Distant Winds

By Eton Wolfe

This work is a diary in poetic form. It gives a history of one mans struggle with the two great loves in his life, those being God and his best friend. There are some Christian poems whoever the main thrust is of his undying secret love for her. Etons poetry often has a dark flavor which he attributes to the fact that his favorite poet was Edger Allan Poe. If you are someone who enjoys a variety of subjects then this may be the book of poetry for you. Contained within its pages are over three hundred individual works and a satire located in the back.

• Language: English
• Publisher: Xlibris US
• Release date: Mar 11, 2014
• ISBN: 9781493182718

Eton Wolfe

Eton Wolfe grew up in a small country town with his three siblings, two older brothers and an older sister. As he was always into the arts he felt out of place, hiding his love for the craft from all. Eton is a disabled, visually impaired veteran of the United States Military and is active in the local church, using every opportunity to share his faith in the risen Lord Jesus and help in whatever way he can find to use the events in his life to reach out to others. Mr. Wolfe is quick to point out that his diminished eye sight has only increased his vision as he is currently attending school for a Bachelors in Theology with a minor in Apologetics. Some may find it difficult to understand how he, being spiritually minded could write on the subject of loving someone who is not able to freely return those feelings but as Eton says himself “We are all imperfect. We all have things that we must struggle against, the problem with many Christians today is that we do not show the world our frailties and in so doing they either do not think that we can understand how they feel or worse still they see through our facade and realize that the holier than thou persona is merely a mask.

