Me 1 1/2

By Lucy

Me 1 1/2 is an autobiographical account of my life. It talks about the abuse and torture that came to me the first seventeen years.

• Language: English
• Publisher: iUniverse
• Release date: Jul 10, 2018
• ISBN: 9781532053375

Lucy

I am currently working on my Bachelors of Arts in Crisis Counseling. I have previously published, ME, an autobiography chronicling the abuse and torture I endured. Living in the mountains of Colorado I have had the opportunity to heal.

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ISBN: 978-1-5320-5336-8 (sc)

ISBN: 978-1-5320-5337-5 (e)

Library of Congress Control Number: 2018907888

iUniverse rev. date: 07/05/2018

Contents

Introduction

The guarded feeling of my soul

Alone I Am

Ages Come To Pass Before My Eyes

As It seared my Arm

A thousand daggers in my heart

Confusion and Doubt

Dark is the night

Deep within the sin remains

Depression is a fact

Drowning

Easter brought the pain

Engrave on my brain His only to gain

Eyes are the windows to the soul.

Feeling Good / Feeling Bad

Flashbacks

Hanging naked from the pole

Head to toe

Here’s where I am at:

Hurt By Hurt

I cannot will not

I connect not to the world around me

I dance chant and sing

I don’t know how to describe the horrors in my head

… if only

In the box

I sit here trying to write.

It is time

I was only six

I want to cut sure and strong

I would

Manic

Monkey

My heart bounds

My little ones

NO!

My soul is claimed

Once was a childhood lost

One day as I played

Pain Brought the Blood

Panic

His hands were rough

Shroud of Darkness

Sleep

Sleep evades me

Tears

Tell me why

Evil in my heart

The guarded feeling of my soul

The intricate dance

The pain runs up and down my spine

Where do I find release?

Which has seeped into my soul

Why

The pain

Introduction

ME 1 ½ is a book of poetry that I have had over the years. My journey of healing continues. I start with being broken and abuse to show you the healing that can happen no matter what happens. The very essence of my life was taken from me. Just about everyone I had contact with abused me in some way. At the age of seventeen. I knew that I was going to die if I didn’t stop doing drugs or continue in the Satanic cult. My life was focused on survival.

I was born into a