freeze in place or pause.

That’s when we utter, Oh God! Oh my God!

Otherwise, God is always on the back shelf. On Sundays, some of us go to church, either out of habit or just to conform. Then it’s back to doing what we usually do on a Sunday with family and/or friends, and God is back on the shelf.

It was that Oh my God! moment when a crisis hit my family. I tried to make sense of the contradiction of what I’ve been told God is and what I perceived happening in my family.

Do you know that God is Love? Aren’t you always taught that? God is Love!

Well, I didn’t think so, not when I saw how my mum and sisters suffered and He allowed them to suffer. Where was His love, mercy and compassion? God had never figured in my life, although I was educated in schools run by Christian missionaries. Now I was forced to confront Him.

God works in strange ways. Here was this wayward sheep, stubborn, ornery, digging its hoofs in, or going its own way, although His Hand was proffered many times. But He was Love and He had infinite patience, waiting to bring this sheep safely into His fold.

I feel compelled to share with you about God’s Love and how He finally saved the wayward sheep, doing it His way and in His own time. My journey took an incredibly long time. I went through many doubts and much pain, and finally emerged as a new-born Christian.

God has guided me in writing this memoir, to bring you and others the message that He is Love and He wants all of us to have the gift of eternal life.

Please read my book. God willing, it will bring you closer to Him, and to establish a relationship with Him, if you