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Contents

Foreword and Acknowledgments

A conversation between poets

All the jewels

Almost there

Alone

Always with you always with me

Angel with butterfly wings

As but ships

As I whisper her name into the night

As the sun

Auspicious occasion

Awake my love

Basking

Beautiful soul

Beauty of the Queen

Before I ever knew your name

Before we knew

Behind you

Bent and broken

Best of friends

Between two worlds we dance

Blessing

Blind ice

Boundaries

Bridling time

Bring yourself

Broken

Building your castle

But for the asking

Calm within the storm

Coming of the king

Complexity

*Conflagration*

Could dreams ever be

Cry upon my shoulder

Cupid

Dance

Dance among thorns

Dare to dream

Dark world

Day shall come

*Days within a daze*

Deepens daily

Diamond from coal

Did you wish

Distance far too far

Distant wind

Do you believe

Do you realize what you do

*Dost thou tarry thine coming*

Dream

Dream comes to end

Dreams belie

Dream of her

Dreams that dreams dream of

Each beat is for two

Each day

Each time the dream must end

Earth wind and water

Eclipsing shadows

Embrace

Emotion revealed

Enchanted

Entrusted with such

Escaping breath

Fairy tale dream

*Faith’s Crucible*

Fate

Fateful night

Fear of death

Final curtain

*Final Tears*

First of many firsts

Flower winter spring

For all time

Forbidden love

Force that drives me ever on

Forever friends

Forever mine

Freedom

Free to dream

Fret not that you have time enough

From whence you came

Furnace that burns

Future distant far

Glad my sight is dimmed

God in His infinite wisdom

*God of all that I survey*

*God’s slave*

*God’s sorrow*

Grey my heart

Groaning heart

Guiding light

Have I lost

Hidden behind a smile

Hidden candle

Holding onto shadow

How I desire to hold you

How I long

How I long to hold

How we shall laugh

*I am poured out like water*

I be in waking

I can not help but think

I can not promise you forever

I could exist forever

I do

I dream of a time

*I drove the nails*

I hold

I imagine

I know he says

I long for you

I need to hold you

*I would stand*

If all we have is all we have

If I could

If only for a season

If the wait

If to only but hold the wind

If we were both free

In our dreams

*In the Potter’s hands*

Inevitably

Intimately hold

Is it to spoil

Is it wrong

It is this current pain

It is this knowing

It was not

Jester knight or king

Jesters are permitted to dream

Just a simple dream

Just allow me to be

Just so you know

Just to be your shoulder

Kick I on against the spur

King of dreams

King’s karat

Kiss me

Land that time forgot

*Lesser miracles*

Let me

Let us pretend

Let us slip to night of passion

Letting go

Lord of sadness

Love, adore

Love for always

Love in view

Love is pain

Love of a Queen

Love thee

Love’s lie

Love’s wing

Made for you

Mask

Mere mirror

Merely tears

Missed

Moments pass, my love remains

More than words

Morning while in mourning

Music fills the air

*My body*

My heart

My heart be yours

My nights

Never far

*No thank you*

*No time*

Northern Star

*Not my will*

Odyssey of love however long

Of love

Of seven deadly sins

*Of what I lost to gain*

Once I found a wounded butterfly

Once it is we

*Once more*

Onto the light

Onward toward our falling star

Others may not fathom

Our day has finally come

Our goodbyes

Our love shall hold

Our prison cell

Our time has been foretold

Our two hearts

Outside of dreams

Pain within while I am without

Perfect day

Perfect dream

Perhaps

Piece that brings me peace

Poems

Poet, knight, or thief to plunder

*Poured out like water*

Priceless pearl

Prisoners

Protector, Poet, Prince

Quest I on forever

Question posed to Oracles

Quietly waiting

Rain

Reality

Reason for the light

Reign within rain

*Rendering*

Restless again

*Reunion*

Right now we close our eyes

Rose trapped within a stone

Run the race however long

Run to me

Secretly hold

Shadow king of sorrow

Shadows ever dark depressing

She is beauty

She is gone

She is not you

She stands alone

She was even mine

Shield of shelter shadow

Should diamonds

Sin that so besets

Sit upon your throne

Slip away

Small moments

*Soldiers prayer*

Someday they shall

Someday soon

Someday when hope

Souls of destiny

Sowing emotion

Spread out your wings

Stand as still as stone

Statue of grace

Steel my heart

Still beautiful

*Still I sin*

Stronger day by day

Strongest weakness

Struggle not to know my mind

Struggling onward

Such as you

Tears stream ever down

The chair

The charge in charge

The clouds shall clear

The day drifts

*The debt*

*The dragon*

The kiss belonged to someone else

The Thaw

The wind calls out your name

The word for a feeling

Then dream with me

These hands

Thing that causes my soul to weep

Though our dream

Though we walk

Though your wings

Through eternity

Ties that bind

Till reality comes to pass

Time

To catch a butterfly

To feel you at my side

To love be blind

To taste of lips

To those tears of joy

Together we are different

Together we dream

Tomorrow shall be better

*Treasures*

Two hearts touch

Unrestrained

Upon the altar of love

Vast emptiness of my heart

Victorious dream

Victory shall come

Vulnerable heart

*Walk on*

Walls away

Waxen chain

We are imprisoned you and I

We shall love

Weave me

What would you do

When a poet dreams

When an angel kisses back

When days

When demons

When I have my heart’s desire

When I think of being with you

When it is I dream

When it is we dance

When you wake

While the morning

While you slept

Women strive to be

You and only you

Yours alone

A Queen needs a King

Beats true

Bittersweet

Goodnight

Guilt

Obviously unseen

Shall I

The Narrative

The place hidden

The Holey Evolutionary Bible

Evolutionary Genesis

Foreword

and

Acknowledgments

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First I would like to take this opportunity to personally thank you for purchasing this book of poetry. Please keep in mind that I, being a whole person, chose to compile poems from a wide array of subject matter. There are poems about love, sadness, and faith. The poems on faith I have earmarked with asterisks so as to allow for ease in navigating either to or around them, whichever is your preference.

Second, I would like to simply say thank you to my Lord who has never failed me and to she who will only be referred to as Milady, may she someday come to understand fully the love that I have hidden for so many years.

To friends and family, should they ever discern who wrote this book or its object simply remember that I am merely human.

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A conversation between poets

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The thorns which I have reap’d are of the tree

I planted; they have torn me, and I bleed.

I should have known what fruit would spring from such a seed.

~George Gordon, Lord Byron, Childe Harold’s Pilgrimage

Yah though their be thorns

Upon that most slender branch

They are there to so protect

Fruit from the crows sly glance.

