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I didnt know Satan put a hit on me and God get it on me to share with the world. My honor as a common man is to stay on track and write appropriately.
I have been praised and offended others on the subject. The reason Im shy about what I have shared is I was feeling like I sounded like a broken record, but my Indian name is Broken Pencil. I have, when I was younger, written inappropriately and hope and pray they stay lost and burned. Im very ashamed of my potty mouth as I feel words on paper are greater than words spoken.
I am shy as I look in the mirror with my poets honor. My dream as I look, to be a master not to be a deaf, blind and mute. We all are, as I am, in a prison needing to be a god of war to realize the longing of myself. Love is everywhere even on the shelf. I love you, and everyone loves everybody else.
Benny Joe Diaz
Benny Joe Diaz, a.k.a. Broken Pencil, is a human writer with compassion for the world. Born in 1963 in Texas and at the age of two moved to Missouri. Since the age of twelve he was living in Kansas. In his late teens, he started a partner roofing business and started learning all types of construction. Worked for a glass plant started in 1989 and had ten years’ service. Still doing construction, he learned to work with kids with special needs. In 1989, he started writing poetry and joined a poetry workshop in 2000. He appeared in Best Poems and Poets in 2005 and 2006. He was just writing in his journal and having a hard time coping with life and putting it all down, putting it in God’s hands, and not letting God do all the work for he was also a fighter. He says he is shy, but people see him as outgoing.
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The Longing - Benny Joe Diaz
Copyright © 2014 by Benny Joe Diaz.
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CONTENTS
The Longing
The Mirror
Poets’ Honor
My Dream
Me
As I Look
Masters
Blind
Deaf
Mute
It Still Might Be Too Late
We All Are
A Prison Fable
God Of War
The Longing
The Hug Under God
Sws
Broken Pencil Feels
Are You Ready
Tears Are Not Forever
Confusion
Satan, You’re Under Human Arrest
Living On Borrowed Time
It Does Matter, Time
War
Have Soul
Sell It To Jesus
If
Goodness Spell
Suffering Exaggerated
What Can I Say?
Imagine
Don’t Be Hating
As I Pick Up My Pen
I’m The Writer
The Poet
Poetry Shuffle
Bingo
The Rapper
Day Was Sunny
A God’s Thug
Broken Pencil Is For Real
Commercial
Forgive Me
Playing
Godology
Poetry Insight
The Reason For A Spanking
Since I’m Back
Life
Rain
The Day After Tomorrow
Future America
Game Of Life
In The End
Pray
Under God
What’s Up, G
Mason Judge And A Dollar Bill
Family Tree
Never Ending
Self-Inflicted
Chastisement
Life Is Not That Hard
Broken
Sand
Anxiety
The October
Midlife Crises
Dearly Departed
Think Man Part Ii
Our Johanna Fuegate
Our Matt Noblet
The End Of The Road
A Pond Time
Valiant
Hi
Unwritten
Want
Up
Can’t Knock Me Down
As Write-Up King
To Cross Over
Betty Jean Diaz
My Mother Will Keep Me Safe
Next Episode
Relentless
Whisper
Destiny
Destiny To Die
Fire And Ice
Unfinished Business
God’s National Geographic
Grain Of Sand
Sequel Next Episode
Triggers
I Feel
Discipline
Tick
Aunt Stella
War Sucks
Pay Day
Me, Myself, And I
Blood, Sweat, And Tears Spurge
She That Must Be Obeyed
In The Dark
Love Song Then Some
Order Specialist
Love Is A Superpower
Trusting Love
Jo Ann Diaz
You
Beauty
Addiction
6/9/13
Ha Ha
Dear Mom,
Dear Dad,
I’m Shy Really
De
I’m Benny Joe
I’m Broken Pencil
Mug
Picket Line
I Am To Blame
Blues
God The Creator
Lyrical Einstein
Human Stand Up
Rip
Zombie
Zombie Part Ii
Something
Tug
Go To Heaven
I’m Superman
Very
Four-Wheel Drive
Every Day I’m Hustling
As I Get Older
Remix
God’s Wall
God Gave Me Homework
Mine
Paco
Hell’s Kitchen
Glow
Pride
Heaven’s Most Wanted Kings Of The World The Jungle
Writing
Satan, You’re Under Human Arrest
Straight Up Part Ii
The World
There Will Be The Day Part Ii
Dreams
This Life Before Eternity
Pool Players Honor
Opinion
Game Over!
Invitation
My Holy Spirit Is Crazy
History
Think Man
Think Man Part Ii
Your Left, Your Left, Your Left, Right
Reach The Sun
We All Are
Even Say Please
More Than One?
I’m Equal
Chosen Ones
Lyrics
I Survived Anticivilization
Millionaire
Savable
You Know
Who Is Your Judge?
So Be It
Can I Get An Amen
Chosen Ones
Heart’s Tears
Queen Of Our Jungle
Who Got Who?
Planet Earth
A Blaze Upon A Time
I’m Serious
THE LONGING
My very first letter to my dear family—I speak of life pressures, creative views, and the crashing blow that almost did you in. The child’s wisdom that I need to let sink in. Not as a wise man but as a child I wrote The Longing. God and his helpers have helped me in my journey so I don’t fall. All right, children of the world, how to go back, to be innocent for heaven—go that extra mile. To get in heaven, the innocence of a child.
Life pressures you to separate the boy from the man, the girl from the woman when you need that boy or girl to be happy. That creative view sees you through the crashing blow that almost did you in. Born to smile, for we are the princes or princesses in the universe, same as you. Wondering what God would do so I can fill their shoes. My muscles raw, my shield at its peak. Main muscle, my brain, keeping me from going insane. The boy back into the man or girl back into the woman, not taking pressure for an answer. Generosity is not a given but earned. Feels like magic, it is because you know the secret.
