Vulnerability: Poems & Short Stories
By Luxi Xu
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Originally a private collection written as a form of self-reflection, it is now being publicized as a manner of revealing my innermost thoughts and a tentative first step toward becoming a writer. The overflowing thoughts of a sixteen-year-old fit into words and stanzas, paragraphs and verses. I cram them into broken poems and strings of words threaded together by an array of artistic nothingness.
Luxi Xu
She is a sixteen-year-old Chinese girl who was raised in Portugal and considers English her first language. She is a perfect example of someone who had to live with the clash of Eastern and Western culture and education. Even though these are not directly mentioned in her writing, there are points at which her opinions and morals seem conflicted and contradictory, which is a clear sign of opposite influences at different stages of her life. These are her genuine views, and albeit naive and at times “plastic” and sickeningly positive or overly cynical, in some ways it directly portrays the sheep mentality our society and the younger generation has adopted. It also shows that even though she is aware of it and attempts to express her individualism, she still falls in the trap of the herd mentality. She phrases emotions either eloquently or crudely—there is no in between, often painting her own views and objections of her limited world into her vast ideas. She shows us through her writing that she is the perfect example of human growth and the fallacies that bias and emotion created within one's personal bubble. Although her writing is quite childish and to adults may seem overused and meaningless or blatantly obvious, through her collection she shows a progression of thoughts and a development in writing style, gradually creating her own voice. This is very relatable for young teenagers who might be struggling through the same issues and don't want an all knowing command and instead seek an equally perplexed companion.
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Vulnerability - Luxi Xu
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Published by AuthorHouse 10/29/2014
ISBN: 978-1-4969-4417-7 (sc)
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Contents
Writer’s Note
Vulnerability
SHORT STORIES
Pondering Realization
Harsh Reality
My Voice
Tyranny
Tired
Stress
Defeat
Lost
Dreams
Complicated Love
Go Away
Raindrops
Sleepless Sleep
Just Sad
Tears
Truly Alive
Perfect Man
Cut Off Thoughts
Autumn
Nightmare Corridor
Didn’t Know
Just Tired
Dr Davis
Smile On
Waiting
Childish Tales
Education of Today
You Snooze, You Lose
Stop It
Truthful Lies
Just Grow Up Already!
Jumbled Inside
Thread of Destiny
Heartbeat
Honest Words
Love
Sometimes
Counting Sleep
Smiles
World Through My Mind
Epiphany
Chaos
Home
Beach
Walk
Mr Ackerman
Between Seasons
POETRY
Sad Shenanigans
Wonderland
Roses
Flower of Doom
Storm
Mirror
Factory
Feeling
Timid
Every Night
This morning I woke up
Beautiful Sorrow
Scars of beauty
Confusion
Spiralling
Layers
Insomnia
Memories of Me
Lives Worth Living
Meaning of Life
Poetry
Roller Coaster
Willow
Promise
Pressure
One Day My Dad Took Me Fishing
Ignorant Words
Life and Humanity
Sky
Bittersweet
Blank
Misplaced Gibberish
Cloud
Panic
Rain
Milk
Paper Crane
Rubber
Haikus
Post Examination
Trapped
Wish You Were Here
Mockingbird
To Kill All Mockingbirds
Love & Longing
Farewell
Friendly Love
Thorns
Chilled to the Bone
If Only
Frozen in Time
Voice
I Love You
Warmth
Describe
Secret Potatoes
My Deepest Gratitude
I
dedicate this book to:
My parents who have supported my dream throughout the years.
My friends; Arabella Ho You, Mafalda Clara, and Diya Dey, each one helping me develop my own unique style.
And St. Julian’s School of Portugal for the infinite opportunities.
Writer’s Note
Ever since I was 11 years old I have wanted to be a writer, I have imagined my name upon the shelves and my tales on the big screen. I have fallen in love with countless characters and hidden away with dreams of my fictional self, leading a happier, more fulfilling life.
I have never excelled at anything, not even English in many ways, yet I have always fed this need for recording my every thought and idea.
Writing has helped me along through a lot and I resort to it both when I have nothing left and when I have everything. It is the only thing that I can do for hours on end. My patience for these romanticised words is infinite. In the following pages you will see the core of my very being.
Vulnerability
I present to you my beating heart,
Pumping my dreams across your shoes.
I offer you my silenced lips
To tenderly kiss till love bears fruit.
I give to you my mind
Scarred and dented with slivers of absolute.
Accept me as I am before you
Stripped bare and bleeding truth.
Crying tears through drying routes
Torn apart by darkness and youth.
Perpetually changing, rambling,
And my words sealed with the silence.
My thoughts trapped at my fingertips
While I embrace them as my soul.
I present to you my shattered heart
Stomped on and spat on by your careless words.
I offer you my trembling lips
With cracked smiles that can hide no more.
I give to you my soul
As you rip it from me and call it your own.
Accept me for who I am and not
What I have come to believe.
See me for the real me and not
What the world perceives.
You’ve taken my heart, my mind, my soul,
And it all comes down to my stupidity.
I am now left with nothing. Breathless.
Alone with my vulnerability.
December 2013
Harsh Reality
When we are children, we imagine ourselves as pure, unique creatures that will one day possess the universe and understand all mysteries in life. Oh, how wrong we are. Life will forever lead us on a pointless chase, teasing and cackling just around the corner. We are like fallen angels with broken wings that we drag behind us as we stumble and trip on this arduous road called life. We are like shadows that rely on the light and are unable to move, robbed of our free will, stuck forever in the midst of brightness unable to morph or escape from the form which we have been sown upon. But what if one day we escape from this maze? What if we are able to break free from the shackles of life and the burden of society and are left all alone. Left lost and out in the open. All roads are gone but your wings are still broken, the voice that once led you will never again be heard and the silence is suffocating. The light has disappeared and you are immersed in darkness, the chilling darkness where you become blinded and forget your true form. And suddenly you yearn for the