I Knew It When I Saw The Dog: My Encounter with Miley

By Michael Fontana

From the moment I walked through the door and saw an innocent little beagle, I realized that my life would never truly be the same. What began as a moment of sobbing and solitude on the floor opened my eyes to the path that I was on to achieve pure love and joy for myself. This is the story of a man who saw his identity in dependency, only to realize that the only reciprocal love is the love of self.

"I Knew It When I Saw The Dog" is a trying personal memoir of the destruction and recreation of a man. Sometimes everything needs to fall apart to be able to put things together again, this time so that peace and purpose last.

• Language: English
• Publisher: BookBaby
• Release date: Jan 26, 2021
• ISBN: 9781098347192

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I Knew It When I Saw The Dog

My Encounter with Miley

©2020 Michael Fontana

All rights reserved. This book or any portion thereof may not be reproduced or used in any manner whatsoever without the express written permission of the publisher except for the use of brief quotations in a book review.

print ISBN: 978-1-09834-718-5

ebook ISBN: 978-1-09834-719-2

Opening

The events in this piece are real. They are experiences that I went through and accounts from others in interviews and discussions. This is my perspective of all that happened to bring me to this moment. Some names have been omitted for anonymity, while others have been kept to keep to the truth of the text. There is nothing in here that is fictional. I want you to learn from my mistakes and the moment that gave me clarity.

You learn something every day; you learn from yourself every day. If you can understand the emotion that triggered certain responses, then that is also a step for growth. Understand that you exercise your light every day and there is an emotion and a need that it’s feeding all the time. What emotion or need is that feeding? All of these things happen to fulfill an emptiness or unfulfilled need in our lives or sometimes an inward perspective of self-love. The understanding of who we really are and when you get on your Divine path and understand your own journey is most important. Furthermore, sometimes where you are currently is just the place where you are supposed to be right now. To do what you are here to do. What is your Divine Purpose? What do you want to get up and do? What do you want to do every day? The more you bring that into your life before then you attract that higher vibration and then will come that opportunity. When you stay in that joy and stay in that happiness everyday as the story unfolds you make a triple jump forward. The world we live in now is non-linear. Time is non-linear; even though we are told it is linear through programming and conditioning. Ironically, yes, I did talk about time as we have time to do what we want but more is the concept of time itself. The ocean of time is abstract; it does not exist; it is all something we have created in the false reality in which we live, coming in and out of your life constantly.

It’s whether we take the opportunity to see if you notice them and realize who you are and how you have been shaped. You can be changed; a leopard can change his spots; a dog can learn new tricks, if you are willing to actually understand why you are broken in the first place. Can you dial yourself into your inner being if you were told to share your choices? They are all conscious decisions made by you. You might have made that decision on your own but there was already a trigger in your head. If you could let yourself go; let the thought of worry go and the thought of your ego go because they don’t exist. I just want you to understand that the awakening is coming to you.

Contents

Opening

Preface

Forward

Introduction

Part 1

I knew it When I Saw the Dog

What happened to the card?

The Journey That Began in 2015

The Thought of Having to Let Go

Self-Fulfilling Prophecy

Part 2

The Dirty Secret

The Start

Cut to…

Jules

Ego

Lotus

Attraction

Part 3

The Beginning of the End

Lady Number Three

Trust

Part 4

Awakening

Epilogue

References

Preface

1 Corinthians 13

¹If I speak in the tongues [1] of men and of angels, but have not love, I am only a resounding gong or a clanging cymbal.

²If I have the gift of prophecy and can fathom all mysteries and all knowledge, and if I have a faith that can move mountains, but have not love, I am nothing.

³If I give all I possess to the poor and surrender my body to the flames, [2] but have not love, I gain nothing.

⁴Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud.

⁵It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs.

⁶Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth.

⁷It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.

⁸Love never fails. But where there are prophecies, they will cease; where there are tongues, they will be stilled; where there is knowledge, it will pass away.

⁹For we know in part and we prophesy in part,

¹⁰but when perfection comes, the imperfect disappears.