From a thunder voice of the many that left their words. When in the universe it’s hugs and kisses? Time to stop the history clock from going around. Always think to the fundamentals of everything you are about to do. It makes it obvious—is this the universe of hugs and kisses? How is generosity earned? How long will it take you to figure that out?
It will take the control—that is what is within your soul. Look in the mirror—that is the control to only speak of. Balance the scale; be on the level. To have compassion, you also have to earn it.
You have to love to love others; you have to have a good heart to stop the history clock from turning. You have already been given a gift; it is up to you to use it. Iron grip on reality, change the future; don’t live in a history cycle. You then can see the true projection, nothing, I mean there is nothing to die for. When one chooses to die, that is their projection, what they truly needed or wanted. When one says love is not for me,
that is their projection. There will always be that black and white. Still, that is nothing to die for, but you will. When I say die, it is not like the die we would think; there are lots of ways to die.
That may not seem fair; love is always fair. A bad choice is deceptive. A wrong choice is a mistake; the right choice is love. Think of all these projections, as we all hold the power of choice as well as love. It’s like the comparison, why have a boat when it can’t float on water? Why do you need a boat when you can walk on water? What is inside me is also inside of you. What is projection? The answer is, it is you. Now you know the mind reader’s secret.
Remember being a child—you knew things; still you were unsure of them. You sought for answers, you had good and bad times, you were innocent, and you integrated yourself with your surroundings. Most of all, you wanted love and needed to have fun. As you depended, and some did not have that luxury; therefore, they needed the secret to life more than ever. To not be in the middle of life and fall into the bad projection. Not the survival of the fittest but to cradle the weak with pure love and honesty with an iron grip, creating for yourself and others.
As I ask this question, I would like you to be totally honest with yourself. Is money a need or a want? As a worker needs tools to get the job done, we can see deeper in others’ projection of money and if it’s a need to them or a want. By now you can see the history clock still turning. We are at war now; what does that tell you? That we will be at war again. Now who is lying? You have the power to stop the history clock. We all have the gift; we all know the secret. To be honest here, was it us or the government that controls and causes all this war business?
The government’s business should be creating. Are our elderly safe and taken care of? Is our children’s education a money problem? Can you see the projection yet? Who wants true freedom? Who knows what true freedom is? I can tell you this freedom is not working for a four-year to eight-year term then always having a paycheck for the rest of your life when the rest of us just sit back and do nothing about the government’s controlling projection. How could a person create the highest value where everyone’s needs are taken care of? How could one know the ones that need help? I guess the projection is clear because we are by no means that evolved.
A criminal goes to jail—that is all; a person goes to war—that is all. When it’s all over and the time is spent, the criminal and the vet are treated the same. The criminal or the vet could earn a Nobel Prize, but we still only see with our eyes. There will be the hungry and the homeless. There will be the greedy and the daydreamers, and there will be many. True, you will always have the very few Nobel Prize winners. Our history is the fact holder to this fact; as the history clock turns, so does the world. How could one snowball you to switching truths, being the second hand on the history clock?
THE MIRROR
The mirror tells, projects, you know, colors and shades, a creative view, this search for pure security. Behaving good, bright like a star, be sure of searching security. Passing away the shade of gray, metaphor way our survival, security. The shade of gray is in the middle; it is mental.
A search for pure security. Please tell me, why a red rose for love? My eyes, sun rise, in search for pure security. Black and white surround the gray. The battles inside of your head in need of pure security. As we rise out of the ghetto as creators, that’s who we are. Might have lived in but were not part of the ghetto. We protected ourselves from the anticivilization and the government.
With my baby steps, my parents drilled in my mind and heart love and honesty to create values. They knew what I was going to have to go through. It might seem cruel my sentence to grow in the ghetto of the anticivilization and cheating government. As I moved out of my mother’s house, she reminded me to stay in my baby steps and be a man. Always for me to remember, I will always be her little baby. In my journey that made me think about raising a baby, here now is my metaphor: in our God, his creation, his journey, he is raising us, his baby.
Still, not all my babies were raised by me. I could be a freak of nature because I can’t reach the knife in my back. I could only imagine how our mentor feels about some of the writings that I and we have read. My son was raised by his mother. It was not until he was almost grown that I was finally able to win custody. I’m strict and firm, and my wife asked why was I so mean. Then she said never mind; she saw all the love in my eyes.
Here is your disclaimer—no more invisible but invincible. You have to think about us, not your love gaining rust. Could you understand you cannot touch this? Truly to stimulate others into bliss. No more what you think; it’s what you know. It’s the universe and the civilization’s show. So what you go through, do you have a plan to make it true? You have the right to be treated like a king or queen by your projection. So what is your projection? Others can lay their hands or their minds on you. What do you surround yourself with?
Poets’ Honor
Poets in the house,
a tribute to those
that make words flow,
interesting imaginations glow.
For us readers,
your poet artistry show.
What we share
is the world’s glare,
our life’s eccentric flare,
also a tear and a stare.
You don’t know what will happen.
Creative words that just appear.
Thanks for the inspiration,
thoughts, and ideas shared.
Poems to show,
heart beats of being scared.
Get a bold feeling,
the scars start healing.
Wouldn’t know without you.
God bless
Three cheers for you!
For what you’ve been through,
a rawhide to chew.
Honor to one’s self,
pens stay off the shelf!
My Dream
Humble, major nerves as