From Motherhood to Military Coach: The Evolution of a Poet

By Farah Husain

From the age of fifteen, my motto was, Wherever you see injustice, stop it. Growing up, I came to realize that I cant.

I have used my writing to defend my rights and the rights of others. When I was helpless and powerless, I still continued to write to empower myself and have some sense of control over my life. My writing is my voice, and these poems speak what I cannot say to anyone else but God.

My poetry is my recovery from the past and how I freed myself from it. I hope it inspires you to do the same.

Stand up and tell the truth no matter what it costs because the price is always worth it.

• Language: English
• Publisher: AuthorHouse UK
• Release date: May 17, 2018
• ISBN: 9781546290391

Farah Husain

Farah Husain has recently come to light, establishing herself as an author and artist. Her background in psychology and teaching has lead her from primary school to working with excluded young people, whilst also gaining experience as a Counsellor and Life Coach to Military personnel. Stepping out of the shadows are her thought provoking pieces of poetry that have been collated within this collection to highlight the hardships she has overcome and resilience that the human body can endure in order to achieve lifes aspirations. Whilst the appearance of the author may be unsuspecting, living within the suburbs of London with her family, it is perhaps her life beneath the surface that shines between each line of her expressive and emotionally evocative poems.

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Published by AuthorHouse 05/16/2018

ISBN: 978-1-5462-9040-7 (sc)

ISBN: 978-1-5462-9039-1 (e)

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Contents

Dedication

Preface

For The Reader

Introduction

Stop And Search

Dr. Pusher

Shrink

Death By Psychiatry

Mental Health Clinic

Time

Dishes

Anger

As Yet Untitled

Why?

The Washing Machine

School Run

Once Upon A Time

War

I Am

Kick It

Choke Me

Killer In The Home

Breaking Free

Trial By Fire

Breathe Me

Warrior

Cut The Noose

The-Rapist

Anger

Destroyer

The Mind

Soldiers War

Self Belief

Star

Sickening

True Faith

Mental Ward

Alligator Interrogator

Criminal

Survival

Lost Soldier

Soldier Boy

Evolution

Oorah!

Mental Torture

Cold Soldier

Sniper

Butterfly

PTSD

PTSD2

Your Love My War

Hacker

Re-Integration

Misdiagnosis

One Little Patient

All Talk

I.S.

Alcoholic Looping Cycle

Dependency

Alcoholism

On The Rocks

Last Fix

Lonely Doctor

Thanksgiving For A Friend

The Boomerang

Soldier Blues

A Love That Transcends Time

Loves Suicide

Unstable

Crush Me

Baby Lover

Drug Addict

Crushed

Drinking Me

Self Destruct Button

Circles

Despair/All Out Of Compassion

Poor Me

Lockdown

Poet Tree

Victim Mentality

Goodbye

Relapse

Energy Vampire

Disconnect

PTSD Helpline

Joe

Sweet Addiction

Clarity

Not There To Save You

Your Love With Addictions

Schizophrenia

Lost

Churn

So Wrong

Excuses

Tongue Lashing

The End

Acknowledgements

DEDICATION

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This book is dedicated to everyone I have come across in my life who has helped me to become the person I always wanted to be.

My friends, my family, my enemies and frenemies.

God bless you all.

Above of all I dedicate this book to Samaa, Naasir, Amaani, Yousef, Jasmine and Kameron. The future belongs to you. Create the life of your dreams and don’t let anything or anyone stop you.

EVER

To all who find this book my challenge to you is for you to believe in yourself, fight for your dreams with love, compassion and patience and win the game of life by being the wonderful, beautiful, fully self,expressed soul that you are meant to be.

PREFACE

Free yourself

For the reader

My book runs as a stream of consciousness and thoughts, and my words hit the page at lightning speed with no punctuation or grammatical concern.

I have looked over my work and added in changes as I see fit, however you will find poems here that will twist your mind and turn your perceptions into something new. This is deliberate and reflects the roller coaster that my life has been.

I have put in punctuation so that you have a chance to breathe, otherwise just enjoy the ride which I can only describe as being at soul speed.

INTRODUCTION

I have been a writer since I was eight years old, creating novels in exercise books and tormenting my school teachers with stories spanning over thirty pages for them to mark.

This autobiographical poetry spanning thirty three years, charts my evolution as a writer from when I was 17 to being the mother of four small children to when I became a youth and Military coach.

Working with survivors of abuse, trauma, domestic violence, young people, soldiers and addicts from all walks of life, I was inspired to write this book as a testament to their courage, tenacity and resilience under some of the most psychologically extreme experiences I have witnessed.

I have done my best to translate these experiences into words and hope my poetry does justice to all those young warriors out there who are fighting for the life of their dreams.

Stop and search

              Peace Man!

              Are you gonna call the police man?

              Stop and search me in your van?

              Just because I’ve got a tan?

              Lock the door and throw me in the can?

              Or slap me with a driving ban?

              Did I get caught in the wrong location?

              Is it cos I’m not Cauc-ASIAN?

              Now you’re eyein’ up my registration,

              Checkin’ out documentation,

              It’s happnin all over the nation,

              But it ain’t called discrimination.

              Whatcha doin’ to my generation?

              And even worse your reputation?

              Put an end to this frustration,

              And make me proud

              To be called

              Brit-Asian.

Dr. Pusher

                    Flashback

                    Lets send this trash back

                    Give all this hash back

                    To the dopes who deal this crack.

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Shrink

                              Shrink you stink

                              You turn quite pink

                              perhaps you are

                              The missing link.

Death by psychiatry

                          Death by psychiatry

                          what a way to go

                          it’s quiet and it’s clinical

                          and nobody will know.

Mental health clinic

                                Run run run run

                                watch your life

                                come undone

                                Nameless faces

                                faceless places

                                victims never

                                win these races

                                Run run run run

                                watch your life

                                come undone