¹¹When I was a child, I talked like a child, I thought like a child, I reasoned like a child. When I became a man, I put childish ways behind me.

¹²Now we see but a poor reflection as in a mirror; then we shall see face to face. Now I know in part; then I shall know fully, even as I am fully known.

¹³And now these three remain: faith, hope and love. But the greatest of these is love.¹

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1 King James Bible. (1973). Nashville, TN: Holman Bible.

Forward

As noted in the opening of The Glass Menagerie² by Arthur Miller, this piece is from memory, as Tom Wingfield states. In fact, it is more than memory because it has elicited emotions that had for many years remained dormant and isolated. This is not written to offend anyone; this is a cathartic experience for me to write as a spiritual being and as a spiritual experience. In fact, much of what I am writing here is coming from my inner being, my higher self, my soul. And it is from me, so it is filled with many pop culture references and allusions to compare and introduce how I see what happened to me, and how many signs reveal themselves, if you pay attention and notice the connections. It is abstract and non-linear because that is not just how I remember it, but how I have put it all together as memory and an understanding of its purpose. We create our own reality. We vibrate a connection whether it is positive or negative or good or bad. The choices that we bring into our reality and our thoughts that resonate from either a good place, which then turn into choices, are usually more good than bad if they come from an emotion of love.

As you will see in this book there are manifestations that I have created because of the purpose that I am here to complete and the lessons that I need to learn. In the soul contract I signed as I came here into an Earthly body, born as a male, raised as a single child, went to school, got married, obtained a job, are all a part of the process of my ascension to a higher realm of consciousness and that could not be achieved without all of the situations that transpired. I came to this planet and written on this page are details, experiences crafted into my life for another item to learn: a karmic awakening. They bring an overall understanding of choice and the results, both positively and negatively in the long run, and shaped me; awakened and transformed this light worker.

There have been many experiences in this text that may or may not be frustrating to me as I look back to the moments, and they may shape your opinion of me in your eyes, but my job is not to value your opinion - that is your energy, not mine. And as I write them down, I do see that the vibration and frequency at the time distorted these situations in my life and resulted in karmic patterns to repeat. The practice of those events reflected that I was still vibrating at a certain frequency to attract those decisions and actions. The goal I want you to gain from this is how we continue to evolve and grow our own awakened experience. What is at 15, 35, 40, 50, 60, years old tunes us into what really is going on in the world.

An intention for this text blends personal experience with a literature review of much of the reading, journaling, observing, and meditating that began as far back as 2015, but many of the Aha! moments did not resonate until the summer of 2018. The knowledge contained in this text I share with all of you because there is something bigger that I know many of you are aware of but cannot explain what it is. This vibration I want to share with others is vital to the awakening of the collective because the more we can get to vibrate at this high frequency the more abundance, the more prosperity, the more joy, and the more happiness we will actually have in all of our lives. The fact that during our stay inside, during the spring and moving to the summer of Covid-19, America should be enlightening with most of you because how many of you have had time to either complain, which brings down your vibration, be frustrated, which also brings down your vibration, or be angry, which, again, lowers your vibration. Instead, take this time to grow, find yourself worthy, and love your own spiritual, emotional, and physical bodies and transcend their existence. Will you bring down your vibration or will you look at the positive gift of time? I am not saying that it isn’t difficult and I’m not saying that there aren’t struggles - financially, emotionally, and spiritually - from all of these instances, but realizing you’re attracting these moments to happen. When you establish worry and doubt, then that is all you will see because that is all that is posted on your social media; that is all that is on your television. What you are going to feel is what you’re going to continue to bring into your life. Like attracts like, when you think about what you don’t want, you bring in exactly what you don’t want.

You create your reality and now is the time to communicate with friends and family whether it’s on the phone, writing letters, or emails. You have time to sit and think and ignore the constant movement of our lives and the ADD lifestyle we have, especially in the USA. We have been conditioned to not sit down and relax, to not sit down and take a breath. We are not stuck at home, but rather we are gifted the opportunity to be at home. To be at home is to be with loved ones, to experience the joy of those who want to do better and protect the planet, and