I, Spectrum

By Evelyn Eve

From my early years as a young boy under the name of Randall to growing up into the effeminate thing named Ev and everywhere in-between, poetry has always been there for Me even when I have not. It is in stanza and verse that I go to church, and in meter and pace I find my pulse. Rhyme for me breaks the monotony of everyday life. Sanity is crammed hard within the tight spaces between the confining and restrictive lines of madness, seeking to break apart the chaos and form from the hideous fragments something beautiful and orderly. This meeting of black and white to create an entire range of colors and greys is what makes poetry such a precious thing to many.
Contained within this book is a wide and diverse collection of works: a full prism of love and hate, selfishness and unity, faith and unbelief. What you have, then, is something human. Even in the lies of a scoundrel, you find the truth of characterand in the sharpest reality of a wise man, you find the foggiest illusions. Here I present to you my latest work of poetry called I, Spectrum. I release this little monster into the world and smile, as It is the closest thing to a human being I have ever made. Fear it, love it, hate it...do what you will with it. It is here!

• Language: English
• Publisher: Xlibris US
• Release date: Jan 16, 2015
• ISBN: 9781503530478

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Copyright © 2015 by Evelyn Eve.

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Contents

My Muse: a forward from Randall Carson

WHITE LIES

POV

Spreading More than Emptiness

Diabetic Diatribe (DD)

Faster

Children of Columbus

Falling Up

A Pervert’s Anthem

Please No

Good as Gold

Death in the Skies

God is a Pyro (Flammable by Choice)

High and Mighty

The Flag

Church of God Only Knows

The Power of Peace

The Heart Discarded

How Great is my Lord

Mechanical Cannibal/Eater of Cogs

Heaven and Fire

Abundance

A Tear for my Sin

Aladdin was American

Cosmic Divorce

Electric Chair Stroll

Inoculated

Between

This Smoking Mirror

By Your Grace (Not Me)

Now Let the Fallen Proclaim (Amen)

The Charade Parade

The Search

PURPLE PROSE

Direction

Prelude to a Heartbreak

Monthly Chemicals (Break the Cycle)

My Wits are About Me (But not in my Head)

Nothing at All

Hall-Marked/Something to Toss Away

The Man of the Iron-Eye

Memories of a Letter

Sheep in Wolf’s Clothing

Soon to Fade

(What a) Pointless Thing

Day and Night

Too Long, Too Quick

A Little Inspiration

Cheese Puff

A Mouse Named Fran

The Show Must Go On

Cryptic Vision

(?)

Sleep (Dream to Fly)

Never Will (You let me go)

The Hero Inside

I’ll Let Me Be

Nothing to Show

A Good Captain

The Truth (About Us)

Losing Ground

My Time

GREEN DREAMS

First to Bed

The Only Place

Home is the Same

Let Nothing Not Waste

Trees of Life

City in a Bottle

Castaway

Gratisfaction

The End of Days Yet to Come

Heart Art

Rain Rain (What the Hell?)

Mommy’s Little Vegetable

Where

Free as a Soul

Dreams once Wet

Prosthetic Sky

The Past that is not Mine

The Sum of my Fears (It all adds up)

Untitled Echo

Amnesiac Scavenger Hunt

Not Now

The Dark Path Ahead

Painfully Obvious

Today, I Crawl

Our Father’s Son

Hammer or Nail

The Wasp and the Snake

PAGES OF YELLOW

Hoping you are Not a Dream

Stars

Dedication

Until Then

Away

Take It

Give unto Your Brother

If It Were (Only This Easy)

You’ll See

Song from Above

You Know

Want and Will

Remember

One Without You

A Thousand Heavens

(The One in Me)

A Mother

No One has any One

Heather

THE GREY AREA

You Said So/Catch 22

Blur-Line

No

The Way It Has Always Been

I

If Only the was Zen

Season of Reason

White

A Creed, a Need, a Seed, a Deed

Pain and Pleasure

Mary (He’s Back at the Door)

Fit for a King

This Rope

Will (Never)

Glide

Play the Part

Three-Sixty (the Way)

True Crime (Work for Me)

Stale Muse

Shutter Blooms

For Him

Drift

Your Life, Your Strife

The Scene

Martyred Love

A Memory

When I (Am King)

Grin and Bear It

ORANGE RHYMES

Tastes Like Chicken

Gratitude

Jesus Stole my Girlfriend

The Color of

Oh My God!