And to a prince who braves the wounds

The pain and scars will heal

He shall have that precious food

From which to make his meal

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All the jewels

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All jewels loose their luster

Even stars refuse to shine

When confronted with the beauty

Of which I would spend all time

Someday my days journey

May see me safe to waiting arms

Of my beloved Milady

Who is hidden within my heart

So on I trudge this mortal frame

With lightened steps guide ever near

To that planned predestined day

When it is I can finally say

Milady, we are here

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Almost there

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Each day that slowly passes

As moments slip away

We are growing ever closer

To that appointed day

Simply look back my love

On when we had but met

How fast that time has gone

I think it shall move faster yet

Though it seems so slow

While we battle through

Once it has finally past

Then I shall be with you

Don’t look at the distance to travel

Just focus on your hand in mine

We shall see the road is easy

And how quickly will go the time

Till then I shall hold you close

Run my fingers through your hair

Whisper these words to you daily

Milady, we are almost there.

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Alone

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Stand I alone upon the shore

Stare out at barren seas

Empty emotion, wanting more

Though no ships sail forth for me

A beacon of loneliness I wait for her

Knowing she does not show

Condemned to exist with this pain

For a beauty that must not know

To feel to love it matters so

Makes ones’s life worth living

I fear that I will never know

For the chance was never given

And now her heart to someone else

Belongs, I shall take my leave

Wishing only for her happiness

Though the wound I bear doth bleed

Slowly my soul weeps

In quiet do I mourn

The time did pass me by

So that now I am alone

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Always with you always with me

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Just say that you don’t have to go

Stay here close by my side

I shall hold you as the evening passes

Let us pay no attention to time

I shall sit upon the chair

With you next to me

You’ll see my emotions grow

For this is how we are meant to be

Let’s pretend we have no need

No pressing to urge us on

Except that of my feelings for you

That are still here once you are gone

My desire is for you, Milady

Just to press in to you close

Know the only thing that separates

Is the thinness of our clothes

For my heart is found with you

And your’s is found with mine

They have begun synchronicity

As they beat in perfect time

One beat, one pulse,one sound they share.

Milady, you are never far away

For the aching within my chest

Reminds me of our appointed day.

At that time what joyous rapture

What sweet jubilee

For our chains shall be unfettered

As we become finally free

I will pick you up in a love embrace

Tears will stream down my face

As emotions pour from their hiding place.

I’ll be yours and you’ll be mine

For all time.

Yes for all time.

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Angel with butterfly wings

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I feel I’ve been blessed

Given great happiness

Thou I remain hidden unseen

My soul oft takes flight

Leaving me in the night

To an angel with butterfly wings

Each mornings return

Makes my envy burn

That it could be so to her near

When I was as slave

Shackled by chains

Bound for my body stayed here

Yet at least I in part

Was close to the heart

Of my angel with butterfly wings

So I shall pray

That there comes a day

When I hold her in more than my dreams

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As but ships

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We pass as but ships upon the sea

With veiled glance we eye

Hidden thoughts pass you to me

With no safe harbor in which to lie

So onward sail the mist and foam

Holding to our courses true

Perhaps in days we no longer roam

Shall find me beside with you

Then free, we’ll no longer be

Shadowed ships within the past

But drawn a catch within our nets

Sheltered in inlets at last

We’ll drop the sail take what we will

Leaving craft to be dashed by cliff

For we shall be finally free

To finally, honestly live

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As I whisper her name into the night

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Lonely ever on daily am I lonely

though my body is found here

my heart has left, my soul is gone

they have taken to the side of my Queen

still this form moves

hollow, the emptiness within filled with tears

yet still it remains empty

knowing our lives must be separated by distance

however we are never truly apart.

for the fire within this empty shell

burns as hot as coal

this separation will end

all pain will be merely the toll

exacted for such a perfect reward

for now I shall speak through my heart and soul

I will let them relay my love to my love

so as she hears the drumming soft in the dark

she may know that this poet’s frame awaits

aches for her touch, her kiss

that this form awaits to be made whole

not by the return of my heart and soul

but by her scent as she who is everything

finds freedom in her poor poet’s arms

so every second of everyday I pray

to hold the one who