Wake Up, Grow Up, Show Up: Poems from Rehab to Recovery
By B. Anonymous
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The poems in this book outline the progression of one addicts recovery throughout the rehabilitation process emotionally, physically, and spiritually. My hope is that any addict or alcoholic will know that recovery is possible. There is hope for a better life.
B. Anonymous
B. Anonymous is an addict in recovery. Twenty years of smoking marijuana led to using powder cocaine, which progressed to abusing crack cocaine for another ten years. After a total of thirty years of drug abuse and a family intervention, rehabilitation was a matter of life or death. The author shares the unedited versions of poems that were written in chronological order from the author’s rehabilitation into recovery to let fellow addicts know there is hope for them to recover.
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Wake Up, Grow Up, Show Up - B. Anonymous
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Posthumous Dedications
For my Dad who loved me unconditionally
For my maternal Grandmother who supported me lovingly
For Christiane P. who challenged
me to publish these poems
CONTENTS
Preface
Part Zero: Before Rehab Less Than Zero
2 Guys
Part One: Rehab – Primary Care
It’s True
Extend Your Care Out There
Caring And Compassion
Part Two: Rehab - Extended Care
The Prayer Chair
Mean Gleam
Reglas
Black
Leaf
Thanks
Sonya – Angel Of Mine
Letter To Self…..’Pep Talk!’
Tribute – Coach Rob
Coke, Pot, And Pills
Best Beth Ever
Weak In The Knees
Secrets
Goodbye
Part Three: Halfway House
To: Wendy R
Bottomed Out
Part Four: Independent Living
Our Mimi
Part Five: Sobriety – from 1 year and 1 month
Regrets
Drama
See You On The Outside
Greetings Friends
P . I . J . D .
The Passing Lane
My Hero
The 9Th Floor
Part Six: Five Years Sober
Breakthrough
Hole In My Soul
Back To Crack
Extended Care
Trusted Servant
Fumble Recovery
Bitch
Believe
Are Ya Kidding Me?
Rage
Peapod
Re-Love
Words Not To Be
Text Not Sent
Child I Never Had
All Or Nothing
Old Life, New Life
Don’t Get High On Your Own Supply
A Bad Wintry Mix
Up Again
Still Up
Note To: Self
My
Sandy
Father Bill……………………..Rock Star
Part Seven: Cancer
Fear Sucks
Tastes Change
Scared
Sleep Escapes Again
Part Eight: Conclusion
Reverend Jack
Manic Again
C
Stands For Crack
Part Nine: Gratitude
Thank You
PREFACE
Thirty years of doing drugs wreaked havoc on my life. By October 25, 2006, my handwriting was barely recognizable. I could not keep a job, a residence, a relationship, or my sanity. Addiction had created a hole in my soul and I was completely broken. I had 13 charges on my police record and had been in and out of jails and psychiatric wards and facilities. I had wrecked several cars and was lucky to still be alive.
I was smoking $200 dollars worth of pot and crack cocaine daily. I had tried dealing but I got high on my own supply so that was a failed business venture.
I was an undiagnosed un-medicated bipolar drug addict with a case of Heineken Light, a gallon of 2% milk, and a gallon of chocolate milk in the fridge. This was my sustenance.
If I could afford bacon I would cook it to cover the smell of smoking drugs in my apartment. I used onions when I couldn’t afford bacon.
I had so many grandiose ideas of how I was going to become rich and famous someday. I minimized my crack use seeing as I only sprinkled it
in my joints!
I wrote my ideas on the walls of my apartment seeing as I never seemed to have any paper, unless you consider the cardboard from the case of beer as paper.
In this book I will try to show you what addiction looked like from a physical, emotional, and spiritual perspective. I will also try to show you the process of healing from all three perspectives.
My hope is that the readers can see the process and understand that IT IS POSSIBLE to recover from the worst of situations, even with a dual diagnosis.
Finally, it is IMPERATIVE that any addict or alcoholic wanting to get sober is willing to work as hard on their recovery as they did at getting their drugs or alcohol. I