Crazy Talk

Rule of Thumb

Water is Wine, is Wine, is Water

Hear Me? (Talkin’ Cheap!)

Hoofprints in the Ash

Ante Up

In a Man’s Body

Sugar Lips

The Doctor Said

Repeat after Me

So They Say

Unknown

THE RED CHAPTER

Malcontents

Door Mat

Bigot Fence

Knocking on Hollow Shell

Psychosexual

No Regret

Reconstruct

Want Want Want Want

Someone Who Cares

I Trust

Furious Crown

Buckle My Shoe

This Venom Flies

Too Much to Ask?

Death of My Enemy

Carnie Folk (The Circus has Come to Town)

Treetops and Kneecaps

Passive Ignorance

We/Me

Firestarter

Catholic Lover

The Winner

Gehenna (Pile of Ash)

Woe Shall There Be!

Runaround

Love Me Tomorrow

Amphitheater Killing Ground

The Anger Within

Who’s Counting?

My Most Profitable Hell

Hand and Heart

Black and Blue

BLUE BOOKED

Colors of the Bruise

Childhood Wasted

Static (Within the Fabric of my Mind)

Recluse (Outcast, Part 2 of 1)

Outcast

Ghosts

Hello Darling

miss Miss

Rip

The Unknown and Alone

Die Pretty

A Moment without You

Tears Trickle

Walls (Gates of Fear)

After All

Friends to the End

Poor Selene

Our Last Sunrise

Let It All Go

Slip

Day-Time Lover

So Be It

Love or the Box

Prove

Lady of the Forgotten Night

More than Me

So Tense

When the Weather is Fair

My Entire Life

Broadcast Your Love (We’ll Keep in Touch)

THE BLACK TOME

My Own

Pendulum Vice

The Devourer

The It Most High (Our Soul to Take)

It takes the Man (to make a lesbian)

Necrophilia

Eyes of Clay

In the Blood

This Perfect Family

Jy’bresh

You are (The Pit)

Pope on a Rope

Blasphemy

Dead and Right

Smoke-Screened (a god-head and a dope-fiend)

WereMan is Unkind

Do Not

Bestiality

Everyone Dead

The Master

Mirror Mirror (That is This Book)

Parts

Sixty-Whine

In the Arms of Nyx

Musical Meat

Mirth and Worth

Unchained (The Man of my Hand)

Sentry

Driven

Clouds (Empty Spaces)

Interloper

Dedication

I dedicate this book to the silent, to the invisible, to the unknown:

Perhaps it is me-and perhaps it is you-

these odes to isolation have been sung to!

My Muse: a forward from

Randall Carson

There have been several contributors to this book, all of who are to remain anonymous. Their views do not represent mine, but they have been good friends of mine for years so I have repaid their kindness by including their work. Some have been not so kind, even, but I found their creativity of merit so put aside our differences for the publication of this book. That said: this is a book of conflict and contradiction, making it a little too human. It runs the full spectrum of humanity, therefore, I, Spectrum!

They all, one way or another, have allowed me to include their poetry, as well as edit it to fit the overall flow of the book, being generous enough to allow me to make a few alterations to their pieces to fit the overall flow here.

There is one person included I refuse to allow to remain shrouded any more, though. She has done so much for me and has been there for as long as I remember. It is time I gave the little lady her due.

I first met Evelyn when I was but a mere child. She was a shy young woman, always looming nearby but never talking. However, she always spoke to me the most beautiful of words…words that got me through the roughest of times, as well as made the happiest of moments that much more joyful. With her permission, I published much of her work under my name because she really wasn’t too keen on the limelight. Some of her work has been tucked away in Something About Nothing, Fruit of Life Seeds of Chaos, and Prismatic Greys and Introverted Projections.

However, with some gentle coaxing, I was able to talk her into making herself public. She agreed to help me revise another one of my books, called Book 0, as well as joining me in releasing this joint project. She even completed her first solo